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Yesterday I had my last day working as a temporary math teacher for a fith grade class. It was quite an emotional experience. I dont think I ever experienced so much love before. As soon as I reminded them of that fact so many students expressed that they dont want to leave in such a sweet way. Even though my technical teaching skills sucked it was always very important for me to built an authentic connection maybe that was why. I always thought that the technical skills were something I could be got at but maybe not so much the social part but it is switched now although I think that I can learn the technical skills as well, its all about preparation. I also wonder if I would be as nice if I had more self confidence. Maybe if I had more self confidence I would be become arrogant which could ruin it all. Probably not but if so probably not completly, hard to tell.

I almost didn’t go to the self help group today, as it wasn’t that helpful the last times. But I spent the last days a lot by myself and my emotions were all over the place so it was a good way to get in touch socially. Well the session itself wasn’t that good it really was all about the one girl. Although not quite at one point people talked about which friends they had and many had friend groups of completely neudivergent people as they couldn’t hang out with other people. That’s so interesting as I never formed friendships with adhd people so that might be something to figure out for myself if that works. After the session we had an after talk outside which was really good. Another guy told me about sometimes accidentally flirting in some context and I finally opened up saying I have similiar issues and that I was scared talking about it in the group. He said that it’s a bit of a self love kind of thing. (searching for love in flirting) Interestingly another person independently of that said that I was lacking that as well. I certainly lack social self love (that part of myself) but I do think I have high self love for myself besides that. But it was such an opening and connecting talk, something I only experience on rare occasion my whole experience of reality flipped quickly. Key points: I starve for connection. Key questions: To which extend are my social problems caused by a lack of self love? I felt like bloated ballon, so empty before and then I just got a rush of life energy. From that point I see the world differently. Interestingly acting becomes more attainable and working as a teacher more boring. Becoming a teacher seems to be more of a survival mode decision, acting not so much/ something that seems interesting only if other criteria are met.

If you sell later with gains would that still support the company?

Put 100 dollars into it to invest in my education. Lets see how it goes.

No, thats why I am asking.

Do you know in which frequency Joe posts and what his usual reaction to it is?

That would be akward as heck and bad for Leos reputation.

Well maybe its foreseeable that some spiritual topics could be abused more then others. If such a calculated frame is set from the beginning damage could potentially be controlled. But its a question of if there are such spiritual topics which can be abused less idk.

Yeah Tesla imports into germany halfed because of it. I think its great that the people have this political instrument in choosing what to buy and what not to pressure companies.

The test gives you insights into the workings of your mind. Whenever I thought a lot like "I will click as soon as I see green, as soon as I see green.." I was slower then when I didnt. And when I tried hard my reaction was often slower. Sometimes my mind thought "I am trying so little right now, my next reaction will be bad" and then I got a record. When I was very aware in a way of not ego trying hard, just aware I was better then when I was half asleep though.

The prefire click-trick is old now. Haha this thread is accidently a good way to expose lyers.

Love to see it. You are very skilled. Haha today it inspired me to drive around a skate park on my way with a bike.

You can make a lot of prefires in a row to get a better average as well.

Trumps polocies will effect the whole world, other counries to a lesser degree perhaps. But in terms of war it could even be worse. USA doesnt have much to fear because it is that strong but other smaller countries do. But the world is still somewhat in tact, maybe its a good idea to leave when its clearer to see how things will play out. I think for some people in the US like students or scientist who get their funding cut, or trans people its a good idea.

I think its an ego, macho, stage red, liking to feel powerful kind of thing which you grow out of at stage green.

Somehow I can imagine that pretty well.

Now dont make the mistake of reading the comments a third time!

Pistol squats arent easy. If you cant do like 20 in a row then doing 5 every waking hour on every day seems like overtraining. Whats your goal with it? I get like an afterglow the whole day when I exercised in the morning, I dont have to do it all day.

Read a few comments. Maybe 1/5th of the comments mention the actualized symbol looking like the pedophile symbol. Most comments criticize that take, saying that its nonsense and that Joe took to many drugs. A few find it insightful and a few compare it to other religions.

Leo makes a lot of "crazy and outlandish" claims but this one seems especially so. Seems like Joe quoted that because it gave him a kick. So if Joe invited Leo and Leo would deliver on that, that would create a lot of pupularity for Leo for better or for worse.

Hey, I have adhd as well. Your brain is what it is. You can change your environement and develop tactics though to cope with the symptoms of adhd a lot. This forum will only give you shallow answers, if you have serious problems with adhd reading or listening to audio books about adhd will be some of the best time investment you can possibly make. I can highly recommend this. Its available as an audio book: https://www.amazon.de/ADHD-2-0-Essential-Strategies-Distraction-ebook/dp/B0871LK27X/ref=sr_1_1?__mk_de_DE=ÅMÅŽÕÑ&crid=11N1XWFIQCO3S&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.OOxr0mLEb0T4bPXsmIyPqn8BeI_pmwf7jhT_ZTyRXSlRJzrzlz8GiGjz3pFa_WHOzycyAzCj9hk6X_p8o4BP607jDhsZ_kpnVP2R4qYeoWH3xzervN8gQXZB2LAXsy6PVVtaHYvQDP-gUDHxdxzvlkhIc09vqDcJ1JlnP_eQ5adRiam-MbGvCAaIJD0zUxTrMuv1D9WWVA283Y8_F0wW68-W9vuq1PzS5mXymJKV44I.etZP72kQUhQ4y7UgN9egZc6Bc9UdAxcOMpeXP4sjKZg&dib_tag=se&keywords=adhd+2.0&qid=1742589746&sprefix=adhd+2.0%2Caps%2C149&sr=8-1

On a self care afternoon I went to IKEA and found something I absolutely loved. This customizable wall. I got one in a little smaller. You can add all kinds of hooks, pins, shelves, rubber bands... to it. I got all kinds of stuff to keep as an option. This 1) speaks directly to me. Its analogous to how I want to live my life, in a self customized way and 2) exactly what I need for organization. I barely took my omega3 when I had to take it based on memory, but then I got a simple pill box that I fill up every week easily like dog food and I never forget it. Some easy fixes can help me immensily. So I will buy a magnetic white table and will do my organization based on the Eisenhower Matrix. And then this customizable wall is right at the side and parellel to a given task on a paper I can put the tools to complete the task on the customizable wall. For example, if I need to bring a parcel somewhere, I can put it in a bag and hang it on a hook on the customizable wall, ready to pick up - like an Appetizer, you dont have to grab deep into the refrigerator. Lets see how this goes, I am looking forward.

The Adhd self help group last time wasn’t that good. That’s the first time. Luckily I have it today again. I don’t think I spoke about anything even but other people seemed to spoke about important things on their heart. The girl in this group I had a certain connection with also didn’t come this time. It makes me think that adhd people can also don’t just understand themselves easily. I saw a study that showed that two adhd people are usually a worse couple then one adhd person and a neurotypical person. This hits me a bit. If two adhd people would understand each other perfectly then one could argue that adhd isn’t that much of a sickness because it wouldn’t create double standards, because if they need a person without adhd that seems like they need someone to balance them out. Two healthy people can get along, two toxic people dont. I am thinking about strategies on how to deal with my adhd currently. A big one seems to be that it’s hard to get out of the emotional state into the prefrontal cortex for doing tasks because the brain lacks dopamine. It suggests that whenever you get into the emotional soup, you should take ACTION to get out of there, dealing with your emotions by feeling through them doenst work because the brain never has the dopamine to win the fight and get out. But then on the other hand am I not surpressing emotions? It’s a difficult balance to strike. I feel like a combination of both worlds would be to talk to someone. Working on finding someone for that.. All of that taking action thing and other events in my life got me into socializing a lot again. Its often in patterns, I try to do it a lot, get exhausted and crawl back into my shelf until it too lonely. I see pros and cons to socializing, on the one hand I actually feel more emotionally in touch with myself especially in my belly area, on the other hand I could go insane from all the bullshit of other people. Today I thought about theraphy again like: "omg what am doing with my life. I am wasting years being unsucessful because I barely get by emotionally. Everything falls because I am not in my power. I need to stop everything I am doing and go to theraphy. Afterwards I can enjoy life again." I liked Leos analogy of trying to change a conservative like trying to change a biting dog who is so fucked up so that he instinctively becomes agressives when one tries to change/ come close to him. Thats me when I am emotionally ungrounded. Of course I dont actually become agressive but act out in ways that builts a distance.

I feel weird posting pictures of his profile, even if I make them anonymous so I rather describe them: 1) Normal selfie, 2) Another selfie, 3) picture of himself in underwear from a distance with his meat quite pronounced, 4) picture in a bathtub with naked upper body, 5) picture of him sitting with shorts and a shirt and visible (through the shorts) boner. So normally on tinder the top picks are exclusively girl. This guy was apparently liked so much that he managed to get a place at the top picks in my city. His face is handsome but not quite model material. I live in Germany btw. I saw this profile maybe a year ago and I still cant get over this. There are so many fantasies in my mind about what women want and which mind games have to be played and this fucking guy just shows off his dick and gets massive likes. The shock will never end.. But when I think about it does make sense. He is has the balls and strategy to pull off this straightforward presentation and (some who are up for casual sex) women want exactly that. And while he is very clear about what he wants (he also uses the 👻 emoji in his bio btw.) he isnt super pushy about it, like he doesnt do a sex pose or writes in his bio that he wants sex and his photos do look chill and somewhat classy. He is like the Mr.Beast of tinder - figured out how this works (for sex) perfectly.