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https://barbend.com/myprotein-animal-free-whey-forward-protein-powder/ Just found out that there is this new whey protein powder made out of microflora. Do you think it has it all? Ethics, price (in the coming years), no heavy-metals, etc.?

My bully actually loved me holy shit. It always was this 10% love, 90% bully relationship with him. He always forced me to act in macho ways and gave me so many slaps and humiliation when I didn't do what he said. But being a player came naturally to him and he wanted to give me that out of love for me. Such twisted love but love. He was hit by his dad himself so.

Due to family events I will do a little break for a minimum of three days.

I had a dream today where in once scene the bully of my past kissed me on the cheek like the director of the theatre club (whom I really like) that I always go to does and I enjoyed that in the dream as well. My bully often appeared in different life phases for me. In the past we sometimes fought, we were also sometimes friends and sometimes something in between. But I never experienced this level of acceptance. Besides sex, game helps you develop your psyche in many important ways. It gives you a sense that you are in control of your life, it helps you overcome inauthentic parts of yourself because parts that talk bad about yourself are inauthentic parts.

Nightgame Day2 I was so tired from yesterday. I wasted around an hour driving in circles before arriving at the dance club. I took a psylocibin microdose. I didn’t really feel the effect though. The night club was also shit. 3 dance floors, 1 where you can dance but with shit music, one with good music but so crowded that you can only stand and 1 floor which had the whole package but was way to small. I felt that this wasn’t my night to make it happen. But I spent my money and could only get home in the morning so I just danced looking to get as much out of the night as was possible for me this day. I wondered which strategy I could use to get close to a girl. I wouldn’t just be grabbing them by the waist or go for a kiss without consent, (or without obvious flirtatious vibes) I got some morals. Instead I starred them in the eyes. I continued to stare at them when they looked away until they returned their look at me wondering why I stared at them and then gave them a warm smile. I applied it once. Didn’t work but it for sure got my point across and also didn’t feel akward really. First tool in the toolbox I guess. Later I was dancing with a couple of random dudes. Gave a girl near me a small smile and one of the girls of her group pulled me in their circle. The girl asked me what my name is and said she wanted to kiss me to which I agreed. We had a whole 1min kiss. It was really bad, she used her teeth on my lower lip a lot and I didn’t know what I was doing. We talked just a little the vibe wasn’t really on and I asked her if we want to go to her place. Shortly after that she said that she wanted to use the bathroom and I let her go. At first I was a little worried that maybe I came across as uninterested that I didn’t go with her. Took some time for me to realize that I shouldn’t have asked her so quickly that we should go to her place because the vibe wasn’t built yet. I didn’t saw her for a while and she avoided me when we met. Maybe the strategy the girl used is also usable for me at least in parts. I can just ask girls what I want. I can ask them if they want a kiss, or that I find them cute or if I can touch their tits. Well maybe the last needs a great vibe.

Felt a little ashamed of myself when I started partying. I felt like such a stupid and superficial person. I also felt bad because right now there is a very non-toxic girl interested in me and I kinda messed it up with here in not giving her quality attention. I basically passed that opportunity to learn game. Well romantic vibes are just too much for me at the moment. So I actually straight up texted her if we want to Netflix and she agreed. She wanted to flirt sexually with me but I had no clue how to do it which frustrated me so much. I could have been sweet to her which would have been enough for sex and a possible relationship but I sacrificed that for the pursuit of power. Power over love? Well the thing is that I dont feel strong attraction towards her. I need to have game in my toolbox to create attraction.

I dont know what love is! It's funny I have a specific idea, an object in my mind of what love is. I can get my mind into a lovely dream if I let it. But that's not what love is or at least not what real love is. Love is not to be found it has to be accessed right here! Effortless. Nothing that comes by force is real. Not an object which arises in the universe like a secondary but something already in there as a primary quality of the universe, not to be grasped or to be hold but to be realized. So when I try to find love in this way love seems to become mysterious, thin-empty. It's not an object to be grasped. Its mysterious. I lived for so long and never knew what love actually is. Although that seems to be the most simple and basic thing to know. I dont know what love is, I actually dont know what love is! The moment of confusion ends.

So cool!

Philosophy. Instead of reading some book, everybody needs to bring one own thought into class and we would discuss them in a small group. It could be about any topic in philosophy which would make it extra versatile. I would maybe make study trips to very different places to allow different perspectives, like scientology, military, buddhist-places, Neo nazi groups if possible in a safe setting, zoos, skydiving, fighting sports, dancing classes... simply for perspectives. Alternatively deep Psychology on what the deep rooted patterns of the ego are.

"?" That Smiley scares the shit out of me. I expect psychopathic joker like evil intend if someone writes me "?".

From Leos Blog: A stone which is thrown in the air has to fight against gravity. A sound becomes more quiet when it is detected from a distance because of the spread. A warm object fights against coldness to stay warm. All of these limits are part of reality though. So if God is all of reality then all limits on God are imposed by God.

@tuku747 Nice partial truth. But you gotta know your limitations. Can you make your hand blue with your imagination? No?! But dont you simply imagine your hand?? Why then can't you imagine that you turn your hand blue??? You are right about that the mind is connected to the body and that a healthy mind has a positive impact on the body and an unhealthy mind (for example filled with illusory ideas that you described) has a negative impact on the body. But only to a point!

My metaphysics for attraction is that opposites meet. I heard that in the gay community buttoms are often long, shaved and skinny guys and tops are often bears, so bigger guys with lots of hair. Thats a way to create opposites. In lesbian relationships I heard this derogatory remark "Kampflesbe" which translates into battle lesbian. So a rough women in terms of appearance and attitude. And I sometimes see that. Thats also a way to create opposites.

Closing the duality between natural and artificial. Plastic is a product from nature, Industries are a product from nature, Chemicals are a product from nature, Math is a product from nature... absolutely speaking. Of course we can make the practical distinction between artificial and natural. But it should be recognized that it isnt truth. If there is a way in there is a way out, if there is a way to make something artificial there is a way to make it seem natural again, probably... ?

I recently heard a podcast of a person talking about polygamous relationships where a women talked about her experience from being a "normal" monogamous kind of person who had lots of problems with jealousy to becoming a polygamous person through a few years. What I found very interesting is that you can grow to be a polygamous kind of person. Often people demonize polygamous relationships because they can't believe that you can deal with the jealousy that your partner has sex or feels love for other people (polygamous can about sex or love) if you are connected with your emotions. But through years of work the person in the podcast reported you can steadily loose your jealousy. Starting with baby steps like talking with your partner who you find attractive. The person in the interview said that it's very rough emotional work and there is a shitton of talking with your partner about jealousy that you have to do and that you make contact with your most inner demon but that you can learn to deal with the jealousy. Over time you loose much of your jealousy. Not all but most of it. And people even report that they feel way safer in polygamous relationships probably because its not as manipulative, honest, the fear of cheating isnt there... Polygamous relationships hold together because partner feel a very unique form of love towards each other which other people can't replace. Even if they feel romantic feelings towards other people it's a different form of love and therefore has no competition. All the insights you get about your ego, all the letting go you have to do, all the facing of your own fears and limitations and surrendering to that in conversations, all the conscious suffering through jealousy you have to do... honestly this sounds like a cleaning, spiritual journey. Just the fact that it takes a shitton of maturity to maintain a polygamous relationship and that it is way closer to truth because both partner are not repressing their thoughts and intentions makes me think that it makes your more conscious.

People say free will doesn't exist because of Determinism. Determinism is the philosophical belief that all events and actions are determined by preexisting causes. So if what I am is a human and Determinism is true then yes I dont have free will. But I can't be circled, I am the universe. And the universe needed a first free will for determinism to occur. So I am actually free will it's just my limited perception which can't recognize that because it can't see the root.

We split the world in experience and conception. We experience certain things and then put them into words. But putting it into words is also an experience. The mistake is to try to find the experienceable part of words. Stop it! It's already an experience! Words are already an experience. You dont need to explore how they feel because then you are not actually observing words. When you dont try to observe words but just use them that's when you experience words.

Absolutely speaking every "untruth" is equally true. Because direct experience is absolute truth. If the islamic terrorist of your example thinks that it is right to do a terrorist act then that is his experience. It's true that he experiences that "untruth" as truth. Relatively speaking of course some things are more true than others. It depends from the stage of development where the action comes from. Development means integrating more of reality. The more developed you are the more holistic your care and love will be for the world. You wouldn't scam, steal, cheat etc. because your love is to broad. Your love would need to be restricted to yourself to do that.

@Moksha here you have it. The most genius of the most genius aren't even good at math.

It's because we simply value math and physics very highly in our western culture. If we didn't do that we wouldn't see mathematicians as the most intelligent people. It's like saying "is it a coincidence that many tall people are above 6 feet"? It probably has to do with the fact that math is very crucial for all science and maybe other psychological reasons. I highly value the intelligence to make analogies for everything.

Yeah at least in theory it's way more holistic than monogamous relationships. What people make of it is another question tho. I also fear that it could potentially destroy my ability to trust or to feel exclusive to other people. But maybe that's just my monogamous conditioning... What's important for these relationships to work is that people regularly have "100%" honest conversations with each other about how they feel about the situation. All the decisions should happen out of consent. You can close the relationship if that's the vibe or allow more freedom if that's the vibe. So a person with high conscientiousness and meticulousness is probably key. I am speaking like an expert about it but I didn't even experience a polygamous relationship ever, oops

@Israfil I actually didn't expect that enough people cared about that to the point that articles exist about that. Thanks. I went for a carbon steel pan. Long lasting but also natural non stick qualities.

I need to buy a new frying pan. I always bough coated pans but they never lasted long for me and were probably bad for my health because of the wear and bad for the environment because they have to be replaced often. So I wanted to buy a stainless steel pan. But there are differences in stainless steel pans. Even though a stainless steel pan is called stainless steel pan doesn't mean it has to be 100% stainless steel, it can have nickel and aluminum in it which might be way worse than coated pans. Or maybe not idk. And I dont even know if a 100% stainless steel pan is suited for veggies and eggs as I am vegetarian. Has anyone experience with this?

Everything I imagine exists Everything that I imagine exists. A devil god exists of course when I imagine it. I can see all the egoism in the world for example. But once I dig deeper into it this devilry will be recontextualized into goodness. It's not that the devil god doesn't exist it's just that it only exists from a certain point of view. Once I see the goodness god I dont see the devil god in his old form. But once I see the good god I am unaware of the devil god. But if I want to I can of course see the old devil god and loose the ability to see the good god. It's not that anything doesn't exist. Everything exists but only once at a time. Well at can also exist parallel theoretically. But that is different from the good god and evil god existing by themselves.

A thought regarding the menon paradox: In short the menon paradox is this: Virtue can either be known or unknown. If Virtue is known there is no reason to look for it because it is already there. If virtue is not known we wouldn't look for it because we wouldn't know what to look for. I feel like that paradox can be solved with lsd. Yet another thought regarding this is that Virtue is just one possible placeholder. The paradox is applicable to love, passion, fun, everything... because how can we seek these things if we dont have them? We wouldn't seek them because we wouldn't have the idea to look for them. And if we already had them we wouldn't look for them either because we would already be satisfied. Isnt that insanely interesting?!? Maybe this all boils down to a mind game/ imagination. Maybe we already do have it but we convince ourselves that we dont have it and it's just the thought that we got it and that that is the thing that satisfies us because we stop seeking and not "the actual thing" never mind if something like that actually exists. "You need to already know it to understand it." remembered that one somewhere from this forum ?