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@The0Self Ok I appear to understand what you appeared to say but didn't really actually it was an illusion anyway so I wanna make this illusion now of a question which is is your apparent experience of being closer as an illusion to just being by this and appears to be more conscious ?

@The0Self How is your apparent I's life changing by looking at everything as absolute I'm curious and asking this from your apparent I personally and what do you personally practice

@TheLoneSage Sure

@The0Self You saying it's impossible to know nothingness ? but how do you know that it's impossible to know isn't that itself knowing what's not knowable ?

@The0Self What do you mean nope

@Seraphim Thanks for the info but I sense a problem within this model which is the idea to experience more than it's being if god is total and whole the concept of more isn't a satisfying answer to this and also then suggests time which again is creating the concept of time so the ultimate question here remains god is already everything and infinite but at the same time is creating stuff so were duality and singularity always the same and are always the same yeah I think i thought of an answer to this later question that i wanted to ask myself which is there is no end or beginning and it's a beautiful paradox

@JuliusCaesar Wow of course thank you

So whatever I think of or imagine in my mind is possible and not only that it is real maybe in some parallel universe or it can be real in this universe and by whatever it literally means whatever so if I imagined once that after realizing all of this I killed myself then it happened or if I imagined god is part of a simulation it could be in some universe a simulation that creates the illusion of god being the simulator I mean this is what infinity means every thought is possible and that's honestly terrifying and scary because you can feel literally out of control of your actions but at the same time you are and always were the only one in control of not only your actions but everything this feels like I'm loosing my mind like Leo said some days I get depressed and suicidal by these thoughts and the next day I will feel more powerful and in control of my life than ever how can I be grounded in my thoughts and not go crazy I don't even know if I need help or not I may but at the same time I may not it's all my own thoughts and nobody outside of me could help me I'm the one responsible for creating them honestly every possibility being actually possible is so terrifying and scary for me and surely it could be for someone else too but it scares me so much that makes me think my psychology maybe is not mature enough that's the reason for it but then again I don't know if it is then how can I fix it to not be this scary at times if somebody knows about my situation I would be glad to have their perspective and opinion on this

@Leo Gura So I got another question Love is accepting everything as it is then and just being but the nature of reality is change and what if you want to change someone or some situation or yourself does Love mean you can do that but whatever happened if it changed as you wished or not you accept it ? then if so where is the line of how much you try to change and then accept whatever result is made

I got a question if God is live and goodness and is not evil and hate because evil and hate does not exist why Leo says god is love and goodness those do not exist either why would any concept exist for god when it's nothing ?

@Windappreciator Sure

@Nahm Thanks again for the reminder

@Windappreciator I have listened to him before yes but I don't remember much I know he's a DJ

@Breakingthewall Thank you

@Nahm Thanks these you posted I feel like is going to help for sure thank you

@Breakingthewall How can I go beyond mind is it by not wanting to go beyond it and just be or should I do meditation and embrace the silence more

@Nahm I do stop focusing on them more than I focus on them but sometimes when I do that it makes me think that I'm escaping to face the truth but I do stop focusing on them anyway because some of these thoughts as I said makes me think of suicide which I don't like cause I've done one suicide before which was before I got into spirituality and even the thought of it scares me but I know deep down I wouldn't do it because I don't see a reason for doing it but still some of these thoughts as I said freaks me out that it's possible to interpret some reason for doing it for me and I think that's what scares me the most when I think about absolute infinity and every possibility

@Nahm What is the difference between thoughts and perceptions isn't perceiving something thinking about it and coming into conclusions about what you thought about which is a thought itself

@Nahm I saw the video of Leo about what is god last night and the things he said about absolute infinity that made me open my mind to every possible possibility and that threatened my survival

@Nahm Yeah maybe that's the case the truth is I'm so doubtful of every thought that I have even my own skeptics I doubt I doubt every concept that my mind creates and this scares me I guess

@Breakingthewall So you are saying that my desire to understanding may be the product of my ego and It would be better to let go of that ? cause I've heard other people saying that to me to but after all what are we but egos trying to understand if we weren't these egos we would be nothing and the godhead which doesn't need understanding

@Breakingthewall Yeah I get what you are saying and actually I did silence it once I took 3 grams of mushrooms and I experienced god i guess but when I realized that all of this world is imaginary and my own imagination I freaked out and went to a bad trip after that so now I know if I didn't think about it and judge it and just accepted it and embraced more silence I wouldn't go into a bad trip and continue to become more aware of god so I try to do that next time but still am afraid of freaking out somehow but it is what it is

I mean they are happening in my mind so yeah they exist

@Nahm Why not ? it's absolute infinity isn't it? Aren't these concepts that in turn are opposed to other concepts also what absolute infinity is ? Doesn't that mean they are possible to be and happen

@Breakingthewall But what is this survival tool that I'm misusing how can I instead of misusing it use it the way to more spirituality and enlightenment