It is brave of you to take full responsibility for the thing that happened. As the stronger you get, the more lethal the manifestation will become. No one is perfect so anyone does mistakes. We had a very spiritually advanced woman who manifested lethality.
That the price she paid for the empowerment she gave herself and others. The more advanced you are the bigger the risks if you make a mistake. So it is wise to train responsibility and temper beforehand.
The point of karmic retribution is to acknowledge that" Everything that comes to me is deserved and desired". That motto helps to control temper and avoid further mistakes.
No need to confuse victim-blaming disguised as a virtue for something you attracted and made a mental story out of it. As accidents can still happen in the mind of the ALL. Even lethality. Good luck.