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@kinesin Very informative, thanks. However, if he still struggles then how does he know his method will help him and others? It's one thing to read about it and deliver and another thing to test and experiment and observe the change over the long-term and then to assess. In my experience, personally, some methods just cease to work over time for me. This still doesn't explain why would he post on his blog letting all of us know he is watching porn. Isn't he trying to fix this problem? Even more importantly, which could shift perspective - does it seem like he considers it a problem (the healer's wound) ? If no then what you said doesn't mean anything

@Opo Then how can he know the advice is true? The only way he can verify it is through his own experience @something_else Indulging in porn consciously?? If you where conscious you'd have no reason to indulge in porn. What would your motivations be then?

@Eren Eeager Same man. Sorry for being defensive. Usually I never talk about politics because I don't understand them, but this is happening right now and I'm experiencing it + it's on Actualized.org (my most visited website as of recently). But yeah, I hope higher consciousness will prevail the politicians and citizens

@Eren Eeager Tough.. You want to have a channel and speak with a human face but without showing your face. The only thing that comes to mind is that it would probably be computer rendered and not give such a high quality face (more cartoonish). There are some Youtubers who were masks/costumes to not reveal their identity, as well as some people who don't show a body at all and just use their audio which could also be an option if you'd like

@Eren Eeager There are some people who use a sort of VR avatar that speaks (not too knowledgeable on it though). There's something similar also with creating an anime avatar

@Waves @DocWatts Yes I hear you guys that he is just a normal dude and is trying to break the myth in my head that he is some kind of angle. But then still, why would he share advice that he himself doesn't quite embody. It's like why would you listen to dating coach that didn't have any success with relationships? Leo (ok, we got it that he is a normal human) is still not embodying his teachings, which just gives him a bad image. But like seriously, why would you watch porn for god sake? No one just decides to watch porn with no selfish motive. It causes brain and psychological damage, the very thing Leo is preaching to grow and working to grow on himself. Can you see the problem?

@Eren Eeager Yeah this land was ours from the start and we just got kicked out and now came back. They should've anticipated we would come back to the land that belonged to us. You are completely right that Israel doesn't know how to solve this problem in an appropriate manner. The right wing is not great here and is causing the hatred to continue. But you can't say that their hate is for a good reason. Dude, they want to fricking bomb us out of here instead of investing their precious money into developing their lives. Anyway, I feel I should stop. I don't want to let my biases take over. I'm from Israel and you are from Jordan so it's easier to take sides. There needs to be a change in the structure of how we think in solving this problem

@Eren Eeager Easy for you to say. Even if you don't believe in the Jewish religion you still need to remember that the Jews were longing to come back to the country for more than 2000 years. Saying it is laughable is kinda disrespectful. Well, actually Israel did try to propose to divide the country 50/50 (which is not exactly what they wanted, but well), and the Palestinians refused because they wanted the whole country and for Israel to be completely destroyed. I'm not saying that Israel is necessarily in the good, there is hatred from both sides. The thing is that we could be in a much better position (for both sides) if Hamas would use the money to help evolve Gaza and other Arab places. It is almost laughable at how much Israel has been trying to make peace but Hamas just wants to bomb us outa here

I could totally relate to you. For about a year or more I've made sure to stay as far as I can from my parents because I was scared that their unconscious behaviors will impact me and pull me down after all the work I've been putting in, for the exact purpose of growing myself from their ignorant abuse. I have to be kind though and all that since I depend on them. I live in their house, they provide food, money,... Now I'm at the stage where I can go to family gatherings without feeling threatened for my survival (although I'd prefer not to since it still pulls me down a bit). I think that many people on this journey deal with the same issue of dealing with their unconscious family and difficulty in friendships/relationships because of the consciousness gap

@kag101 Totally. Then how did you become present without trying to? Being present requires you to know you are present, and knowing that requires you to say to yourself for a brief second "oh, I'm present" (and then in my case "wait, shit, you're not" )

So quite the opposite. As kag101 said, it is the fear of letting go and being totally immersed in it (like being totally in it, like infinite with it). Perhaps your claim would've been correct if I'd have more experience playing video games and seeing the negative aspect of it

@kag101 Interesting.. You might be on to something. Perhaps it could be true, but I believe I do it unconsciously which is kinda funny. I'm unconsciously thinking about being mindful, which is a conscious act, but thinking about it isn't since I'm not getting anywhere

@Shin Totally! But in general I have a musical ear and I love listening to music because it just feels so true. I won't be surprised if my life purpose turns out to be creating music. I mean... I am very much struggling with it and I wouldn't say I've really managed. Even showing signs of tiredness and sighing are hard for me. I think it has to do with the fact that it's difficult for me to be authentic, even though I've practiced quite a bit of mindfulness.. ugh..

@Osaid I am attracted to some male anime characters, mostly from their looks. If what you say is true, then does it mean that sexual attraction is being attracted by some features and they can be emulated on a man? I also like anime women (not so much though) but I find that the attractive males are way more attracting than the women. Ironically, I feel disgusted thinking about men in real life I haven't watched porn in more than 6 months and I'm on nofap over 190 days (not trying to show off, but telling you that my head is surely not consumed with sex fantasies. This is what enabled me the most to focus my energy on this journey). But yeah, taking a break and going nofap helped me manage my sexual urges better and I find myself more attracted to things and more honest with myself. I'm not sitting and jerking off to it lmao

That might sound very weird and disturbing to some people but I'm going to be honest - I am attracted to women more than men in real life, but I'm more attracted to anime males more than anime women (I think they look better). Please, what does this mean about me??

I understand a bit. Sometimes I have been questioning whether I'm gay and I'm just subconsciously hiding it from myself out of fear. I tried thinking about gay sex, tried masturbating thinking about men - All of it really disgusted me. I had to do it and I realized that I am (like I thought) attracted to women. However, something important that I've realized is that my attraction isn't 100% straight. It's not either straight/gay/bi, but more like mostly straight with some light degree of gay. I can admit that I find men attractive at times but not to the extent of wanting to get sexual and very intimate

As I am practicing mindfulness, self acceptance and meditation, I find it easier to talk about deeper things and to talk about personal issues with others (or maybe I've just gotten used to it since I've practiced it a lot as a survival mechanism for improving my life - that only through honesty I can get the help I need). So I'm kinda good at going deep with people on a personal level, such as general problems, life situation, fears, goals, etc. However, when I get to those deep territories I feel like I am not completely being and feeling in to that intimacy. It's as if I'm putting out facts which are personal, without a strong connection at the Being level. I'm playing a trick on myself believing I'm becoming intimate and completely in the moment with another person. It's quite frightening and overwhelming the shit out of me. I am avoiding hugs and fluffy friendships with others. Also avoiding authentically light-laughing with others (I will authentically laugh at things which are obviously funny and strongly make me and others laugh). Also I avoid opening to greet people happily. I am going in less than 4 months to a camp which is 6 months long and I'm going to live with people and do social activities, and this kind of gets me anxious sometimes. I decided to sign up for it long ago because of benefits I saw in it. However I really don't know how I'll be able to maintain myself if I don't manage to develop great social skills and inner love and good vibe. There is something inside of me, however, that tells me that the good life is where I am feeling lot's of love and acting from a place of authenticity and mindfulness

@RendHeaven How in the world do I fix this?

I just came back from a trip (travel and camp) of 2.5 days with a group of people in my same age group and I feel that my mindfulness has grown as I am being forced to feel my surrounding while walking and seeing the view as it is (it also helped me socialize a bit). But now I am starting to notice more nuance aspects of my life, such as my hardship in being authentic, loving to myself and to others, not exactly feeling the emotio In as it is (which means that also when I feel kind of down/shy/not so in the mood I will always trick myself into feeling better and it usually causes a bit of resistance, or I will kind of force myself to be authentic which is quite paradoxical because then my authentic self is changing without me realizing). Today I've managed to actually feel some vague feelings for a while and I just let them be without even trying to label it. Just curious about the sensations of my body and my thoughts in the passing moment. It was quite big for me, but I think it is because I am slowly getting to a development stage where I start to let myself to feel more. This makes my understanding of life way bigger than most people I see, but at the same time I am starting to realize that I'm not actually living how I really want to live, and I'm becoming aware of it more with time. All of this said, but still I am quite behind in the basic self help. I need to develop my social skills and my management in life in general. My understanding of the higher stages are way above the practical self help. So I am expanding my awareness in order to see my position in a more clear way lol. I really don't want to be stuck in life and feel like I am always behind. I have desires which 99% of people I see don't even consider (or so, I guess) such as becoming mindful of emotions and letting them be which is quite hard and I don't know how to do it. I am talking all this and it's nice, but on the practical level I am quite behind and I am questioning whether I am even on the right track I'd appreciate it if you could give me a better understanding of where I am and help me understand things from above. All I want is to live a good life in peace with myself with no resistance. I can feel happy, sad, depressed, anxious, scared, embarrassed, shy. I can see nice colors in the sky, terrible looking tree, my messy room, the nice landscape, the magical place. I can hear all the sounds, whether they hurt or are a pleasant tune. I can think anything I want, whether it's anxious or some fantasy. Basically, I can experience anything - Just without this resistance. This will truly change my life I believe

How about vsauce? The reason I think he's a good fit is because he is a very scientific person and thinks very deeply not only in science but also about the brain function. Although he is scientific, I believe he is an open-minded person. He doesn't seem to hold on science like an ideology but rather as something that he is passionate about and likes to question. He asks lots of questions like you do. Consider it

@Shin By resistance I mean the overall resistances I have in me. With vision - not seeing things as they are and tend to see mind-created grayish spots to mask on reality. With sound - I tend to muff the sounds a bit to avoid it. With feeling - I tend to not notice the sensations of my body exactly and there is a big delay. With thoughts - I suppress them sometimes. Basically resistance is delaying me and masking reality. Behind in the basic self help - I mean that my practical skills (social skills, hobbies, relationships, leadership, life purpose, etc.) are quite behind most people I see.

As I say in the title, I am starting to feel more like a child, and I'm starting to get this "feel" for what it means to become more conscious. It's like my field of awareness of experience has become wider. But it's not as if I'm more serious and focused hardcore on everything, but more like, I am recognizing better what is already here, and it has a feeling of knowing. I am learning more about myself and have this feeling that I'm going in a certain direction, like to goodness or something, hard to explain... It's as if consciousness is a magical thing that its purpose is to pull you out and move you into goodness, but like the true goodness that is true for you and deep down you want it but never knew the actual way of getting it. So I am still on the very beginning of this journey, but the growth I'm starting to experience is keeping me going. While practicing self acceptance and mindfulness, I feel that I'm slowly slowly breaking my ego, and it feels uncomfortably scary yet very excited and happy at the same time. It's as if I'm becoming a normal fricking human being. I used to think all of this was just some joke. I would really hesitate trying to describe my issue (which was feeling fragmented/not in touch with reality, and not integrated, which made it hard for me to feel and love) and now I'm getting a feeling of just being a few years younger. It's like, I see almost most of the world is capable of loving and being in touch with the present moment, and I just got to their level with a strong knowing. It also helped me realize that what I want to pursue is being authentic. Anyways, as I'm starting to feel younger, some memories of being a child came up, and I am sure I remember that I was way more competitive as a child. Like I used to be very competitive, mindful and very curious about life (maybe that's why I'm so excited to come back to it). But then I am stuck with the paradox of how come I've been more competitive as a child then now? I mean, my ego as a child was less developed... Could it just have been a different level of an ego's development?

@universe umm.. because this means comparing myself and bringing up the past.. don't know

I don't think we have it lol

@universe @Matt23 Then what is an example of good competition? What is the inner state of being in that competitive state? I'll need an example