spiritual memes

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    @Ulax Damn what a detailed answer! I agree that my level of consciousness is a privilege that I take for granted. It sometimes feels like a curse because its so much harder to fit in with such an unconscious society whose values and beliefs are so different to mine. 

    41 minutes ago, Ulax said:

    and further in recognising my privilege i understand that it is a gift, and a gift i can work to bestow upon others as i can. Right now i cannot go out and do anything but preach ideas and practices i haven't really integrated or mastered, and would be simply preaching. 

    This bit really hit close to home because I recognize myself preaching things I haven't really integrated and then being frustrated that I can't get it across to other people.

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    I'm slightly depressed by how unconscious the world is. Pretty much everyone I know are either materialist skeptics or believe in the religion they were born with. most of them believe spirituality is a waste of time. When I go on the internet the amount of unconsciousness i see skyrockets. 

    Will this always be the case?

    Is spirituality and consciousness work growing or declining? Will we soon reach a point where spirituality is taken seriously by the mainstream?

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    I've been looking into my social anxiety and people pleasing behaviours. I imagine others judging me as a negative energy field surrounding my body. It manifests even when I am alone just thinking about the way I appear to others. Perhaps it came from my childhood where I was ostracized, shunned and bullied by pretty much everyone in my life. I live my life trying not to provoke this energy field.

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    6 hours ago, flowboy said:

    It’s only a risk factor, not a guaranteed illness, otherwise 80% of the population would get a disease in their forties or fifties

    Tbh most middle aged people probably do have a bunch of chronic health conditions.

    6 hours ago, flowboy said:

    You can let the pain out through therapy or self therapy and then the risk factor is gone

    Yes I agree. I'm banging out IFS atm.

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    Phil from actualityofbeing gave me some great advice. Whenever I have a thought, emotion or feeling, I should express it in any way I can. For example when I feel hopelessness or despair, I should allow it to be and express it. Writing it in a journal definitely helps. When I express my feelings more the negativity gets transmuted and I feel a space open up in my energetic body. I tried it at night time one day and when I woke up the next day the world sparkled with a vivid colour as if I was looking at it for the first time. It really felt like I was on psychedelics.

    I also got some good advice from mandy, she said to focus on what I want instead of focusing on what I don't want. Many of my wants are actually rooted in avoiding something negative. For example, my desire for a relationship is rooted in loneliness. Thinking about what I want should not feel negative.

    I'm glad I found these teachers. Shame Leo banned them...

  11. Posted

    On 06/02/2023 at 7:20 PM, meadow said:

    Really appreciate your journal here. I feel like you're a younger version of me who took better decisions and isn't about to let 10 years just slip away. I'm rooting for you. Thanks for writing about IFS.. will explore that now. And thank you for posting that Crywolf song, new favorite artist. 

    Thanks mate. I'm sure those 10 years you let slip were not wasted. I've found that my darkest times have been the best learning experiences. I cannot recommend IFS enough.

    I'm glad you like crywolf, he's one of my favourite artists and I've been trying to get my friends into it but its not for most people. Highly recommend you check out his album exuvium and his skeletons EP.

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    4 hours ago, SharingKnowledge said:

    A few years ago I was so awakened I had NO addictions, NO vices, I had 100% control over my mind, my body, my soul even. I could INTENSELY ego death from 5 minutes of sober meditation, and taking 50ug of LSD was a powerful 12-hour breakthrough experience. It's worth mentioning I have insane genetics when it comes to spirituality and have had many many spiritual experiences since before I was 10.

    I could even enjoy (very) intense physical pain because it was recontextualized as love and a service to God (myself) in my mind. I reached a level of awakening that's honestly unnatural and unrealistic, every second of my life was like being on heroin. Nothing could hurt me.

    I only realise now this level of awakening required an insane level of privilege and luck as well as a willingness to suffer that I only realize now I was taking completely for granted.

    Something really terrible happened to me, one of the worst things that can happen to someone. I don't want to go into the nature of this, but it was so horrifically evil it made me suicidal every day for months (even as someone who identified as God and who had an incredible life purpose). I had multiple horror nightmares every night for months and even years after the event: therapy and multiple powerful psychedelic trips have still left me less than 10% of where I was at in terms of my embodiment.

    Sure I got to keep many of the insights, but if anything that makes it hurt more. I have high hopes I will return to where I was one day, but Reality is brutal and sometimes you get smacked hard enough to set you back 5 years. Actually, I got lucky, because it could've just as well been 10 years, or my whole life. I think 99% of people in my situation would never recover, so yes I do still believe enlightenment can help you become much more resilient to suffering, but let's not get ahead of ourselves that we'll become completely "invincible" to the tangible (or even intangible) existence we live in.

    damn what happened? If you don't want to share its fine but I'm curious to know what could derail enlightenment like that.

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    On 2/3/2023 at 1:34 PM, at_anchor said:

    Are pixels like little lightbulbs that lit up and off from wired electricity that is sent to them with tiny wires all around the screen

    pretty much but Pixels are LED's and the wires are intragrated into the circuit

    Creating a processor is one of the most advanced feats of engineering on the planet. Its so unbelievably complex:

     

    On 2/3/2023 at 1:34 PM, at_anchor said:

    How does the soundbox make sound? It's magical, cause I don't know the technicality of it. Very complex.

    An electric signal is passed into a magnet that turns on and off repeatedly. The magnet moves the speaker.

     

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    On another note, I've spent some time on actualityofbeing as I felt Leo and actualized were becoming a bit toxic. Its a lot less toxic than actualized with a greater focus on integrating spirituality and less on self help and extreme psychedelic use. After spending time on there, the problems with actualized and Leo's teachings become extremely apparent.

    I think I'm going to spend less time on here and more on AOB. I will still update this journal and help others with IFS but I will spend less time on the more toxic discussions that tend to happen on here.

  20. Posted

    I seem to be facing a block. I have made a lot of changes to the core of my psyche which have destabilised my mental system. Many of my parts are scared to do any more IFS work. Whenever I try to do IFS I get a strong feeling of tiredness and resistance to change. It may be wise to take it slow.

    If I think of my mind like a society, doing too many political and social reforms might cause instability and chaos. This is the same in my mind.