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Could not agree more.

@somegirl What has worked for me was making nuanced but critical lifestyle changes. What you can do for example is limit your exposure to the things that make you think the thoughts that you don't want until you forget those negative thoughts entirely, or at least until they lose their significance to you. And at the same time, you can increase your exposure to the thoughts that you want more of in your life. For example, since you said you feel unworthy as a woman, then one possible cause is the IG super models and things like that. So the first step in this case would be to stop watching that kind of stuff. At the same time, maybe listen to more feminist type people (but be careful of extremists). Then after some time, you might be able to look back again but without feeling unworthy. The key here is time, so the change is not going to happen overnight. But with this awareness that you already have, the change has already started, and it's simply a matter of time.

I would say that you might be looking at self-actualization and personal development rather in a narrow/limited way. Notice your aversion to drama. That's not what you ultimately want, because it creates a shadow. I think you can learn something from integrating more drama into your life, but without being a victim of it or sucked into it unconsciously. In other words, let there be some drama in your life, but don't react to it in a similar way, don't reciprocate. Rather, act from the highest consciousness place that you can, and see how that might reflect on your life. At the very least, it will increase your compassion and help you distinguish the real from the fake drama in the long run.

Best Actualized video so far! Hands down!

Sounds super cool! Looking forward to it!

Black-pill is true, not only in dating, but everywhere in life. That's just the way it is, e.g. one's genetics determine most of their life potential. However, it's not the full picture, since it misses on very important truths, like mindset and effort in the right place at the right time (Red-pill). People who identify with the Black-pill often have victim's mentality and a lot of defeatism in their minds. They don't (want to) know that there's a lot of room form improvement, so they just stay stuck where they are.

There's no attachment here. Only spontaneity, playfulness, and curiosity. But feel free to believe whatever you want about me. I have no preference or control over your mind. Though, I like the way the focus of this conversation has shifted from you over to me. Looks like someone could use a mirror

Looking back at my past and feeling disgusted by myself and the amount of delusions I used to have. Delusional thinking is the trickiest of all problems. I currently have very few delusions, and I'm aware of them. Yet I still can't simply get rid of them. I have two or three primary delusions that my existence hinges on, or at least that's how I suppose it feels like from the unconscious mind's perspective. Having awareness of the delusions does not automatically remove them. There's probably something more powerful running in the background. But I don't know what that could be. I have no clue whatsoever, despite all of my meditation and contemplation, etc. The main reason I know for sure that what I'm experiencing is delusions and not truth is because they go away sometimes. Sometimes I have clarity and I can see myself without those delusions. A less concrete reason would be a rational explanation that these delusions should not exist in the first place, because they don't serve any apparent purposes. Though, I'm 100% sure they serve purposes that I'm simply not aware of. So now, what's the deal? Should I just let myself be delusional like that? I've been allowing and accepting of them for a very long time, and they seem to be only getting worse. Though, they are not harmful delusions, at least for me as of now. Or should I abandon them and stick to the window of clarity that I get every now and then? This option does not feel possible at all for now. When I am delusional, there's no way to logic my way out of that state. I will know and understand that I'm being irrational when I'm being irrational, but I will still be irrational, I just can't help it. Logic resonates on a very surface level, not very deep, it does not reach the ground layer of my perception. I mean it's better than before when I could not even recognize my irrationality. But still, I'm stuck with the delusions for some reason. I think if I could somehow get rid of them, then I would be in total God mode forever. I don't know. Maybe these delusions are part of the reason why I'm still alive, happy, and functional. I don't know.

I meant to say that I'm detached from whatever results this exchange might lead to.

Because it will help you. But of course, you're free to dismiss it. I don't care.

Not necessarily what beauty is, nor how I think of it. I was just sharing some food for thought about the mechanism that I perceive as primary in determining how emotions work, and really the psyche and perception in general.

Classical Conditioning

No problem. Not really. Maybe consider taking a short break from that Aaron guy. Maybe you'll see things in a different light.

I've never gotten the chance to use anything other than Windows. I remember Windows ME as the first OS to play around with when I was a child. Then I basically tried every version of Windows up until 10, which I have right now. My desktop PC (currently broken; not enough cash to fix it) has 3 OSs: 7, 8.1, and 10. My laptop has only Windows 7 and 10, the latter which I'm writing from. I haven't installed 11 yet because there's no real reason to, and I don't want to go through that process for now. I'm very perfectionistic when it comes to this stuff, so I don't do it unless it's really necessary. I don't even install regular Windows updates because they ruin the performance, which is not very great to begin with on my 1st Gen - Core i3 laptop. The reason why I don't have any experience with other OSs is because they're not very popular here (fifth-world country). And they're also a lot more expensive (the hardware, at least). As well, here we mostly use pirated apps, so that kinda makes up for the poverty. I don't suppose piracy is as easy with Apple software, but I don't know. I haven't looked into it.

I have an idea for a future project. There aren't any competitors currently, and it looks promising. First killer idea! I'll write it down privately. EDIT: Actually, turns out there is one competitor, but it's on a very small scale, almost unrecognizable.

Oh, man the levels of consciousness that I'm accessing! So cool!

@Razard86 I don't mean any offence, but I have a list/leaderboard that I use to rank people according to spiritual ego. You're currently #1 or #2.

I don't know. They play it a lot in cafes and restaurants.

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It's hard to capture/collect insights when they start flowing and overflow from my awareness. Sometimes, I receive so many gems during walking meditation, but I can't write them down because trying to catch them and translate them into words kinda blocks the streamflow of higher consciousness, and so I would have to start over after catching every insight in order to get back into state, or at least I would be slowed down and regressed/pulled back a little into a lower state. I hope that many of the insights are automatically getting implemented/internalized into my psyche and life, and I think they are. The proof is the progress I keep making.

Political issues are not really political. They're political at the surface, but really economical deep down. Why does racism exist? Because humans are selfish and they want to survive. Similar people (by any criterion) get together and form alliances against other groups of people, who in their turn do the same. So simple. Why does anti-racism exist? Because humans are selfish and they want to survive. It just so happens that this group has a different perspective on how to survive. This perspective includes making use of the minorities (integrating/enslaving them) instead of fighting them off. There's nothing heroic or altruistic about anti-racism. Humans only care about themselves, and pretty much nothing else. If anti-racism was hurting (or not benefitting) you in someway, you would not be rooting for it. Full stop. You might be thinking that it's a win-win as opposed to racism. Well, maybe it seems that way now. But surely not forever. Racism is the rule. Anti-racism is the exception. You are as racist as anyone else, cuz ego is racist. Unlike you, I can see the full picture. So don't even try to bullshit me. Okay, buddy? On the other hand, it's obvious that racism can be seen as loyal, heroic, and altruistic for one's group from the same group's perspective. Otherwise, it would not exist. The truth is that when things are on the line, when your life is in danger or if you're suffering, you will fight your dearest people to survive or find peace. There won't be a friend nor a foo. Everyone is the enemy. Or you will have some deluded idea that you are the enemy and then do something stupid and hurt yourself. It's kinda good that we're not at the airport yet. How deep does the human bullshit go? I don't know. Anyhow, don't think about the absolute, just recognize it. Enjoy the ride. Am I racist? Or anti-racist? Well, I'm God. So both and neither. And I can't help it.