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What does that have to do with telepathy?

No scientific paradigm holds any truth in direct experience. Yet we hold it as true.

There are some valid points why someone would be asexual for some time. I met a person once who said she was asexual. But she just had a huge emotional blockade. At some point she decided to have a hookup where she worked through this blockade and for a year or so now she enjoyed a hookup phase. I am also pretty emotionally blockaded from having sex atm but it will pass. I am sure though that "real asexuals" (without blockages) exist.

But if you hold onto an wrong paradigm you can interpretate direct experience away. Like you can feel something to be true in your direct expeirence but then dont trust it, "nah this cant be right, its not possible".

Damn only one way. Good stuff. Yeah its hard to know what is real and whats fantasy if our current paradigm doenst account for these things, only way is breaking out of it.

Does DNA have a telepathic ability to it?

Since I was little I always wanted to telephatically communicate with people. It didnt make sense to me that it seemingly wasnt possible, I thought it had to be possible in some way but at the same time I recognized that even with full open mindedness and concentration I couldnt crack the code on how to do it, or tell if my attempts really reached someone.

I think its possible that because it is so natural to us that we take it so much for granted that we dont even know it exists. I did some remote viewing once. Maybe it was legit, maybe not. But what the instructor said was that these paranormal things arent like we imagine them in movies with cool special effects and sounds where a distinct wowoo feeling graps you. Not at all. Its the most ordinary thing in the world like everything else. Looking at a wall and recognizing that its white has the same kind of ordinary quality to it as sensing that in some coordinates the enrivonement looks grey. Again I dont know if this remote viewing I did was real but it could very well be or it could not be real but that morphic fields feel that way, ordinary.

Good questions. Yeah that woud be a good test, however you dont know how to measure that. It doesnt have to be that the moment you kill the wolf all the other wolfs pause and cry for an hour. Maybe it would be more subtle. Maybe the wolfes get a bit of cosmic bliss from the other wolf who merged with infinity, who knows. Or maybe thats not even how morphic fields work. Maybe a member of the group needs to be alive to send information to the morphic field. But then it would make sense that the others would notice a lack of send information. Biep ... , Biep ... , Biep ... , ......... WHAT!? I remember a situation that my dad told me about. His mother or grandma had a son in war and at one night she suddenly woke up in the middle of the night and was sure that right in this moment something terrible happened to her son. And indeed he died that day. I think if we would be more open to it we would find this verified more often. I would assume they took into account the speed in which birds and fish experience reality in. They somehow managed to measure it in insects so they probably also know frames in which birds and fish experience reality in and if it is possible to create this sort of movement with this perception. I dont know for sure though.

@Davino How did she feel about it? Was it like liberating for her?

When I really invest into someone and get rejected this hurts me a ton. Probably because I got rejected or thought I got rejected so often in the past and because I have ADD. I see this pattern throughout the last years, whenever I invest something authentic into a connection and get rejected I am hurt so badly I cant help but create some kind of a show and with it social damage for myself and shame which bites me for years. In all of these instances I had a very weak social backbone though, I thought the one person was my one ticket out. So this was unintelligent spending. I am however interested in deep connections, so I have to find a middle ground of investing into a bit more into another person at a reasonable and not delusionable paste while keeping a social backbone. Much of that calculation is done unconsciously anyway but this may help a little and it may even come up because new opportunity arise.

I was scared going for my usual thursday social spot routine and pittied myself with victim mentality of how I was wronged and how I could have had everything if people were less selfish. Then meditated for half an hour and still went. It was great. Somehow everything just clicked. I basically constantly had people around me I socialized with and even some actual connections. I was pretty much fully in it. Talked to a cool girl for some time and then asked for her phone number which I got. It wasnt even that hard. Its hard to say, I might be the most socially confident I ever was right now. I might have had a stronger fassade of confidence before, but in terms of actual confidence this might be my best right now. I think there are a number of reasons for it: 1) I stood up for myself by leaving the club, 2) I what I thought was true when I spoke it out to the leader of the club, 3) theatre clubs are very weird places, everything is about pretending, about being very aware about your behaviour, "outacting" other people, ... I am exaggerating a bit but it does play into it to some extend. "Normal people" are way more forgiving and honest in this regard and this seems to be healing.

I think mental masturbation is a very potent word invention.

Overabsolutizing Definition: The misapplication of absolute truth to a relative context where it is not appropriate. Overabsolutizing bypasses the concrete, human dimension of experience by prematurely invoking transcendent principles. For example, framing harmful behavior as “all love” or dismissing one’s life direction with “nothing matters in the absolute sense, so I can just give in.”

Thats very fascinating. Cultures which are closer to nature think that trees have a spirit and can suffer. Which is why they dont like it when they are trimmed. They even communicate with them, for example the trees told them how to create ayahuasca.

This evening I felt emotionally very strong. I felt like I could really take a deep trip. Then I got sleeping... I was just being myself in my child's room and suddenly something hit me. I knew I was in mystical territory somehow as I felt like something shocking was about to unravel, my intuition warned me, if I just stayed very altert and conscious and wouldn't get suck into my ego minds defend mechanisms which tried to put me back to sleep. So I stayed conscious and literally saw the face of my biggest temptation flashing by haha. Not the hottest girl but one that likes to sleep around and would introduce me into her world with all the skills haha. Then I had this interesting experience. What happened was that I found out that my whole experience of the world was just a bubble of experience. My experience transformed into a visual bubble and also a smell bubble and when I looked at both of them at the same time they merged and created just one bubble of experience. All of reality became: Consciousness experiencing consciousness. One singularity. Nothing outside of that. I was that bubble. No body, or brain or something objective out there, just the experiencer and the experience at the same time. I think in this dream I also realized that this bubble is god but I am not sure anymore. The experience lasted relatively shortly as I got very excited and couldn't hold the experience any longer, like you can't hold a lucid dream any longer when you get to excited. So shortly afterwards the dream ended. I ran through a garden for a few more moments before waking up. My heart pumped quite a lot. I immediately jumped off my bed to write everything down but I never lost a dream as quickly as this.. When I was writing the first few lines of introduction I already lost most of it. It was so different from my normal experience that it actually became difficult to remember and put into words as I didnt experience it in the moment. This dream was mostly ”dry” metaphysical in nature. It felt profound but there was no love involved or anything. I have no idea what this was, if this was legit or my imagination going wild and fantasizing about what mystical territory would be like. Looking forward to comparing this fragment that I remember to a psychedelic experience. I edit this hours later now and there are elements I still remember vaguely, so its not all lost thankfully.

Found a new social spot for every wednesday wohoo! 🏓 Socializing is very good for my mental health atm. It kind of heals me from the experience from the club. And I am surprised how much confidence I have. Its not a whole lot but I manage to approach people and generally feel pretty okay. If I keep at it I can see how I improve a ton.

My skin is pretty sensitive, I improved it by being more mild to it.

That makes sense.. I am wondering if I should take Retinol.

Uh uh I did that as well. Just have many women as friends around you and you come across as way more attractive. Crazy that you met all these people.

Have you seen Fifty Shades of Grey ? This matches exactly what he is describing. I doubt many women believe it, maybe they consume it like entertainment but this made up fantasy is a thing.

He seems like a conscious guy, I dont smell bullshit. But we dont see his partner. Good example! If you are conscious about it everything can work, if you are not things need to be more and more reinforced. You need to find a structure which works for you state of consciousness and corruption. ___________________________________________ What the hell, how do all these poly people look so fresh. I mean you never sink into the comfort of a secured relationship if you are poly, well at least not to the same degree, you're always in the game, maybe thats why they perfect their looks over the years. @Natasha Tori Maru Do you think its just good skincare routine for him or more ?

I dont gain much from the self help group anymore. I still sometimes go for socializing but much of the growth which I got from intellectual understanding is gone. I would like to meet more adhd people but in the self help group there are only very few people my age. What I heard today again though is that many say they are only in adhd friend groups. So sad that this hotspot doesn't seem to be an option.

I am emotionally at a much more stable place. At my self help group I met the girl again who helped me with my emotions a little just interpersonally. But I am not even searching for emotional help anymore or not to this crazy degree. All this time I thought I have a problem with flirting but at least largely it was more that I had a lot of emotional baggage and needed other people to help me with that but didnt get help until my hero friend jumped in. Last time she even searched a little for me to give signs again and today as well but I didnt respond like before. She left earlier and said that she didnt feel good earlier and does it for her mental health now. Well I cant be sure.. but its likely and I feel a bit sorry for her. But I know if I feel to sorry I will just create the exact problem I want to solve in attraction more confusion as I need people to heal me from this emotional baggage who then I miscommunicate with..

I listened to other episodes of Ralston as well. I am hooked, Ralston is a great inspiration to me. Its interesting, for the sober mundane everyday life Ralston seems to really know shit on how to engineer your consciousness. I dont know what he thinks of God and stuff yet but I will watch more of him.