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I am INFP as well. While I very much appreciate Leos excellence in his work and find it interesting and important it was always missing some of the juice, some poetry for me. This resonates very much with what I was thinking as well. Chatgpt says INFP are by far the most likely to be interested in these subjects. Which of these personalitiy are most likely to ACTUALLY realize god and not just a New Age fantasy is another question though.

Very interesting insights while I was contemplating with chatgt. I asked it which personality types are most likely to follow philosophical, theological, or spiritual questions and how these personality types differ in their exploration on the subject: 🧠💫 Most Spiritually/Philosophically Inclined Types: 1. INFP – “The Inner Seeker” Why they’re drawn: Deep need for personal meaning, moral truth, and emotional authenticity Style: Poetic, mystical, emotionally guided Themes: Goodness, suffering, soul, purpose Typical path: Journaling, poetry, ethics, mysticism, personal spiritual practice Wants to feel God or truth — not just define it. 2. INFJ – “The Visionary Mystic” Why they’re drawn: Seeks deep symbolic understanding of the world and human nature Style: Structured, symbolic, often influenced by psychology or archetypes Themes: Unity, transcendence, morality, collective soul Typical path: Jungian thought, mysticism, spiritual systems, religious studies Sees God in patterns, symbols, and inner transformation. 3. INTP – “The Metaphysical Analyst” Why they’re drawn: Fascinated by existence itself, truth, and logic Style: Abstract, skeptical, curious Themes: Ontology, consciousness, paradox, epistemology Typical path: Reading dense philosophy, theoretical theology, questioning belief systems Wants to understand God or truth — not necessarily believe in it. 4. INTJ – “The Rational Mystic” Why they’re drawn: Needs a coherent worldview, order in chaos, ultimate structure Style: Strategic, abstract, system-building Themes: Destiny, cosmology, ethics-as-system, spirituality-as-strategy Typical path: Structured theology, Stoicism, existentialism, sacred geometry, systems-based spirituality

I am too deep into that shit that I cant see clearly anymore, I need distance, I need vacation.

I started an offline blog because I felt like what I shared here became to personal, but it didnt felt like a relief at all. When I put something here it feels way more meaningful. And I guess I went so far anyway whats there to hide anymore. So after all of this reflection I had some days where I didnt think about my problems at all, I was moreso integrating a lot. Then yesterday I remembered moments in my life where I opened up. The pattern was always similar: it opened up a huge amount of emotional energy and it was always so so important and I was always so afraid of getting hurt or being rejected. When I got rejected it then and now took like a year to recover thats how intense the hit felt. This is also why I am so careful and so analyzing of everything around me to find the right people who would actually help/ avoid the people who would take advantage of me being in a weak position. So this night I had such a sweet dream. Where I opened up and got totally accepted for my shortcomings. Sweet dream. Maybe I am opening up to something.

Nevermind, peopke rank the pictures still at a 5. Well I reached 8 with the other picture, so I guess its doable.

So I found this website where people rank each others dating, business and social pictures and give advice. Its honestly pretty eye opening because I had all kind of ideas of what could make a good impression and what doesnt and this is like a direct encounter with reality. But its a bit blackpilling. You can earn your votes by rating other pictures and by doing that you develop your intelligence of what makes a good dating picture. https://www.photofeeler.com/

That makes sense. And everybody knows anyway that photo shoot photos make you look a few points more attractive then regular ones. Have you ever put a selfie in a bad setting onto a different background though?

This is like 50% of the photos I rate.

I cracked the code for making good selfies: Its not about pretending to be happy, confident, etc. all of that photos look cringe, you can never pretend good enough so that it actually looks authentic, its about ACTUALLY being in a state of happiness, confidence, love, ... this is where the magic happens: You have to bring yourself to that place. Maybe this is obvious stuff.

Makes sense.

Yes, its a different kind of difficult.

Pickup is also hard.

@something_else Do you only let women rank your pictures or both?

Thats very insightful, thank you! I have two photos where I put a lot of effort into with photographer and editing and all that and I got an 8 and a 6. Interestingly on bumble the picture which got a 6 in attraction is more polular then the picture which got an 8. The selfies I did myself are 5 or below. I am not talented at making selfies at all though and when I feel bad emotions which I do most of the time its hard for me to hide it, I manage to make a neutral expression but not a non creepy smile. I critique other pitures for the same reason though.

That would also be an option. They dont represent averages though.

What are your favourite Pocket Monster? Pokémon has a ton of nostalgia for me, as it was a huge thing in my childhood. I like the design of so many of them. I especially like these though:

I love that, I always wanted to be a freak so badly and thougt a lot about working in a circus because of it for many years. The same fire doesnt lit anymore when I see it though, not sure why. https://www.actualized.org/insights/insane-mastery

Finding existential beauty in fucked up situations to open people to profound love. A little more polished IF I commit to that direction.

In terms of visionary, I like to think about utopian visions of where the world could head to. Real time politics is important, no ideology which doesnt fit where society is at the moment. At the same time though some visions are important as well. Especially with AI shaping the world, its important to have a vision of what could be possible.

I was boasting about myself to myself this evening when I went home. I am a: philosoper > romantic > mediator > visionary > inventor > artist? No clear order, philosopher seems number one though. In my mind I have two pictures of myself which are hard to combine. On the one hand the inventor, visionary, smart guy, minimalist, .. on the other the artist, romantic, creative. Both of them are philosophers. I think I do like the inventing and visionary things in me, its just that its often so stage orange. I dont like to invent the new smartphone, the next rocket ship, the next AI ... I mean I like inventing itself but it needs to be connected to something spiritual, I would feel empty providing just material value to the world. I couldnt be an Elon Musk. But its completly possible to invent things which offer value beyong that. Or maybe I am struggling because I havent yet learned to express my creative side in other domains like music or art so inventions are the only medium left to at least satisfy the creativity a bit.

In some moments especially today while taking a 1/4 tablet of modafinil it seems quite clear to me who I roghly am and where I need to go. I am interested in philosophy, a sensitive dude who likes to be helpful and some inventive talent. Exactly how I always feel about it, I am not kidding myself. It all needs to be put together somehow.

Its actually pretty clear from what I understand. Some things which suit us are easy to love and the things that arent are harder to love. It takes more and more selflessness to love the things which countersuit your survival agenda, because loving them is counterproductive for your survival and also emotionally draining. But when you do the inner work you can find love in these dark places and the more conscius you can be in these dark places the more clearly you can see and express the love that is in them. Thats some real work.