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Maybe that will help:

@Something Funny Congrats!

Whats wrong with you?

Left my old theatre club which was a tragedy for my social development. I kind of entered an extended adolescence, trying to fit in, connecting and building a new identity and it just didnt work out. I got blackpilled by direct experience about how girls can be in terms of cheating ... I feel like I lost so many years and opportunities and I am just too old to experience some of the things I could have experienced there. I am griefing over it every day to some degree. On the other hand I am much more emotionally stable thanks to leaving that place. I was a complete mess before. I am learning more about adhd and find ways to deal with it. I am working towards becoming a remote viewer which is either a huge hit or miss for my career path. I am also socializing a lot. I am putting so many good habits into place right now, some fruits need to come from it.

My mom talked with me about my career and I obviously couldnt take about RV. It was though as she that I should try something already besides my relatively low study demand and socializing and I just couldnt tell her.

All the hostels in Berlin are either outbooked or expensive. I could go party alone but thats too much, I need to get used to socializing at all. Its just unrealistic without drugs. It would have been perfect to go a few days to Berlin before, really get into a social state and then party my ass off today. I shouldnt pressure myself so much to do anything today. But I cant help but feel like an outsider right now. I am learning to knit at least but I am stuck at step 7. If I get it done it would be a worthy cope for missing out, because learning to knit is so important for processing emotions.

My mom speaks a lot about how much she fears death. Cant really get her to do psychedelics and if she isnt open to it, I shouldnt force herself to do it. I wonder if trip reports of other people could help her.

A person who admits a mistake is so beautiful.

Spirituality is about dying before you die. Spirituality is about breaking the devils net of controll. Spirituality is about putting consciousness on the building structure which keeps you unconscious, like beliefs about yourself, the universe, death... For example a spiritual thing to do would be to ask yourself what is death and then to direct your consciousness in that direction. Death will present itself as an imagination.

Slept terribly. Had 2 possible plans which failed. Guess its going to be a solo trip.

Time to wake up from my mommies boy numbness. Spent about a week with my parents, not socializing with everyone else. I kind of changed emotional stability for freedom. Havent planned anything for new years so I am likely throwing myself right into something new.

I am such a nerd for this fighting scene which I love, especially Mauls peak when Sidious killed his brother. Darth Maul was only got better with the story that was added in Clone Wars.

I watched a movie about Winston Churchill yesterday. It was the time spane around his time in office in WW2. It captured the atmosphere pretty well. Churchill didnt want to negotiate with Hitler when the military position wasnt strong. His explanation "You dont negotiate with a Tiger if you have your head in his maw". That resonates so much with me at my old theatre club, I needed some kind of grounding and backbone to have a honest conversation, I feel like I would have gotten eaten alive in terms of gaslighting if I let go of control too much.

Christmas feelings is a very real phenomenon. I opened up to some of the deepest love on christmas when I was a child. Obviously its all conformity, but it can take you to places!

So you think a topic like politics needs to be grounded in consciousness work from meditation to reach a respectable level of depth?

I have once seen a streamer delete an in game item with about 20 dollar value. Maybe it was just a way to detatch. It seemed that way to me. He seemed like a very conscious gamer if you can believe that.

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Feels like Leo is going back and forth with meditation and always with such a sense of supremacy if thats the right word. At one point he says its overrated because some genetically gifted people extract value from it but the vast majority it doenst do much and then at other points he says its foundational and everyone who doesnt do it cant be taken seriously as an intellectual. I guess at no point was the importance of meditation as a form of calming the mind negated.

You could challenge your bodies capacity for tolerating fatigue with doing lots of volume with other exercises as well.. Whats unique about the 1 RM deadlift is that its a ton of stress for a short time. When I started doing deadlift back in the day I always got very lightheaded until I got used to it. If that is of use and a worthy opportunity cost for other hypertrophy work later I dont know. Yeah, Mikes training style does feel smart and like you are training your body like a machine, that resonates with me. Its not unique to Mikes training though. I find it very hard to identify what is intuitive with all the subconscious programming we have which influences training. From male role model, believes about fitness from culture, influence of other gym goers, motivation level, testosterone, surpressed emotions, ... Can you imagine a child intuitively training for muscle growth?

Getting some replies. She seems to be a pro but its possible she is faking it.

You can probably find an accountability partner on reddit. Looks promising: https://www.reddit.com/search/?q=accountability+partner+adhd&type=communities&cId=1ddc8fc5-6641-4593-ba20-fe8cd1280de6&iId=d831b5b2-4091-4730-9b05-4ef13ec9e821 Tell me if you succeed though.

There are sources, websites etc. where you can find a reliability partner. Someone who asks you if you got your goals done? Has anyone experience with it? Feels like a commitment to start something like this. I have extremely high success with body doubling, its basically the only way for me to focus with adhd, so I am thinking that maybe there are some parallels.

No I havent ... It sounds a bit psycho but also genius. Could honestly be effective. I watched one of Dr. Mikes video about his struggle with adhd. Was this a side recommendation of him or does he do more content and tipps about adhd in extra videos? I blocked my Youtube because of adhd.

Maybe, maybe it acually needs more time under tension, I dont know. I dont know how science argues about it enough. Hehe, yeah thats how I would picture a hypertrophy stimulating 1 rep max as well. But that cant be the answer, either a not so grindy 1 RM (or close to 1 RM) is stimulating enough for hypertrophy or 1 RM should be reserved for strength. The amount of fatigue you accumulate with this one rep is unholy. A whole workout will cause less fatigue then this. CNS fatigue!? Would you say "scientific lifting" overlaps heavily with "intuitive lifting aimed at hypertrophy" ? Whats the difference?

For the strongmen they would need to cut more then 10-20% of their 10000 kcal diet. You are mostly in danger when you get very lean, to get shredded muscle needs to be sacrified. To get relatively lean not so much. Maintenance volume rises in a cut of course. Yeah I see what you are saying. But generally what science suggests is that a big spectrum of rep ranges work for hypertrophy. I used GPT to research the scientific body a bit and it turns out very heavy sets (1-2) reps are rarely measured for their hypertrophy stimulus directly because such studies are hard to do. Its more indirectly that scientist believe that very heavy sets arent as good for hypertrophy because the amount of effective reps (reps close before failure where all the wonderful stimulus happens) are so little as its mostly just 1 rep compared to sets with 6 , 12 , 20 reps with more effective reps before failure so thats why it doenst seem as effective. Your body may point intuitively to some way of training but is that intuition pointed towards what you want? In my case maximum hypertrophy. Does my goal and my bodies intuition align? I would consider 12 - 15 reps mid to high reps. Generally you want to do the whole rep range from time to time though. I dont really have a bias for a specific rep range I think. Well with some exercises I need a higher rep range to actually feel the muscle. And with Quads I try to be in the lower rep range as it makes the exercise easier psychologically.