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@Leo Gura I would think that a megadose of 5meo would also feel like madness. Or is that only when you do it 30 days in a row alone in a log cabin.

I mean like a radical shift in consciousness, like what psychedelics provide. not just more conscious but ALOT more interconnected and clear.

I was wondering if anyone who is into the golden ratio/fibonacci sequence could post some examples of it in any type of human made art. And explain where and how it occurs in the art. It seems to me that the golden ratio occurs in pop songwriting structure, being shown in the patters of tension and release surrounding the pre- chorus and chorus. I understand that it can be found is basically anything if you look hard enough, but I'm looking for more obvious examples.

When I talk to people they usually just answer my questions without thinking or feeling at all, they're just acting and thinking from the safety of the defense mechanisms that they have built against actually being authentic enough to scare themself by saying something honest. People are so beautiful to me when they are able to be authentic, but so ugly and boring to me when they're just on autopilot. How do you speak to someone in a way that takes them off of autopilot?

god has raped your mother, god has killed your father, god has tortured your brother, god has left your sister for dead and yet still you enjoy gods art, you enjoy life. so why not enjoy a hitler painting?

Is higher mind the unconscious?

@Preety_India Try thinking of him less like an individual human being, and instead try thinking of him as a necessary puzzle piece in the play of humanity. He was necessary in order for humanity to progress to this point. Then you can see him like a small petal of a flower, which was necessary to balance the flower so that the other bigger petals could grow, but just didn't have room to grow itself. (the flower being humanity, the petals being people)

@Matthew85 the trickiness is what I live for though, the beautiful complexity. there are always interesting links and relative reasons. can't think of any?

It seems that every couple years more nudity and violence and vulgarity becomes culturally accepted to use as entertainment. This applies to tv, movies, music, stand up comedy, and most everything else that people entertain themselves with. WHY? (I'm no complaining about it, I like it) Maybe humans need to further face their own violent, sexually obsessed and animalistic side before transcending it to a certain extent, maybe that's why.

of course i am

I can't draw faces either

Whenever I go through a period of time when I'm happy, without any drama, sadness or any problems whatsoever really, I always go back to chasing something or creating some problem to solve. Because problem solving and chasing a better future and the drama of romance is so much more fun than just being happy with what I already have. This seems to also be true for every other person I have ever seen. Being happy with what you have isn't the way of life, it's just death, because life is change. You left death to come here because death is boring.

@universe True, I wonder why I genuinely feel like I don't want to be happy. Like I've had all the happiness I could ever want and now it just bores me, so I want struggle.

How are you supposed to watch them shatter if you are covering your eyes

yeah, so is everything else. but if everything is defined as the same thing then the definitions are useless so I'm splitting things up in order to further understand them.

You mean that since can appreciate happiness, now I don't care if I have it or not? or did you mean something else?

@Gianna Yeah that makes sense thx. So are you saying that art isn't primarily a mode of communication, or primarily a way of exploring the unknown/subconscious, but rather that it is equally both at once? to me it seems like it is mainly a way of exploring the unknown, then sharing it is a secondary priority. But for a more social person it could be the other way around maybe.

I don't know. I know that it doesn't make any sense to "deserve" happiness. It's probably linked to childhood trauma I went through. Others didn't love me, so now I think that I need to be different to be loved by them, and in turn by me. Probably.

@Tim R Ok, but why not?

@Gianna That's such a simple explanation though. I mean, why would they want to see themselves reflected? Just to see what they look like? like a mirror? I understand that this question can be answered on many levels but I think that answering it so simply doesn't really provide much insight. Because you could say that about literally everything that humans do. (that they do it t reflect themselves to to them) But why art specifically? why a painting rather than just a just looking in the mirror? why a song rather than just a conversation?

I have gone through months of feeling childlike joy at everything and it was very satisfying at the time, but I ended it on purpose because it became boring for me compared to the suffering that I experience with the drama of solving problems. It's like I seek out states which frustrate me, like I'm addicted to conflict. Whenever I'm really happy I feel kinda undeserving, and like I want to fight for something.

yeah I think ur right thanks.

But even when my life is moving in the way you describe, and I'm happy all the time. I create some problem for myself just to experience some shift in my satisfaction, some drama, some problem that I can solve. It's like I fear happiness.

Ok yea good point, why do I seem to find suffering more fun tho.

I have found that the most mind altering thing to do while tripping (except for maybe silent meditation) is to listen to music. Does anyone have any insights of any kind regarding listening to and/or creating music while tripping? I am mainly asking because I want to create songs using psychedelics.