Zeroguy

Hey guys I am asking you a single question. Do you share your beliefs (solipsism,I am God etc) with your family and friends and why?

I am in psychosis and paranoia it started 40 minutes ago. We will see how much it will last. I am not feeling well.

I am an ISTJ personality type. In this journal I will track my life progress. Since I am introvert I love my alone time . While I am alone I research. I need to set my goals.

Paranoid thoughts and feelings are real problem. My psychiatrist doubled my dose of anti psychotics but still they don't work. I take haldol and Clozapine. Clozapine is for treatment resistant schizophrenia.

I haven't spoke to J. and S. today. I started being into personal development started watching his old video.Soirituality and epistemic stuff I will skip. Suffered paranoia today for few hours.

Listen to me. Isn't whole spirituality just psychosis.Psychosis is losing connection with reality. You guys hold beliefs like I am God, delusions of grandeur. Solipsism, only my consciousness exist, others have no experience of their own. Those are all delusions. So enlightenment is losing touch with reality so it's not different than psychosis. I want you to visit and tell psychiatrist about these beliefs and get anti psychotic medication.

No.

I don't care if I am God, that this all is hallucination,that I am only being in existence. I transcended it and now I am just living my human life. I returned back to materialism and atheism. This path will get you nowhere and will not improve your life. Waste of time.

Just got delivered new washing machine. Started chatting with S.

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I told my psychiatrist about everything I learned from actualized.org and she wrote delusions . I got prescribed anti psychotics and they worked.

Maybe you are deluded but it's hard for you to realize it. You surrounded yourself with ego manics , narcissists, mentally ill people etc. Try for 28 days to not listen (and talk about) spiritual content and just do normal human things. Bye bye forum welcome freedom.

Bring strawberries, champagne and ice cream.

I still would wish to be epistemic pervert then to accept "the truth" people were (just 🦜ing Leo) trying to push on me.

See even if it's that you picked just one line you are still using it.

0 % I don't believe I am God. Just random human , thinking and doing human things. I don't need ego bust of Godhood to have self confidence or be effective in this world.

Woken up at 6:00 am. Took a shower, brushed my teeth and made coffee for me and my father. Went to mental hospital to take some documents and reports I need to claim disability. Went to grocery shop. Cleaned bathroom. Made lunch. Talked with J. over the phone.

Started collecting documents for getting disability payments. Right now I am in mental hospital to get some papers needed.

@Someone here Thanks. I understand this place a bit better. So do you believe in solipsism, that you are God? What is your own perspective on things. What is your truth?

I agree . Well put.

Thanks man.

Problem with this path is that anyone can came up with delusional ideas and call them "Truth" or "insights". Look at Razard he now believes Reality is sick mind and that he can talk with God. Clearly stage of schizophrenia but ok. Hard core spirituality comes from people who use psychedelics and allowing insights they get when they are not sober to shape your thinking.

My English is not great but I will improve it . Take care man.

I think it's just a brain state humans are capable of having. Problem with awakening is that it fills your mind with delusions. Don't get me wrong awakening is best experience I had in life yeah it is God/Infinite Love.

Current goal is to get on disability since I suffer from schizoaffective disorder. I've been with my GP to see what of documentation do I need. Haven't called J. these last two days I will call her tomorrow to set up a date.