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Well managing a big company can be fulfilling when it is helping the world. But you raise a crucial point, when you have a big company other peoples survival depend on your survival. I mean one could make the company more ethical but I guess there is a tradeoff. If you become too ethical it becomes unsustainable and you go bankrupt and at that point you cant provide any value at all anymore. But some people built a giant (unethical) company through a cut throat mentality and end up with absurd amount of wealth they have no real plan with other then expanding. Thats where I see an imbalance due to greed.

No they could put their money in projects that benefit mankind. That would likely be very rewarding. Money is potential power. If you have an absurd amount of wealth people will let you know that through kissing your ass and so forth. And if you are the boss of a giant company you will feel that power more directly. I am not sure how their mind work but I dont think they could be as productive if they were miserable.

I knew a guy in his forties once who had pretty big emotional problems as he was very lonely and didnt know how to change his situation. Basically worked all day to not feel his problems as much. He always had a cat that was alone in his apartment when he worked the day. He always told me how loud the cat screamed when he finally came home after 14 hours or so. He seemed empathetic to the cat but seemed to enjoy more that the cat needed him. Thats like the perfect image of a pet slave in my mind although in most cases it's not that bad. Pets cant choose their owner. Although one could make the case that they wouldnt be so clever to make this good decision for themselves, but one has to be careful to not give himself too much authority over the voice of the pet. Well cats sometimes choose their owner, that seems like a very honest sign to me.

@Malekakisioannis Ralston has an incredible baseline consciousness though. Just look at videos of him talking, he is to there in the moment.

Adhd isnt contagious. When you never thought about having adhd and you the symptoms dont match your lived reality it's unlikely that you have it.

Has anyone experience with this substance? How is it compared to regular DMT?

Many people bought Tesla for status. So people will also not buy Tesla for status.

Can you accurately dose it with a vape pen? How does rectal and vaping effect the experience?

How do you consume it then? Rectally? Snorting?

I had a time in my teens where I loved video games but hated real life. Then I thought to myself that life is simply a way more complex and awesome game then any video game and so it had to be my own way of looking at the world that must be wrong.

@Mods This can be put into self actualization journeys, although comments are always welcomed.

@Delusion Slayer I didnt expect other people to tell me my LP but it can be very helpful to hear from other perspectives for motivation and tipps. Consider that I have mental health problems that you dont understand. I was/ am out of touch with my authentic self for at least a decade and for years in a state of constant unease. I came as close to my LP as was possible. lol... If you read my thread so far, I am making small bets. I was already doing acting, I work in a school 5 hours a week to see how I like it as a teacher, I am writing small theatre plays, on my self actualization journey I sometimes post art, I have made an audition for an acting school and there are a couple of other projects that I will follow as well. But I am also practical. I have to balance my pursuits with survival and an adhd mind which craves certain foundations to be healthy.

Yes I totally feel stupid with it. It cuts me off from something profound. I feel like I totally entered the dream. It's total shit. But it works for practical purposes. Although it brings to light how shitty I articulate myself with adhd. I just read some of the things I wrote and I sometimes write things in a way that cant be understood.

25:13 - 32:00 Somehow I never watched this video. Thats an important piece of the puzzle. Well it's kind of what I intuited about art as well. I want to see and help others see beauty in shitty things. That kind of seems like meaningful pursuit in life. I just dont know to which degree I gravitate towards it because I need it to heal myself. So if I healed maybe I wouldnt see it as that meaningful anymore.

thats correct I dont get it. The mind numbing comes from the game being demanding on your psyche which drains me and also I get easily addicted so that I can only think about that one game. Yes. I dont like it though, I feel like it makes me less conscious, it disconnects me from something deep. I dont even like to philosophize on meds I become way more practical. I have only tested medikinet recently though, (I tested other things as a kid as well) maybe others work better for me now. I will get a renewed diagnosis in like 5 months, so then I will have the chance.

Had my weekly adhd self help group session today. People sometimes have exactly the same body language there as me. I felt so incorporated on a rarely reached deep level. I felt a lot of interesting emotions because of it today. At the end of the session I felt so comfortable and calm I became very conscious and felt like I had superpowers. Parts of my brain suddenly activated. I could articulate myself a lot better. I activated a hyper focus where I could imagine anime scenes, the moment of contact between two blades and so forth... I thought about theatre plays. I wanted to do acting scenes with complex exploding emotions. The other person who mirrored my adhd body language and in a way put my at ease with it got me to an idea. Maybe thats what I need as a meditation technique. A way to completely exhaust my adhd brain to put it at ease.

Interesting, good that you found that out for yourself. hmm its probably true that your instincts can speak to you. You have to purify that instinct though that it distinguishes itself from craving (like for sugar). What was using uppercase I wrong in that context? I use German keyboard settings so yeah an i standing by itself will get automatically be transformed into an uppercase I. And maybe my writing is a bit German at times, with a lot of comma at times, but I rarely translate anything. I played a lot of team fortress 2. But basically every game which invites you into a different world: Mario kart, Pokemon, Assassins Creed, ... I have also completely blocked YouTube and Spotify. I only listen to radio sometimes where I cant get the best hits and scroll through profile pictures on WhatsApp as entertainment. Otherwise I couldnt assert myself in this world being too unsharp. Podcasts also seem okay. Good to know it isnt stress for you. I also realized that when you are exposed to an environment which demands you to be sharp constantly like a school environment you will be more sharp.

I am German. I dont think much of her content is translated. Her recorded seminars are gold.

Oh thanks for the correction.

Is it better know? For me I realized that diet plays a role but there are other big factors. I have inattentive adhd. I have a very sensitive consciousness, when I indulge in playing video games for two hours my mind feels soft and unsharp for a few days. My mind is also not at rest often and emotions play into it. When I am emotionally unstable I literally cant think straight, when I am emotionally secured and in an environment where my mind is put in a restful state my mind functions perfectly.

Our ex chancellor in Germany Angela Merkel said that Trump is somebody who doesnt believe in win win situations, for him there is always a winner and a looser. Coming from that philosophy his decision on the tariffs seem reasonable. But countries already seemed prepared for this and are doing counter tariffs and looking for other trading partners. So this looks like it ends up being a loose loose situation. No holistic thinking capabilities from trump.

Its 25% on Mexico, 25% on Canada and 10% on China

Vera F. Birkenbihl

Some beauty can only be seen when you are sufficiently developed to see it.

I won't become easier as you age so it's good that you start now. Why do you want to do online stuff? It's so less personal and you said yourself that you find mostly weird people there. Are you socially insecure? Through work or some kind of community might be a good start.