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I think there are more nerves on some parts of the body then others although there is genetic variation to a degree of course. But also some body parts are just more intimate than others. The leg especially the inside of the leg will be a lot more intimate then the arm or the shoulder. So that's why I think it can be applied as a strategy, because where sensitivity and intimacy on body parts is is still relatively similar for most people but correct me if I am wrong.

2kg of carrots. At about 700g I get stomach pain, below that is fine.

You need experience with physical escalation. I am really unexperienced with it as well which is why even a move like this could come accross as awkward. It should be casual/ natural/ not a big deal. Start with less sensitive body parts like the arms or also the shoulders and see how she reacts.

I always mostly smiled when Leo mentions in his Blog how women are more connected to reality through their vagina. But maybe because the saying is so catchy it stayed with me and I developed a curiosity of what is meant with that. Especially how literally it is meant. I came up with the explanation that because women can give birth they are a lot closer to the existential, not in a philosophical/ outzoomed/ abstract manner but literally. And in my observation that's true as they dont loose themselves in it so easily (like scientists/ rationalists/ gamers/ ...), like they dream "properly". Maybe that makes sense lol. What do you think is the meaning of that saying? I am curious.

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@Shrooms_Alvarez How is this information valuable for you? If you want to try a new psychedelic you should always start low and work yourself up.

I made an oversimplification but it's a spectrum of course. There are women who study math and physics for example but in general it's more men. I like that. And mens survival depends on women's grounding in reality? I think they both ground each other. Men ground women in their delusion because as you said a proper amount of delusion is needed for survival.

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Jordan Peterson talks about how the feminine is chaos and needs grounding from men. But men need grounding from women just alike. Maybe both forces try to reach the absolute. When the opposites meet and relative love happens, the world gets moving. (mental masturbation)

No risk no fun lol. But you can use condoms then there is very little risk I think.

@Someone here Have you thought about doing it with a guy for real? I think getting sex with a guy with online dating is a lot easier than with girls but I could be wrong.

Is the chicken egg problem a strange loop?

I have had concentration problems/ ADHD all my life. I think I got the concentration problem from my mom as she also couldn't concentrate well. And sometimes I have problems understanding very basic things like simple tasks. My dad is similar in that regard. He is good at math and logical tasks which are clear but in many basic life aspects which aren't presented to you in "clear circles" he often doesn't understand things. But it's not like he is hyper left brained, he can grab emotional/ psychological problems really well sometimes he is simply overwhelmed when things become "wishy washy". So I probably got a weird mix of that. Many people told me that they think I am really intelligent but then sometimes I have such embarrassing retard moments. So I am hopping between those two fronts often. This makes me think that there are just certain aspects of my brain that may be deficient and I would like to pin point those to work with that. So I thought about doing a brain scan. Is that worthed or are there better alternatives? As for other possible causes: There are traumatic emotional problems of being an outsider in early childhood which could cause stress which could be partly the reason for some of my misunderstanding. And I will also give heavy metal chelation a shot but as I said I had these problems all my life.

Interesting topic in a talk with a psychologist: In the pursuit of complete authenticity what are we when we work through all traumas and all labels that we put on ourselves? Will we even be real then? What is an apple without the name apple, without the label sweet and fresh, without a picture in our mind, without science lenses, ... ? Well it will be reality. An apple is not its symbolic forms it just is ... reality. When we take away all our identification we will just be like an apple is. We will be reality. Whatever remains then. It's not a bug that this can not be grasped because if it could be then that would be a concept.

Very very interesting. Thats literally so valuable of an insight for me. Watched the video. What is his approach though? Just reflect a lot how childhood experiences must have been and cutting through bullshit (different examples explained in the video) ? What do you think of psychedelics for healing trauma? My most recent LSD trip opened me up a lot.

From the distance objects can seem "mushy". Yet if you zoom into everything no "mushiness" can be found, it's all concrete objects. Mushiness is simply a lack of consciousness.

His deeply romantic relationship. And his acceptance about life from the trip how stars are supposed to loose their shine over time. That was so beautiful. A story worth telling.

The moment I took it I thought I should have taken psylocibin, I have to deal with too many emotional problems atm and psylocibin is better suited for that. Then I got a little fear. I relaxed into it and started some lofi vibe music and got my body in a relaxed position. I got kind of sleepy. The trip shortly got me close to an ego death experience. But after that there were nothing mystical anymore. LSD stretched my heart and chest wide open like a deep dumbbell bench press. It felt really good. Almost all I could think about was hugs and love. Or better said my longing for it. And some graffiti art. I tried to get my mind to some spiritual topics but it drifted away to emotional topics right away. The last year I faced so much hurt, manipulation, repressed emotions, no opportunity to let bad energy out. And my heart got fearful and twisted. The trip got me way back to people 5 years ago for which I felt innocent love. Where everything made sense. Where I didn't question everything. I remembered how I talked to that one gym employee. Through some context I dont remember I said that she had a beautiful smile when she greets me. She was soo dreamy and peaceful just like me. She was maybe around 30 y.o. and I was like 18. But there was no doubt about it that I liked her. It simply felt good to be around her and that was it. And I further remembered how I loved before. Love is like rock music, punching on each others shoulder, flying, coloring each others hair, "life is strange", getting lost. I didn't know what to make out of my feelings before, the trip got me on my feet again. After the trip I took my cuddle toy from childhood too sleep. The next days a few more memories came up like my love for lego when I was in kindergarden. The trip wasn't painful or anything but it had nothing to do with spirituality. I had way more clear spiritual experiences on LSD before. It's quite shocking that almost nothing spiritual happened. But that just shows that you need to deal with your survival situation before you can face spiritual issues. I am working on collecting hugs for now haha.

@at_anchor Why can't you pack some essentials and move to a different place to start a different life? What country do you live in?

You can research my profile and make a guess. You said short distances are hard. Well then we can't help you. Do "they" know you are on this forum and know your account name? Otherwise it seems like fear of persecution.

@at_anchor Can you clearly explain your situation? How old are you? Why are you not able to travel anywhere? How is your status being withdrawn, withheld or stolen from you?

Tops are high value in clubs from what I have heard. Also why not use Grindr? Is it impossible for you to travel longer distances?

I train for more than 8 years now. I grinded for like 5 of them and identified as that gym dude. I reduced my gym time over the years. The last two years I mostly trained 2-3 times a week and for a few months now I only train once a week. It seems like I can actually keep my gains with one big whole body training once a week. But now it's less motivating to go to the gym that one time. I dont identify as that gym guy anymore, I found way more rewarding ways to spent my time. I am happy with my physique so I dont pursue gains anymore. It's all for health and the benefits that come with a muscular built. But that's a very different motivation that certainly doesnt motivate me as deeply. I want to train once a week for the rest of my life to stay fit and sexy but I dont know if I have the motivation to keep at it. Any thoughts on how to hardwire a habit you do only once a week?

I have time limits for YouTube videos when I am in YouTube (when the url has YouTube in it) but I can bypass that when I simply type the video in google and watch it in this preview way. All browser can do that it seems. I need to block that somehow both on MacOS and iOS, I dont need to use Safari although it would be preferred.