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Yes they have. They can help you with dating questions. They can introduce you to other girls. They can increase your status or at least show that you aren’t a creep because they accept you. And if you have long periods without dating then they can kind of give you a sense on how it is to be with a women ?

I can’t. Why, is it forbidden? ObViOuSlY I wouldn’t smuggle it across boarders and would only consume it in the country where it is legal.

There are a ton of great uses for MDMA. I have a long list with things I want to do with it. Unfortunately you can only use it every few months. One of the things that is high on my priority list is to trip with my whole family. There are certainly unhealthier family dynamics then in ours but still there are huge problems that are caused by traumatic events in each person and I don’t see these problems getting solved in this lifetime. So I thought we could all sit together take MDMA and talk about and heal our problems. My sister is 19 btw so I don’t if that could be a problem. Otherwise do you think it’s a good idea? My parents never really took anything else then alcohol so it wouldn’t be easy to convince them. Has anyone experience with this?

You should want to forgive them. If you don’t that hurt will stay will you. Hmm I think forgiveness is something that happens completely internally. You shouldn’t want a apology from somebody, you should just try to understand them. In this process you see that you would have done the same thing which closes the duality between you and them which heals you. I don’t know why you wouldn’t want an apology. It makes forgiving them easier. Unless you really want to hate them which will be harder if they try to apologize to you.

1D-LSD is out and is the new legal Lysergamine successor in Germany since 1V-LSD is now illegal. Has anyone experience with it for spiritual work? How does it compare to 1V-LSD?

I don’t think you can get a scientific answer for it. At least I think that’s what the discussion came to. What ends up is more of a gut feeling about it. Leo said that he once became conscious of being a glass of orange juice, so maybe if you trip like crazy and really want to know how it is to be AI you can get there.

It’s hard enough to find a partner with similar values anyway. If in this discussion it turned out that 80% of women don’t find bisexual men attractive (although that’s not what the discussion is pointing to) my chances of finding the rare gem would be severely lowered. In the end you have to compromise yourself at least a bit. Sure the goal is to do it the lowest amount but you have to limit yourself at least a bit. And the best strategy is to find low effort, high reward things so things that are easy to change on yourself but have a big positive effect on your partner. We all do it. Why do you wear nice clothes instead of joggers to work? Because you it’s an easy fix for a big reward. (like not getting fired) As I said I would be happy with only doing stuff with girls my whole life. Relatively speaking if a lot of girls wouldn’t like bisexual dudes that would be a low effort high reward change for me. Maybe even a zero effort high reward thing if it turns out that I don’t even like dudes ?

Yeah that’s a bit of a core belief of myself. But going about it in a way where you say „I shouldn’t have that belief" and fight against it also doesn’t help. And we hardwired to act in whatever way benefits our survival. If I loose value in the dating market that was that would be pretty detrimental from a survival point of view.

Yeah idk about that. I can’t really imagine that it would be hot for a girl to watch me get fucked in the ass. That’s not really an epic presentation of my masculinity ?? But maybe I am just to close minded.

It’s part of my identify which I try to protect I guess. Yeah I think this sums it up perfectly.

That would make her bisexual. I am really into girls. That makes sense. I think I know a lot more girls that are bisexual then heterosexual. I mind it a bit but not that much that it really matters.

Nah I just want to tip a foot in the water and then see how I feel about it. Maybe I don’t even like it. I am just very open curious.

Oooh because death is truth and survival is the opposite. So everything society feeds me has the purpose of survival because society is just a giant organism which tries to survive at all cost and so you can take for granted that it’s advice will lead to falsehood or that doing the opposite of what’s it’s preaching will lead to truth. Thats actually genius.

I don’t get it. I really want to understand it, can someone explain plss ? ????

I heard Leo saying it a lot. My experience on psychedelics kind of supports the claim. I am always getting confronted with my fears in the most hardcore way. Spiders, snakes, rotten things, misery, violence, blood, .. Last time I got confronted with blood. I could never see blood. If I see to much of it I fall unconscious. So in my last trip I drowned in a sea of thick blood. It really wasn’t that bad because I am pretty good at letting go. Although I don’t want to speak to soon because at some point I will get my hands on 5meo . But why do we need to face our fears to awaken? My thoughts on this so far. What I fear I reject. What I reject I make different from me. What I make different from me builds dualities and my sense of self. To reach nonduality I have to deconstruct all distinctions between "myself" and "not myself“. So I have to confront and accept what I fear to break the dualities to become One again. Is it that simple? It’s not unimaginable but still hard for me to imagine that for example my fear of roller coaster stops me from realizing god. And also could it be more of a temporary thing on a psychedelic trip? Like you confront all of your fears in that moment to reach the peak experience but when you come back to ordinary life you still have your everyday fears?

So does this mean in practice that I have to go through all of my pity human fears or should I just focus on death instead? What do you mean with a wall of FEAR? I don’t know if that thought has occurred to me. A state of complete surrender to the universe yes, but given that my ego has a grasp of it, I am probably bullshitting myself with a fake version of it.

I like that order a lot more ?

This happened quite a few times already. I feel like I am just about to break through to something big and beautiful. I could feel the realness, the knock out power, the incredible beauty of some kind of force right on the tip of my tongue to become reality but then it was just quite not enough that I could fall into it and my awareness goes to something else. What I know for absolute certainty is that these incredible states are real although I didn’t even enter them. So I am a bit confused on why I can know that they are real if I haven’t entered them yet. Also has anyone similar experiences and knows how much one needs to up the dose to break through?

@amanen thanks for sharing. What do you mean?

I didn’t anticipate coming to the anticipation of having a spiritual experience ? So I guess if I am breaking through I won’t anticipate it as well. Yeah I do that quite often. I feel like it will get me somewhere at some point. How has it helped you?

Love isn’t about being nice and soft all the time. Of course it’s also that but it’s also about being hard when you have to be. If you love yourself you would want to protect yourself and even if you love these other people you would want to be hard to them because otherwise they learn that they can get away with manipulative shit and wont grow. That’s hard to except as a soft person. It certainly is for me. Edit: If this is a recurring struggle for you you might want to go to the gym and build some muscle. You don’t have to become huge, just being better build then your normie is an easy way to gain some respect and it’s also healthy.

Yeah automatically through trial and error, that makes sense. Language is a symbolic representation of reality. If we hear the word cat every time we see an actual cat we will connect the dots at some point unconsciously. But words like "therefore, but, ..“ are a bit more complicated. They seem to represent energetic movements. Damn that whole topic is a lot deeper then I thought. I am German and learned English through YouTube videos btw. Before that I always sucked at english because I was unable to learn vocabularies. But by just watching yt videos in english I learned it without much conscious effort although my english could still be better.

I experienced a baby version of it on magic truffles. My consciousness just wanted to be insane for a while so I didn’t fight it and went insane for a few minutes. Of course I didn’t know how long I would stay insane. It was a bit terrifying but also relieving. When I went uninsane I realized how much energy I put into being sane.

Only Hydrogenated/ refined oils is "objectively unhealthy“. @Michael569 said it perfectly, if you have a healthy diet as a base and don’t have any allergies against any of these foods you can eat all of them lol. Worry more about what you can add to your diet rather then what you should take out.

I got them at a turkish food store in Germany. They have a light sweetness and super nice crunchy like mouth feeling to it.