Jannes

The more the better right ? I am studying right now and have long semester breaks so the time is good to commit. I just want to have a little taste of enlightenment so I know it is real. Did you have an enlightenment expercience? If so how long did it take you ?

And the first big checkpoint is becoming permanently aware that I am an illusion ? And after that comes god realization, infinity etc.

I don’t think it’s a bad thing to make your process as comfortable as possible. This warrior spirit is ego too imo. But yeah I am like 80% commited because of 20% unintegrated stage orange stuff holding me back unconsciously. Is it necessary to be 100% commited though if I do my 1-2 hours of self inquiry with full 100% concentration and effort ?

I just do regular self inquiry and ask myself who is perceiving. When I feel very aware and my ego feels loose I switch to who am I. I also just started experimenting with Leo’s exercise list. The practice sucks, I always get extremely tired and I also felt confusion. So I think I am doing alright ?

That sounds very eye opening. I am definitely going to think about that.

So “you“ reached enlightenment ?

Yeah that’s a good idea. Have you found an enlightened teacher and if so how ? Or do you think in the forums are enough enlightened people ?

So would you say the purpose of this books is to crash the old theorie with a new theorie that is more loose. So then it becomes easier to crash that final theorie you read about because it is more loose ? Also isn’t it counter productive to read about theories if you are already invested in self inquiry or is it possible to not go a step backwards when I read with high awareness (not buy into it) ?

I am starting with self inquiry to realize god and the approach that I take is to ask myself who am I. On top of Leo’s content I watched this video and it’s very well made and he explains a lot of things very well and simple. But there is still a thing that seems unclear to me which really slows me down in my self inquiry. One of his top arguments for why I am not my body, mind and so forth is that I am aware of these things but these things are not aware of me (I am aware of a thought, 2+2=4 for example but the thought is not aware of me). One is seen and the other one sees so they can’t be the same thing. That doesn’t really make sense to me. If someone could explain that to me I would be really grateful.

I am starting with self inquiry to realize god and the approach that I take is to ask myself who am I. On top of Leo’s content I watched this video and it’s very well made and he explains a lot of things very well and simple. But there is still a thing that seems unclear to me which really slows me down in my self inquiry. One of his top arguments for why I am not my body, mind and so forth is that I am aware of these things but these things are not aware of me (I am aware of a thought, 2+2=4 for example but the thought is not aware of me). One is seen and the other one sees so they can’t be the same thing. That doesn’t really make sense to me. If someone could explain that to me I would be really grateful.