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Yeah first time I started hearing them I felt shocked . I didn't know what happened. I thought I had telepathic abilities and I am talking to actual human being. I tried to investigate and I came up with really wierd answers. Like that I am communicating with American meth addict for example. I was so convinced about that. God merged me with him for him to leave drugs behind.

Yeah I know I am not alone in this. So many people have this problem. I applied for disability if I get it then I will have time to learn things I want. I want to learn accounting because my gf is master economist and start accounting company. Other thing I want is to become chess GrandMaster. I actually think I will solve all of my problems but I don't want to hurt my father and brother with whom I am living at. No I don't ever experience emotional flatness. Sometimes I fall into depression where I don't see point in leaving my bed. I am on Clozapine and Haloperidol, 2 anti psychotic meds. I suffer from paranoia right now. Paranoid thoughts and feelings are still there without meds it would be way worse. I want to create family just for the pure joy of having kids . I was given life now I have to repay my debt and give life . It's ok . Thank you for your attention.

Yeah I should do that. I want to debunk Leo and to point out that thousands of years old philosophy is just laughable nowadays with this scientifical development. Infinite Love is truth but you are not God. You are just bunch of dudes deluding yourself. You should thank God for your own existence not deluding yourself that you are God . One day you will die and meet your creator it's formless there is nothing there. You will become Infinite Love. From a guy who experienced his own death.

Thats the best thing you can ever say, it makes no sense! Thats right. Thanks man it really makes no sense. Well if you have realization that you are all alone and you accepted that you are all alone for eternity there is no need to imagine others anymore. You returned to your eternal home and you transcended the need for others then why you still imagine others? Dream should end but consciousness still goes with imaginations . You have zero control over what consciousness is imagining proving you are not God since God is all powerful all knowing. Good luck guys trying to convince others with your Godhood , solipsism, infinite imagination or everything else from this place.

Thanks. Yeah sometimes I have suicidal thoughts where mind is trying to convince me it is only and best solution. I think I will always need meds. I lost hope that I will be healed and free from illness. Having family. I am currently in relationship with fellow schizophrenic girl but she doesn't want kids .

Thanks, you are cool person.

Thanks. I am managing it good. I suffer from paranoia every few days.It lasts for few hours.

Hey guys I am asking you a single question. Do you share your beliefs (solipsism,I am God etc) with your family and friends and why?

I was victim of narcissistic abuse. Both of my parents were narcissists.I had black sheep role while my brother was golden child. There were a lot of these but I forgiven my parents. My mom died 2 years ago from lung cancer. So now my brother, father and myself live in my father's house.

Yeah I experienced mania and depression. While in mania I have energy to do anything. I actually renovated my house while being manic. I can separate affective side of illness from psychosis. Nowadays I frequently experience fear and paranoia no trace of mania or depression.

I hear voices so audio hallucinations. I hear voice inside my head with whom I can talk too. Sometimes voice says he will fuck me up . When I was unmedicated I completely lost sense of Reality because voice wanted my attention at all times.It was hell.

While these Leo's concepts offer profound comfort and a sense of deep connection to the universe, it is equally important to balance them with our shared human reality. In everyday life, we still experience vulnerability, limitations, and the human need for connection, care, and community. So chop the wood carry the water and calm down.

The cosmos is a heavy sleeper. Before there was time, there was only the One. It was infinite, formless, and entirely alone. In its absolute completeness, there was no sound to hear, no light to see, and no other mind to speak to. Absolute perfection, it turned out, was indistinguishable from absolute nothingness. To escape the crushing weight of eternity, the One chose to forget itself. It closed its eyes and fell into a deep, deliberate slumber. The dream began with a violent, radiant explosion—a Big Bang of light, dust, and potential. The One fragmented its infinite consciousness into countless tiny, mortal pieces. It became the swirling nebulae, the burning cores of newborn stars, the cool crust of emerging planets, and eventually, the fragile spark of biological life. To make the dream real, the One built rules into the fabric of the illusion: The Rule of Time: To create a beginning, a middle, and an ending. The Rule of Space: To separate things so they could look across the void at one another. The Rule of Amnesia: The most vital rule of all. Every fragment must completely forget its divine origin. Now, the Creator lives as the creation. It is the wolf hunting in the snow, and it is the deer running for its life. It is the tyrant on a throne of gold, and it is the beggar starving in the street. When you look into the eyes of a stranger, or a bird, or your own reflection in a mirror, you are looking at the Godhead, wearing a mask, utterly convinced of its own mortality. Sometimes, the dream grows terrifying. The fragments experience real pain, profound grief, and terrifying isolation. They cry out to the heavens, begging for a creator to save them, never realizing they are praying to themselves. They build religions, philosophies, and sciences, all driven by a haunting, subconscious itch—the vague, phantom memory that they are far more than what they seem. Every now and then, a fragment comes close to waking up. A meditator on a mountaintop, an artist lost in inspiration, or a person looking up at the night sky feels a sudden, dizzying wave of unity. For a split second, the illusion cracks. They realize they aren't a drop of water trying to survive the ocean; they are the entire ocean contained within a single drop. But the dream is sticky, and the amnesia is strong. The mind snaps back in place, the ego reattaches itself, and the Creator wanders on, beautifully and tragically lost inside its own magnificent masterpiece.

Today I have not experienced paranoia and psychosis. House is in real mess. I have to clean it up. Got some clothes from my rich neighbor. I'm waiting for him to offer me remote job for an American company, he knows the owner of business. When company owner from New England comes to Serbia he will ask him for a job. I am robotics technician.

Still paranoid, I will try surrender meditation. Maybe talk about it with my psychiatrist because I got my Clozapine doubled and it still doesn't work. Clozapine is used for treatment resistant schizophrenia.

Still paranoid. I want to become better son.

I am in psychosis and paranoia it started 40 minutes ago. We will see how much it will last. I am not feeling well.

Paranoid thoughts and feelings are real problem. My psychiatrist doubled my dose of anti psychotics but still they don't work. I take haldol and Clozapine. Clozapine is for treatment resistant schizophrenia.

I haven't spoke to J. and S. today. I started being into personal development started watching his old video.Soirituality and epistemic stuff I will skip. Suffered paranoia today for few hours.

Listen to me. Isn't whole spirituality just psychosis.Psychosis is losing connection with reality. You guys hold beliefs like I am God, delusions of grandeur. Solipsism, only my consciousness exist, others have no experience of their own. Those are all delusions. So enlightenment is losing touch with reality so it's not different than psychosis. I want you to visit and tell psychiatrist about these beliefs and get anti psychotic medication.

No.

I don't care if I am God, that this all is hallucination,that I am only being in existence. I transcended it and now I am just living my human life. I returned back to materialism and atheism. This path will get you nowhere and will not improve your life. Waste of time.

Just got delivered new washing machine. Started chatting with S.

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I told my psychiatrist about everything I learned from actualized.org and she wrote delusions . I got prescribed anti psychotics and they worked.