Gregory1

But you felt genuinely aroused by Leo?

Did you wake up with an erection?

I remember Leo said 21.

@Vivaldo they will make you a psychological mess. Don't join. Play guitar, find a nice girl for yourself and get a normal job. It will make you much happier.

Depends on how mature you are. Minimum is 5.5 years.

@wildflower are you saying "I am god"?

@wildflower maybe search for an other forum if you don't like it...?? @wildflower @WokeBloke so you think you are not fridge? What are you then!?

Completely agree.

@wildflower Buddhism is just another cultural tradition. Stop creating low quality posts, sit down, get your hands dirty, get your ass brown and meditate bro.

@WokeBloke Aren't you the fridge?

@Opo just saw your profile picture. You have gotten a bit fat:D

@PurpleTree Or just a bit too much 5-Meo

@PurpleTree dude my pc just turned slightly psychedelic :oo:D:D:D

Have fun baby<3

I don't know. Humans are a beautiful thing, all of them in their own way. I know that Hitler was not evil, he was just ignorant. The same reason I also like you : ) You are a beautiful being.

I like Hitler:) he has done some cruel things but he's still a human.

This sounds like your awakening has not gone deep enough. It should become infinitely more wonderful and more mysterious the deeper you awaken. However, "ordinary life" can seem boring after an awakening, I agree. But it only seems that way because in your everyday state of consciousness you are so asleep. Do meditation and work on yourself to become more conscious on a day to day basis and life will become more and more meaningful, beautiful, mysterious. @Godishere

I love the Goodness of their heart. I love how all the people always do the best they can, always try it again in again. All of them pure in their heart, good in their intentions, not always intelligent in their actions

@WokeBloke YOU ARE MY FRIDGE BRO.

Week #2 Todays report will be a very juicy one since I've had what I would call my first sober "enlightenment-experience" this week. Before we start, I have to appologize once again for the late report. I was not able to post before this day because I was banned once again for 1 week straight. An admin didn't share my sense of humor which is why I got 3 warning points + a 1-week ban. Again, I appologize for the late update. My plan is to update you every Sunday. I hope that I'll be able to do that in the future. First of all, I managed to meditate every day this week for 1 hour straight. I'm proud that I did it but it definitely was not easy! This week there was more procrastination and more resistance than in the first week. In the first week I was very motivated and had what one could maybe call "the beginners motivation." This motivation now kind of faded and meditation has become some normal thing that I "have to do" every morning and since meditation can become pretty boring sometimes it definitely was not always easy to do it. Doubts about meditation that came up this week while meditating and before meditating: Is it even worth the time I'm investing? Where does meditation even lead? What if I am just fooling myself and meditation is just a waste of time? I could do something more productive right now and so on... Still I did my sits this week and I do not regret them in any way. Meditation is definitely a better time investment than wasting your time watching TV or Youtube and I definitely waste more than 1 hour daily with entertainment so I do have the time to meditate! The last 15 minutes of the last session of this week, I even got the reward of having what I would call an "enlightenment-experience" so it was definitely worth it. Obstacles that came up this week while I was meditating: Physical discomfort A lot of monkey mind, I got lost in thoughts quite a bit this week, arguably more than in the first week A desire to get up, scratch myself, move around, distract myself Thoughts like "I am not talented enough for meditation" or "Meditation won't work for me, my genetics are simply not good enough to be that focused" came up Sexual arousal during the meditation session (not a lot, just 1 time) Doubts about my posture not being good enough, doubts about my meditation-technique not being right for me Thoughts like "todays meditation won't lead me anywhere because I'm too tired" etc. Lots of other obstacles, can't name all of them However, I think these obstacles arise for a reason. They show that meditation is working. The ego is not comfortable with being exposed and looked at which is why it brings up these obstacles. Giving into these obstacles can be very tempting and sometimes I got identified with them. On a scale of 1-10 how focused and determined was I in my sessions this week? Focus: 5, tried my best but my focusing abilities aren't that good yet, I get lost easily Determination: 4, got distracted too easily, not always determined to make the most out of my meditation sessions Insights from this weeks sessions: Even though there is lot of time in my meditation sessions where I get discracted, move around to gain physical comfort, do stupid shit, give into monkey mind, get identified with thoughts, etc., there are also always very short and brief moments of insight / clarity. If I meditate for 1 hour and have 1 minute of focus / insight it will still be worth it. Meditation is not about being perfectly present all the time, it's about trying your best and with time windows of awareness and clarity will open up There is a lot of shit going on in every single moment. We usually disctract ourselves from it by engaging in activities / distracting ourselves. I think I noticed more phenomena this week than the last week. For example I could feel the digestion-processes in my body going on. Also I could feel the bad feelings of digensting something unhealthy and the negative response of the body to bad food. Normally I distract myself from seeing these things by engaging in activities / entertainment There is an intelligence within myself / yourself that knows exatly what to do. You should be open to receive messages from that intelligence. For example, in my last session this week, the last 15 minutes, this intelligence told me to stop doing my "current technique" and instead to simply focus on "being." I listened to that intelligence and stopped doing the meditation-technique I was currently doing and what happend was a spontaneous "enlightenment-experience." Enlightenment-Experience: There is an intelligence within myself / yourself that knows exatly what to do. Be open to receive messages / instructions from that intelligence. In my last session this week, the last 15 minutes, this intelligence told me to stop doing my "current technique" and instead to simply focus on "Being." I listened to that intelligence and stopped doing the meditation-technique. What happend was a spontaneous "enlightenment-experience": I realized that the very thing I am seeking with my meditation is my Beingness. I realized that I already am and forever will be that Beingness and nothing else. True meditation is simply being Beingness. It is your true nature, the easiest thing to do. While I was "being Beingness" suddenly all questions resolved themselves. All problems faded as I realized that problems are non-existent and that I literally am that Beingness that could never be touched by anything. I realized that I don't need a single word nor a single thought to get where I currently am because I am prior to thought and I felt a quiet and silent inner sense of peace and happiness that is always here, everpresent. Pure Beingness felt so meaningful to me that I thought that I could stay here alone in my room for a 1000 years and just sit here meditating without getting bored or feeling like I need to change anything. 2 little tears started flowing out of my eyes in face of the discovery I had just made. The significance of Beingness can not be put into words. The description I have just tried to make is utterly poor and meaningness in face of the "real" thing I am trying to describe. I advise you (the reader) to not believe me and try out meditation for yourself. Be beingness, everything else is lower and won't ever satisfy you. Improvements in my everyday-life: Didn't notice any significant changes in my day-to-day life. Maybe I noticed more of my own suffering, which kind of hurts. Outlook on the coming week: I am excited to continue my meditation practice this next week. I know that it is not going to be easy but I am excited especially because of the enlightenment-experience that I have had. That experience gave me a glimpse of where meditation could lead me and shows me that it is not all meaningless and worthless. In fact, Beingness is the holy and divine truth and solves all the problems in the world, could there be anything higher to pursue? I hope that in the coming week, I can improve my focus and my determination. Maybe I'll manage to let my ego step aside again, and open up again to the everpresent reality of Beingness that was here all the time (and forever will be here). If you have any questions or want to comment, feel free to do so. Have a nice day!

@Tristan12 @Knowledge Hoarder @Kksd74628 thank you a lot for your responses! They are helpful and inspiring. If you feel like you have something to share or some tips always feel free to comment : )

@Fearless_Bum good luck! Can you create a trip report after your trip?:)

Yes! And that's what makes love so beautiful and so painful at the same time.. She really loves you..

No problem:)

1=1.