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Wrote a pretty giant Email to my RV-trainer. After we clashed a little as he didnt provide any evidence that RV works but just reasons he cant give evidence I was a little distant. I was close from leaving RV behind so I didnt feel like engaging with him anymore. The Discord server gave me more evidence then anything. Anyway I asked him now if he has a trainee of him who would RV a target of mine. Lets see where that goes. And I asked him a bunch of other questions.

Not relevant anymore I think. I was very horny tonight and am still a bit. Its just hard to find someone to vibe with, thats the only gate.

Yeah yeah .. did all that .. have an instant pot but this is still too much hassle for me. Gradually I did it less and less. I never got the spices as good as I have them with my store bought lentil soup. And I can choose daily what I want to cook, instead of needing to go through the pre cooked batches. In Europe regulation on food is better then in the US, many canns are laminated with non BPA material on the inside. So maybe thats not so bad is my rationale.

A counterintuitive move for China to expand it power right now would be to stay completly peaceful in this Trump era and not invade Taiwan. It would give China massive amounts of trust and soft power globally.

After a certain quantity of lentils I feel like my stomach cant handle it well anymore. Maybe 1k calories of red lentils in one sitting or something like that. The bigger problem is farting in my experience which is why I go for smaller portions. How long have you tried lentils? Your stomach needs time to adabt. Why are they so healthy?

Haha, not quite. Maybe I am 80 - 90 % there. Had this super clean phase though and it wasnt good for me.

Come on

Well you have to hope you will get there safely and then integrate the experience safely. I could just have a horror trip without any insight.

I was always very afraid of exactly that story about death even though I logically knew there wouldnt be a reason to be afraid about it. I dont think the ego can make sense of it. The ego fears it. I recently had a dream about this nothingness though which was a bit insightful.

Yeah .. I hope my mental health allows for it at some point.

You have to ask yourself though if this actually takes away your fear of death or if it is just a story thats supposed to take the fear of death away which makes you think that you conquered your fear of death when you really havent.

What if Trump just wants to leave NATO anyway so by taking Greenland either a clash over Greenland happens which would give him an excuse to leave NATO or it doesnt and that sets the stage for him to continue robbing countries .. ?

Yeah death is absolutely terrible, I wouldnt do it. I became a little dead once and it was horrible, here is what I saw:

Just saw the wpmi - girl on Bumble. She is looking for Dating or Intimacy without Commitment. How I thought. I think. Well that much emotional closeness wasnt good for me though if it isnt serious.

I always thought this scene in Star Wars was happening in the senate building. It actually doesnt, it happens in a seperate building, the Galactic Opera House. That misunderstanding inspired me though. When we are in the midst of politic, its hard to understand whats going on because we are personally involved in it. If it was possible to metaphysically and artistically express what is going on, that would be worth gold. I talked politics with a friend yesterday and said something along the lines of that the times are shitty but you also learn a lot because when systems break you can see inside them. Thats the sort of abstract, non judgemental artistic kind of way I think about.

First thought on intuition: The intuitive self is denied because it doesn't have the human agenda

Today at my RV Session I felt like I grasped intuition. I hold it in my mind for some time, as a clear, distinguishable and pure state. And a lot of memory "ooooh that's what intuition was all along" flashed.

Damn, found clips of Putin speaking in German. Its not just a language barrier ..

I would add that Europe didnt ask the US to built such a ridiciously strong military and to intervene globally so much. But if they do it by themselves then its only reasonable to lay back a bit. I guess in the cold war it was neccessary to arm up that much and they kind of went with that status of being a global superpower.

I added Political Talk Shows to my Entertainment List. Got Wordle, Chess Puzzle, Vlad Vexler, Country Quiz and now also Political Talk Shows on there. Very selective to not numb my mind. Crazy that I actually mostly maintain that strictness.

What a weird day. I talked to my study group and a friend of mine on the phone for a total of about 6 hours today. Then I watched 1.5 hours of Ukraine and Russian war content. And the day is almost over now. Feels very weird, not used to that structure.

You cant take what she said literally, "I am not mad at you dude" seemed like she wanted to show him whos boss. Her friend escalated further disrespecting and shittalking the ICE officer. So this was likely a very charged situation. It seemed like the ICE officer leaned forward in the last second which is cruical as it put him in more danger. The ICE officer was definitely threatened to some degree, not life threatened but threatened to be injured. Of course it was very poorly handled, a professional should have kept his cool. Not sure if it counts as a pure cold murder. It was close enough to tell a story that it was for self defense though.

Do you have direct insight about death or only theory? Is your uncle open to psychedelics?

Where else are you really safe on earth? Europe? China? Inside America you are probably still relatively safe, I mean no country can invade the US.

And I thought I already woke up to the danger of whats to come.