Jannes

Super interesting thread so far. I wanted to comment here: I think mr_engineer takes a spiritual approach in explaining what male/female are. For example you don’t know what big is without the contrast of small. You don’t know what strong is without the contrast of weak. You don’t know what warm is without the contrast of cold. You don’t know what a female is without the contrast of a male. It’s just that these thoughts of male and female are just so baked into our psyche that we can’t unsee them. So when you say I am still a women even without the presence of a men. Yeah not direct presence but unconsciously the contrast to a men is still there. You might say that even if you never heard about male and female you would still be a female because you have a female body and female hormones. But seriously what makes curves and breasts "femaleish“. Female isn’t printed on your breasts it’s a concept that you hold to make sense of reality. Or there is nothing "maleish“ about growing a beard and cutting wood if you remove all concepts.

Idk about that. If you eat cake and all kinds of treats in that period you can definitely gain weight. But I agree that it’s a lot harder to eat the same food in a short time Intervall then throughout the day so most people who want to loose weight can benefit from it. A bit of fasting has a lot of health benefits but isn’t that a bit extreme on your digestion?

I eat really similar every day. I am not the best in making shit look good but that was fun. Looking at this I could add some more leafy greens and healthy fats. I have 400ml of soy milk in my protein shake but that’s not enough.

Some people get nothing out of weed and other people trip super hard. When I used it I didn’t get much out of it most of the time but one time with around 0.2g edibles I had an awakening into absolute romance or something. I ate pasta and at one moment got really fascinated by a noodle on my fork. So I closely watched it for like 5 minutes. The longer I looked at it the more interesting and and lovely it appeared. The way it tenderly trembled through my hand which I couldn’t hold 100% steadily… I fell into a little romance and realized that every moment is a little romance like that. I reached incredible states of romantic love with tears running down my face while still holding the noodle for at least an hour. All kinds of other crazy stuff happened after that which hold me awake the whole night.

Very interesting, thanks for sharing! Maybe one day I will awake to the fact that inside and outside are relative ?

It destroys your own ability to imagine hot stuff. Also once you get used to it you want to watch stronger and stronger content. Bigger ass/tits, bigger dildo, faster, deeper, … because the old stuff doesnt do it anymore. That makes real life sex look pretty boring in comparison.

I did a mid dose of lsd once after work and with half an hour of sleep. It was ... interesting. Like super aware sometimes and then just gone the next second out of exhaustion. I couldn’t really contemplate on anything. At the end of the trip I still had to go to the supermarket to buy flowers, chocolate (and toilet paper) for my moms birthday the next day. Me standing there completely gone with flowers, chocolate and toilet paper in the hand at the cash register must have looked pretty cinematic ?? All in all tripping sleeping deprived is dumb af. There is no good reason to do it.

From what little I read it seems to me like you use your intellectual knowledge to avoid facing your shadow. It’s hard to work through topics where you feel vulnerable, maybe you have to face fear, pain, sadness, hopelessness. Of course you try to avoid that. Talking about something in theory isn’t the same as actually going through your own pity problems. Your problems probably arent that deep or heroic and that can be hard to accept especially if you build an intellectual ego because you can feel like you are above pity human problems. There was a famous psychologist (maybe Jung or Freud I am not sure) who could brilliantly analyze his patients psyche and developed a whole system about it but he was way to scared to ever get analyzed himself because it would have revealed his human weaknesses. If your avoidance tactic with books is so strong then I would agree with your psychologist that you should avoid reading them, at least until you can become real and actually face your own problems. Of course you hate her for that because you don’t want to face your own problems. Meditation is great ??

That’s the kind of stuff that truly inspires me.

Integrated some shadow manliness: Last friday I was in a bar with like 5 female friends from theatre. It was just about hanging out. Two overweight guys in their late 40s who were kinda drunk sat next to us and started talking. We were kind of annoyed by them but we didn’t confront them. Then this one guy started to touch one of the girls at the shoulder who I sat parallel to and shortly after that proceeded to pull her to him first with her opposite shoulder and then with her neck. It was quite obvious that she wasn’t happy about it but also she didn’t make an effort to really show it. I don’t know when the last time was when I defended someone. Mostly because I couldn’t because I was a victim myself. So there were no paths and no reflexes that I could access to manage the situation with experience. I starred in the girls eyes for a good 5 seconds. I kind of wanted a signal like "Should I help you? Please show me with your eyes if I should help you.“ I couldn’t really make out anything. If anything she looked kind of intrigued by my intense stare. But from earlier experiences I knew that you can’t rely on eye contact or at least I wasn’t good enough at detecting the message so I made a rational decision. I said calmly with decent strength in my voice, eye contact and decent loudness „There is no problem with you sitting here and talking to us but it’s not okay to become physical.“ Luckily his friend was pretty understanding defending the situation in our favor. The guy confronted me and basically wanted to provoke me so he asked something like: „What is the problem with me being here“. I answered calmy „Your friend explained that pretty well to you.“ All the girls had the courage now to start to speak up. The guy confronted me again basically saying that he wants to fight me but the girls deascelated the situation pretty well. The girl that was sitting next to me at the outside said that she was to scared to go to the bartender and asked me if I can go and I jumped off immediately, got him there and he pulled the two guys away from our desk. All the girls said they were shaking in fear and thanked me for jumping in. At no point did I feel any fear which I found interesting. It was more that I calculated constantly how I could manage the situation if it actually got to a fight. The next day I had a few shakes. I am almost grateful that this situation happened because it helped me build a first building block for my "defender“ aspect of my personality which I can’t really build in my everyday safe life.

Yes and I would add "instant, panic“ to it. It doesn’t really have a buildup, at least for me. But it doesn’t have to be extremely high. I can have moderate phobia for spiders which is obsessive, instant, panic.

There is phobia and there is fear. Phobia is a special kind of fear. I fear a lion for obvious reasons but I don’t have phobia. Having a strong phobia can just be annoying. If you also do psychedelics phobia can potentially be a danger. I got confronted with inner images of spiders and crabs quite frequently on psychedelics because it seems like that phobia wants to be transcended.

If you could legally buy the spores around the globe that would give the possibility for many people to try a strong substance.

There are degrees of acceptance. ??

The instant humbleness ?? Cool that you take it with a sense of humor though ??

The closest thing to yellow is green. So if you go there you might find people who have already evolved out of it a bit and have some yellow values. I recently started doing theatre and this place is super stage green dominant but I see a bit of stage yellow also, especially this one leadership guy here comes to mind. Also I don’t mind that this place is stage green dominant because there is a lot of stage green for me to integrate and it’s definetly healthier for my mind then stage orange.

Chad, Gigachad, Alpha Male, Sigma Male, … all the same. It’s the pictured masculine men who gets bitches. I think with old gender roles dissolving people renew old identities. Might be a way to preserve values that were loosing importance, might be an ego backlash, might be a mix out of these two. I feel like most people cringe nowadays when they hear alpha male because people took it to seriously. And gigachad is already a meme. Sure there are insecure guy NPCs who will take literally everything serious.

Not to ass crawl but yes!

Would you force them to do 5meo dmt with you to see if they are worthy to be your daughters lover ? ?

@Nilsi I actually turned from veganism to vegetarianism because I figured that the amount of social and personal stress I put on myself with the vegan diet would drain me from energy that could flow into developing myself which would reduce the amount of value I could give to the world and therefore in the bigger picture it’s better to be vegetarian then vegan for me. So I broke out of that ideology with a holistic approach.

If you are truly an exception then I would agree with you that it is ethical for you to eat meat. But there are so many different ways to eat plant based.. Are you sure you checked all the boxes (vitamins, macros, ..) ? Lol I actually agree with you. My point is that yes there are tons of ways to improve the environement. But some ways have larger effect then others.. Eating plant based has one of the largest effects. I am not discrediting other ways that improve the environement nor am I saying that just because you are vegan that you are automatically have a green thumb. Although it probably does help a good amount.

That’s true the point that many vegans make though is that veganism has compared to other things an incredible good effort to reward ratio. So in that sense if you care about the environement and suffering and you aren’t vegan or vegetarian then you don’t even do the basics and can’t be taken seriously. But your critique that many vegans get stuck there and become ignorant to any problems beyond that is definitely valid.

Your body needs vitamins and minerals, proteins, fats, fiber and carbs. So when you supplement, eat pretty good with plenty of vegetable and fruits and you get all your nutrition you are healthy (from a diet standpoint) But you don’t need to go 100% to check the boxes. When you have a bit of junk here and there but eat mostly clean you still get enough nutrients. Junk food doesn’t help you be healthier because it’s mostly empty calories but it also doesn’t hurt you (or at least very little) What does hurt you is when you stress yourself out to be 100% healthy. When all your friends get ice cream and you are the only one who doesn’t eat ice cream because it has sugar in it. That’s unhealthy. You feel bad because you don’t belong to the group. You feel bad because you can’t enjoy what all the other people enjoy. And you are stressed because you have to figure out a plan to get healthy food for yourself. Stress is unhealthy and all that stress combined is more unhealthy then the ice cream itself. Trying to be 100% ”clean“ is stage green being super emotional and a bit delusional. The stage yellow diet is 80% clean/20% junk! ?

I was humming constantly when I was a child. I was very happy and could often humm myself to a good place. I am pretty sad that I lost that ability. But I was also a big dreamer and because I often couldn’t face "real“ problems head on because I was unaware of my surroundings I also had a lot to compensate.

Okay agreed. I have very little knowledge about this topic. I think I saw something like an advertisement once about Pedophilia. It basically said "It’s okay to love children, it’s not okay to act it out. Go get help if you need to.“ I think that is the right message. Not "If you love children you are basically the lowest creature in society.“ The pedophiles hearing this will never get help because they will be to ashamed of themself. Demonization makes everything worse.