Gesundheit2

A survival strategy.

Appreciate your honesty and transparency.

Not sure why I spent all night last night watching gore videos. Still somehow disturbing after all this spiritual work. I'm still not quite there yet. I'm still judgemental and fearful on the inside. Ideally, one should be able to watch gore, horror movies, or anything without it being disturbing. Earlier today, I got high during meditation, and I thought the fear of death was removed, not my first time though. But I don't trust my insights while I'm high, as much as I don't trust psychedelic hallucinations. Got some insights from it all in retrospect. Been focusing on my purpose for the rest of the time until earlier tonight, where I suddenly decided to go back in time and listen to the most popular music songs from my childhood. It was songs that people generally listened to all the time and especially on special occasions. I don't usually listen to Arabian music, so tonight was an exception. And YouTube to the rescue. It's weird that I haven't even once listened to the majority of the songs. All I have of them is hazy memories of the melodies, and that's it. However, it's been refreshing listening to them after all this time.

Hardships are good, but only if you know how to take advantage of them. It's one thing to face your demons when your life is perfect, and it's another thing entirely to face your demons, defeat, and burn them alive when you're living in hell. In the first case, you are naive. You think you're actually doing something, when in fact everything is being done for you. You're playing life at the easiest level, and yet with cheats. You're standing on the shoulders of giants, thinking that you are a giant. You're strolling downhill with ease, not really doing anything special, but you think you are, because you're naive. In the second case, everything is rigged against you. You start the game where you are weak and where your demons are freakishly strong. You're playing life at the hardest level, with huge difficulties/handicaps/disadvantages. And yet, you're not quitting. You take the hits fearlessly. You stand up again and again. You fight back, and then you eventually prevail. You take death in your hands, and turn it into life. You learn how to tame the wildest monsters until they've become your domestic pets. The ox is your servant now, and you shall ride back home. On the top of the world, that's where you belong, and nobody else. Now, that you're the strongest. What more is there to say?!

Westerners are very neurotic! Look at all this covid paranoia. Even worse, look at the vaccine neurosis, which brand to take, hands-on, first impressions, side effects, blah blah blah. Honestly, it makes me want to vomit. I mean, covid is real, but come on! Can't westerners be cool about anything?! Like, at all?!

Leo wants the forum to be like a school. You're not supposed to pose or even have radically different opinions than the mainstream here. Only devils had opposed Leo, and they're all dead now lol. Refresh the home page and you'll be logged back in automatically. It's probably something to do with browser cache and other technical stuff.

It's something inedible. Nuff said.

@Emerald In another post, I remember you saying that you'll be attracted to whomever you hangout around the most, or something like that. You said love is blind. How does that fit with what you're saying here?

Lucid times.. Every morning, roughly between 5:00 am and 6:30 am. Increased lucidity, vision, and creativity. I saw Biden talking to me lol. Electricity, trees, Whitehouse... Among other things.

How come I experience growth gradually, but also in leaps? Everyday, I'm a new person. Awakening happens every morning lol. I can tell my level by the many things/people I'm no longer attracted to. What used to attract me yesterday is now neutral to me. I'm outgrowing everything in life very quickly, very steadily. In the last few years, I've grown lifetimes. In the last year, I've grown decades. In the last few days alone, I've grown years. Every new level comes with different attraction trends. The trends are becoming more focused and less personal. And the previous levels are now seen as childish. Is there even a limit?!

The entertainment industry is a bunch of monkeys fighting over your time.

This is essentially true, but still is a bit distorted. Right distinction, wrong details. I can confirm that I experience the two layers, but I think your explanation comes from the feminine perspective. And so it's not representing, nor expressing the masculine perspective correctly. For me at least, the prefrontal cortex stuff are subject to the reptilian brain the same way my logic is subject to my emotions. My logical mind doesn't control my emotions, although informs, manages, and directs them. So, I actually have a desire for deep bondin with humans (not just women), as long as it serves my desire for dominance and acquisition. It's just that I am not interested in relations that don't serve my reptilian brain desires. All the joy for me comes from satisfying the reptilian brain. And so, I don't enjoy the experience of the prefrontal cortex desires, it's mostly neutral to me, but I do enjoy their results.

Most violent and offensive rap I've ever heard! LMAO! Topics: dissing, pride, rape, murder, war, humiliation, submission, and others. Makes sense.

I want to beat this horse to death. There are various definitions for the ego but very little agreement between people, including spiritual. Maybe it's because of how vague and general the term is being used and how layman it's now become. Or maybe it's just because the ego is actually a tricky beast, as they say. From the biggest picture possible, how do you define the ego? Creativity is encouraged, Mr. @Nahm

@Parththakkar12 I like misunderstanding women, it's part of my life purpose

I've got the answers! Not from the replies, of course. It's always been useless to ask others such questions. And it's also useless to share my answers, so I'll just keep them to myself.

A very good indicator for the shadow is the loss of control you experience over your conscious will. Anytime you catch yourself doing something that you consciously know that you shouldn't be doing, you can rest assured that that's your shadow. Addictions, compulsions, urges, laziness, etc... are all signs of shadow possession. Absolutely.

The point for the consumer is not the same point for the creator. But it's also somehow the same. You are a consumer of the idea of enlightenment. Realize that, and then proceed.

m others don't exist.

I'm not sure if it's related at all or if someone said it before, but imagine going to jail for telling a person that they're fat

Language is the key to development, but it can only take you so far, precisely as far as humans have reached. If your language is outdated/lacks nuanced, modern, technical terms, like Arabic, then your development will stop at a certain level, unless you learn another language. English is, perhaps, the richest in terms of pragmatism. But I guess other languages have depths of their own, and you can only understand them through experience. There's A LOT beyond language, though. Language is still primitive, i.e. at the level of humans. There's A LOT beyond humans that they actually seem to me like apes right now, and I'm not even close to where I want to be or know is possible. And I'm not exaggerating. I used to always underestimate my development levels in the past, not really sure why. Probably low self-esteem, abusive/narcissistic people, and high peer pressure. But now, I have a clear sense of where I'm at amongst humans, and that has to be somewhere amongst the top that have ever existed. Grandiosity, whatever.

I can't believe how it's possible to be so advanced in certain areas, and yet be so unaware of certain blind-spots that you have. What am I talking about? Well, here's the thing; I waste so much time and energy trying to bring others up to my level, mainly through truth-sharing. But most of the times, people are so blind by their biases and agendas to be able to comprehend what I have to say, let alone appreciate its depth and value, let alone accept it and then utilize it in any meaningful way. See, the problem is that when you're too advanced, you tend to assume that the things you know as common sense are actually common sense for others. But since others aren't as advanced as you are, you'll often find yourself in situations where you have to dumb yourself down to their level and explain everything to them out of pure stupidity and lack of depth. In Arabic, we have a saying that goes like: "Smart people understand by the signs". Too much blabber/nuance is even considered a linguistic error. The less words, the better the quality of your message. Zero is an example of a smart person, he knows how to use language efficiently. Having to explain everything is for dumb idiots who have no depth whatsoever. They need someone to walk them through the process of thinking step by step before they can understand. And even then, they rarely will. And even then, they barely will. The solution to that is to simply let go of the need to help others, and then let them drown in their ignorance. I always thought that I should be treating other humans as equal to me, but the truth is that I am nowhere near their level. The things I've seen and the depths of insights that I've experienced, I doubt many others have awareness, or even an idea of. Sometimes, I seriously feel like I'm talking with children. So, from now on, I won't explain anything to anyone. People will either get what I say, or they won't. I have been implementing this lately, and it's quite effective. Plus, I get to keep my juiciest most useful and powerful insights for myself, which are probably incommunicable to begin with. But even if they weren't, people don't deserve them to begin with, because eventually they will use them against me, even after all the struggles of communication. When someone tells you that you're wrong, tell them that they're right, and then do whatever the fucking hell you want to do, regardless.

@StarStruck I kinda saw this coming, which is why I encouraged you to look at your needs from a higher perspective. @Preety_India See? When I said he could transcend the neediness through spirituality, you were shortsighted and sarcastic. This behavior is a direct result of neediness, and could have been avoided simply by doing the inner work. But you're a rookie, and I don't blame you

@Emerald Fair enough, and best of luck.

I don't. You're all free to be maidens if you want. I just care for your survival agenda, that's all. Really, I'm on the contrary of what you said. And deep down, you know I'm right.