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Yes Talking about these things seems like creating low risk opportunities to get to know you without much pressure. The first would probably work well, the second probably too if you keep it light (dont make it explicit that its a date).

And then the atom bomb was invented.

Also the trap is I think way bigger in spirituality then for example in tech. You want to create a new technology which saves the world, not that much can go wrong. You want to start a cult to share the truth and save the world, uh oh.

@Spiral Wizard I think with your intuitive open questions you seem to already understand that this was a nuanced take. I think its important to keep in mind how many people who 'tried to save the world' did incredible harm and how many people who just shared something they enjoyed or wanted to help just a little helped to improve the world in some way.

Club exists where you can literally have sex directly in the club. I wonder how this effects the chances.

It wasnt that stupid imo. Owen asked what the name of her favourite pet is and answering dog is so unexpectitly unoriginal that it opens up some 'adorable energy' is in the air and if you are in the right state of mind and sensitive enough you can use and cherish this opportunity. Owen did it in a way where he made fun of it, but not from above but also by making fun of himself.

@Xonas Pitfall But spirituality can deconstruct what you have built up with survival and LP, yet these things are important to have handled to be stable and grounded enough to do spirituality. So either you do ignorant survival with a toxic LP building something up which you then completly destroy afterwards with spirituality. Or you try to get both things done at the same time, but then it will take lots of time to make progress in each direction.

It was uploaded 10 years ago, so that makes it likely it wasnt created by AI.

Yeah, you dont know what you dont know. Even though much will be recontextualized, some things will stay more or less, at least your physical body and likely some character traits, but the more mental it becomes the more potential for change there is..

When awakening is mandatory for genuine happiness, for a successful life, what would you say is the best order? (Of course its always individual and messy but the general trend) survival -> awakening -> authentic LP (not coming from distraction) ?

Just had a brief informational talk with a processor. Its unlikely that I am going to get further student loans if I switch degrees. I basically have to find pretty radical arguments why I cant continue my study, I can ask chatgpt to scan this diary for reasons I have listed. If I dont get further support I would need to take on a part time job. I wouldnt even hate that.

I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

I have always wanted to show people a middle finger with a robot hand. 😤😤😤

Yeah I agree. Even a Somalian with Somalian bias will likely be happier in a developed country if he spent some time there, because the living standard is just so much drastically better. But when we compare the US and china, who are not that drastically far apart in terms of living standards, your bias of your culture and ignorance of other cultures can easily overshine objective criteria. Many americans are ignorant to chinas living standards, are quite nationalists and value (the feeling of) free speech because of their upbringing. Chinese have their own prejudices about america, their own nationality and so on.. So thats all I wanted to point out, its hard to find a person without bias who can objectively say where they would rather want to live which would determine which country is better.

Just made myself a certain spicy tea 🍄 The ingredients are very old though, I almost got nothing out of it.

I have drawn a bit today. I dont have a lot of tolerance for frustration when things dont go well. But I am capable of getting into somewhat of a flow state in drawing, something I rarely experience and would like more of. I still feel like acting is a more natural creative pursuit to me though, but I havent drawing and all the other pursuits to the same degree yet.

Wrote an email with questions to a Remote Viewing school. This could be my way in.

I am about to do some commitments. What I realize is that a lot is kind of in the air and I have no routine. I still havent changed degrees ultimately, still havent started Remote Viewing, havent started any creative pursuits, have no outside routine like university or a job right now. I do socialize though. I may need a bit of a structure.

But when the difference isnt that black and white, bias can easily overshine.

In my research and from talking with poly people being jealous in poly is actually quite normal, it is not a bug. Poly people simply learn to accept it. Their jealosy doesnt sting after 3 years or so anymore. Heck I even had a 'poly-ish' situation with my ex-F+ , where I helped her process emotions right after she had a hookup. It was really painful but also EXTREMELY BEAUTIFUL. Havent felt something this beautiful for like a year now even though it was very painful at the same time. And since when is spirituality something easy you can get for free?

Even though its a simple model, it looks quite accurate to me. Although I wouldnt hold my ability to judge such a complex matter too high.

There are some very rare exceptions to this rule in a few women I met, but generally I agree that this is the case and for the sake of your sanity you should approach it like this. You can also look for people who are more stage 2 then 1 if we use this model.

This would fit better in the Off-Topic section