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Step 6 - Escape for a time. Head out to the countryside or less populated areas or get away from where you usually work or live to reset your energies. You will find that your mind feels clearer and quieter, emotions are steadier and you can reset to your natural balanced state of mind and will also physically feel better, too. Getting out in nature around natural, peaceful energies that are free from life's ups and downs, you can literally reset. (Moving out of the city in June or July.) Step 7 - Black tourmaline. This acts well as a psychic protector. It strengths and reinforces your own aurra to help anything bounce off of you like a forcefield. Keep it on or around you. It wards off and deflects negative emotions your way, sleep with it under your pillow if you get bad dreams. Step 8 - Houseplants. Even if you are still around the thoughts and feels of the people around you, plants are a natural influence. They help to cleanse the energies in your dwelling and you pick up on these energies and feel a more natural, balances vibration to reset at. Like a benchmark for feeling balanced and calm. Plants can help give you that guiding feeling subconsciousness of where calmness is. Step 9 - Grounding. The reason why we do this is to tune into more balanced, natural energies. We want to tune into the energies of the earth and sun this time. Strong, natural, energy which will overpower the energy we are picking up elsewhere. A visualization for this: Stand up and close your eyes and take a few minutes to meditate standing up and when you feel ready visualize roots growing out of your feet and going deep down into the ground, imagine those roots growing down right through your chakras and down deep into the ground and feel the energy of the Earth flowing up through your roots and into your body, cleansing and healing you. Now imagine great branches growing up from your arms, head and shoulders up into the sky. Nice and tall and imagine leaves sprouting and photosynthesizing the sun's energy. Imagine a beatiful, glowing sun. A nice warm sun, not too hot, on a sunny day - a lovely, comfortable temperature and imagine photosynthesizing that sun's energy. Let that energy come down into your body and meeting the energy of the Earth.

For the sign just down below: Like indoor trees growing without light, all plugged into a collective dream, they wish for clear skies and grass to put their roots in - victims of "the system". Dark energy. Yearning vibration; take to the mountains. Notes - Why might we want a new spirit guide? We might want to approach something in a new way or gain new skills or have guidance in a certain aspect of our life, because different guides have different specialities just as humans have different expertise. We appreciate the guides we have but we might be wanting to approach something new in our lives or make some changes, even if it is for healing - we might want to attract a guide for that - wouldn't a guide automatically step up? Sometimes yes and sometimes no. There are many aspects of our life, and it's usually those things we have a lot of focus on, a lot of will, emotion - we don't have a spirit guide for every aspect of our lives. Many of our guides help us with lots of things but we may make the decision that we really want to pursue something, to send our signal out to the appropriate guide to come along now. They may have been destined to come along, there may have been a "maybe", depending on our path in this lifetime, or we may or may not have chosen to follow a particular path - so the spirit guide may be aware of that, but perhaps we can move things along by sending a signal to this new potential guide in love and light to come and join us and help us on our path. This means I am close - ☝️I just wrote whatever, I don't really know what to say on Youtube comments tbh, I just wanted the screenshot for my journal/scrapbook. Guides can be quite specialized, so for example if I wanted to become a counselor, then I might request or send a signal to attract a guide that is really good at helping with that. If I decide that is my heart's desire and joy and what I want to do, maybe I want to get the process going and send out the signal for skills as well? For example in speaking, science, organizational skills, motherhood, ect - one guide can come and then go and another will appear in love and light. Your signals can be subconscious. Another reason to attract a guide is if we don't know our direction, for instance seeking our purpose, we might want to send out a signal that is waiting that knows what our potential could be but we are struggling to find it and by sending out that signal to them it brings them closer to us in order to help us to find our purpose. They can't step forward until you ask. So even if you do not know you can send out the signal to bring in that guide of a high vibration with the best intent, the greatest good to join you now to help you know what your direction is if that is their speciality - if that was your potential. This is proactive - getting help from the other side. Being proactive rather than being caught up in a stuckness, and then knowledge comes to us more easily because our guide is there to psychically and intuitively impart that to us and rising up through our subconscious mind for us to access via our unconscious mind and then we know what do to and we can utilize their guidance now rather than later. Approach more of these lessons we have come to learn in a positive way. All possibilities are known, all paths are known, and so a guide will be available - there are more spirits than humans and they are just jumping for this chance. Because all is known, there would be potentials there for us to fulfill whatever it is we want to do, fulfill our potential, learn new skills, ect - there would have been the probability for us to do these things, so there will be a guide out there somewhere it is just connecting with them and bringing them forward. So you might know what you need help with or you might not know. You might want help from the guide to help you find your way if you are confused: Step 1 - start looking into the thing you want to do and as you do this you will send out the signal to attract what you want. Step 2 - pick two or three things that symbolise this and place them around you ready for your meditation. If you don't know there is no need for the objects. Step 3 - meditate focusing on your breath, having the objects around you if you have them and do this for 10 minutes. Step 4 - set the intention to connect. Say something like, "I am connecting with the guide who can assist me at this stage in my life in love, light and understanding." It is beneficial for both parties, this union. Step 5 - wait for a sign. It might be a feeling, a light within the mind, a touch, words coming into your mind clairaudiently or a sense of knowing. Step 6 - pose a question to them, this challenges the being, you can say, "Will you assist me with the highest intent for the greatest good?" Step 7 - feel for the response, if it is a yes you can feel it with their positive energy. If it is a no then they would not have come along anyways and the challenge in the first place makes sure of their intent. Step 8 - thank then and open your eyes when ready so you can move forward with your guide's support now. You felt their energetic connection, make sure you pay attention to that so you know what they feel like next time you connect with them. Now you have brought them forward, they have accepted it, so there it is, a presence to help you move forward with whatever challenges you face and this will be easier with their guidance. Reminder: Go over what you have on Monday and make notes/rehash. Try to make a habit of this every few months to get an idea of where you are at in regards to your shadow work, and also so that you will know whether you are going in the right direction or spinning your wheels. This can help you stay on the right course pertaining to outside opinions as well. ?Time for a reset. ?️

I had hoped to write a lot more, but I have had brain fog for the past few days and lost what I had thought up - maybe tomorrow I could work on what the citizens would look like? I had an idea for something diverse like a coral reef, sleek, glows, communities, different "fish" schools, ect.

My grey area situation happened as follows, I share it just to explain that these things are often not that easy to prove all the time and that women face being told that their experience is not truthful far more often - even though if someone has been raped/abused it is not hard to be very earnest and clearly distressed - this makes being told you are dishonest even more confusing - So, I had a childhood friend who had a girlfriend that he got at 17, who was another close friend - and they both had never been with anyone, so they asked if it could be me because they trust me. It starts off well, but the girl gets uncomfortable so it makes me feel uncomfortable, too - I don't say "no", but turn away a lot, or leave, move his hand, ect - but he pesters me. I know he was abused as a child and wonder if he just doesn't get the hint because he seems so in his own reality - smart, though - but not socially gifted. Not awkward, either, he just didn't know he wasn't awkward for some reason... so I kind of just try to be polite and avoid it when we are around one another as much as possible. And think, "Okay... is this my dense friend... or...?" Another friend of mine was felt up by him and she confronted him and he lied about it, I stood up for him because he had not done it to me yet - so I didn't know, it just seemed more out of place that he would do it at the time. She was often attention seeking, and he was so mellow, I just assumed she was being dishonest because she would seek attention sexually in odd ways. But then he when started to do it to me, and subtly mentioned areas in his lack of morality, without a care or understanding as to why things were wrong, he would let that slip out and I took note. Because I did not say no, I didn't accuse him. But I noticed him trying to feel up my friend at a party one night. And then that friend who I did not believe told me he was trying to "sell me" at a different party... and he had created a situation for me when I was drunk that I would not have agreed to otherwise and that made me feel gross and predated on. I couldn't believe it. It didn't seem like something that a childhood friend would do. We knew each other very well, I lived with him for a short while in my teenage years when my crazy mom kicked me out for like the 10th time. But then, as I learned about his childhood (child sex trafficking of sisters) it made sense, and when a repressed memory came back up later on in my life that explained why I froze up when he did that instead of saying no - I point blank asked him if he knew that I had this feature that made me vulnerable and he said yes and that sealed it for me, so I spoke up - but no one believed me. Maybe it was my karma because I kept waiting, very stupidly, and because I did not want to accuse someone of something so severe. And I lost all of my childhood friends at a really bad time. Even though he had been doing this more than once, and everyone knew - it became like something unsaid and I broke that. And when those repressed memories came up, my family would not give me any information on it, so when one comes up now I just deal with it myself - they get shady about it, people don't care and tbh no person can fix the problem what happens at soul level just stays there. And when I told my ex, he got mad because I thought he would console me, but he thought it was some trick or something because he was paranoid about that kind of stuff, and then later on blamed me, told me to kill myself, ect. Any time I have ever spoken up about such things I get shut down. I think women not being believed is a bigger problem. I still think people can lie about that stuff, too, though. At this point I don't talk/think about it much. I remember an incident with an old friend where she did that, but she was going through a lot and was also like 15 years old at the time and was being put on a lot of drugs by her family. Those are some examples where a situation unfolds and it is not as cut and dry. Where there are signs, but you don't want to believe it right away, so you wait, even if your mind says that is a stupid idea. Every incident has to be looked at on a case by case basis. IMO, there should be signs if someone has been raped vs lying about it - the body will create psychological responses that are obvious when talking to the person - long stares, zoned out, flat, emotional, sometimes laughs a lot - maybe injured, ect - you would feel the injustice in the person when talking to them. If false rape accusations are a problem we need to address this because that comes back around on real victims. Because of people's phobia of this, I found myself not being taken seriously. I literally could not believe it. How could that happen? My family, my friends? I think there does need to be a bridge between fixing this - it hurts everyone. So what is the solution for dealing with an increase in false rape claims? I have no idea, other than people need to get really good at seeing these things accurately. So the solution would be to better train people to see the truth when these things get taken to court. And to sign consent forms to prevent ever having to do that. What else...? I don't know what to say about people who lie about it, how to stop that, or how to prevent rapists. Maybe better mental health care systems and resources for families so people grow up properly? That would kill two birds with one stone. The rapists and the liars.

In my experience, there is a lot of grey area with these things - with some all or nothing scenarios. I don't think it is very common for women to lie about rape, and that each situation needs to be looked at individually. If you have been falsely accused, that sucks, because that can ruin your life. The potential for the sort of damage it could cause would be immense, and it is not something to downplay. Maybe, as silly as it would be to have to do this - if you do not know them well, you could sign a consent form or something if it seems like it would be appropriate. That would keep you out of trouble.

"Karma is a bitch." When I see it, I am appreciative of it. It let me know that it could see an inner savagery in me - and I let it know that I could see this in me as well and that I didn't approve of it, that I wanted to integrate it. There is an inner animal that wishes to know the lay of the land and to move across it unhindered and knowing of everything that comes into its experience - and to move and to know and know and know - I feel like I want one thing, but when I see how perfect everything is altogether, nothing I want seems like it could create perfection in the way it should be and yet it is somehow. My spiritual intention is that if I could move across the board of interconnectivity without causing disruption to anything on a larger scale from ignorance, then I would - it would be a graceful dance - my intention is to "grow a backbone" as well, I am ruled by fear. My intention is that I am ready for shadow work, but not too much please - I don't want to damage the interconnectivity through my blindness - I request learning how to clear my energy and protection in the spiritual realms as well as this dimension. ♱A fundamental element of human nature is the need for creative work; for creative inquiry, for free creation without the arbitrary limiting effects of coercive institutions. ? ??♱???????????????????♱??

This makes me think of prima materia. Another experience, I had just gotten to the top of a peak awakening and felt like I could make a wish to end child abuse, I could see how everything was so connected. In this video - near the end. The blackness, the stars, the interweaving of good and evil. I worry it could be one of these: http://www.lawofonesociety.com/index.php/other-materials/higher-density-learning-4-5-6-7/who-are-the-orion-group#:~:text=The Orion group passes on,you would call technical information. Tried the song lyrics, got this: https://www.teemingbrain.com/2010/05/26/shadow-visitors-sleep-paralysis-and-discarnate-dark-ones/ Sounds about right. I see it in this animal - as an archetype, or something that has a lot of significance; representation of the noble father/ruler/guardian/partner - and it holds quite a few keys to opening up old trauma - I don't fully know what I would find. I feel as I write, I could almost remember but I am not going to for now. Or I will be given the realization that it is like a "spiritual heat", like a "soul heat" - that my soul is giving off signs of being ready for something, but I don't know what that is - only to go outside and see this a moment later - to go to the store and I won't tell anyone what I bought, it was an embarrassing, and totally accidental item. I see on the bus, "In case of emergency, pull the red handle" - "Key bank, use the red key" - go to visit family - look at where we are at, "Dogwood St." I had been thinking about homes in the spirit world. "Grow a backbone" comes to mind. Along with the exchange of energy - as well as a garden or forest I was wanting to make on an island. I feel like it is a mutual curation - so I was asking for things thinking that it was ultimately me doing so anyways - but I guess that there is more to it. You don't get to order fast food. Culture seems to be an obstacle. It is in a "daze" space, I suppose. And it sounds like just a bunch of coincidences, but it doesn't factor in this life/awareness that I keep seeing in the blackness. I feel compelled to figure out what it is - like I need to know, my soul needs to know what it is. Is it God? The Godfather? The Dogfather? What? I'll look at an old Lisa Frank "Memory Book" and it has two dolphin in the ocean with a ball and I sense - "Do you want to play?" Or I will look at it, and then look around the room and there is a reset, and I am "young", like how the brain takes in the world, and there is a slight bubble keeping me from fully being in there, and I can sense absolute fear and anguish and I feel other beings there and they say they took parts of my memory/soul away because I would not be able to function knowing what happened. My fear is that it will tell me something at an inconvenient time or harm my soul. Not a fan of the song even a little bit - but it looks like this inwardly. Or "feel-looks", I guess. You can see the eyes and stuff. It is like here, but energy is used just outright without the middleman. I worry that knowing these things means I found a stash of things that I shouldn't have. I wish I could get back to love and light, but it's not like ignoring it will make this energy go away - still gunna be there like ink-blood telling me stuff. And I've just found this - and for me, here it is. I see it. Taunting me. In the past, I tried painting over the face on my artwork, and this shows up - I stabbed it in the eye with an incense stick, I just wanted the energy to stop and a wayward glow sparked in the pupil for just a minute and it was alive... right before I covered it with a white layer of paint and played an anti-demonic chant from Youtube. I find things like this and I wonder if that is me - is that how I am seen? Is that how it is felt? This song gives me feelings that I ultimately don't want to address in how others would view it, if they ever would know. I look at my e-mail: "your time is running out" "tripping ants build mushroom shaped nests" - and each song lines up one after the other day after day - uploaded just in time for exactly what I am feeling - for things that are very particular to me. It sounds crazy, I hope it is. But if not, maybe ultimately accepting it would change it? I feel like maybe I need to rush through shadow work privately and try to ... do something. I think that sexual magick is very powerful, too. I think there is a key within it that could do something, what that is I don't know. Using a dark energy ball for manifesting work Notes: Using the black/dark energy ball: Dark matter/energy is the reason for 95 percent of the expansion of the universe, the power dark energy holds, it is extremely misunderstood. There is a lot of science involved in spellwork and manifestation. Helpful method: A lot of knowledge can be gained through invocations and evocations from the entities themselves. One can also learn a lot from demons, also known as ancient Gods, amazing people will come into your life, by accident, by synchronicity, and these people can teach you things that possibly you are too busy to even think of because you have your own blessings and gifts to bring to the table. Dark energy is very powerful, misunderstood and seen as bad but the truth is it isn't bad at all, it is really powerful in life energy. Great visual of "dark energy". I feel this. This feels right, too. ^ This is why a lot of people wear black for their protection, black is powerful, it is good for protection spells, like candles, tourmaline, ect, protects you from negative energy. When doing spell work a lot of people use divination. Tapping into the situation, getting a sense of what is going on and feeling the emotion before doing the spell work. When you do your spellwork, (you can do this on your dreamboard as well) - you will want to rub your hands/palms together in a circular pattern - try to be as comfortable as possible and try to not "hop" i.e. get too excited or think about too many things at once. When you are extremely relaxed and calm and you have your spellwork ready - using a hexing jar as a spell example, when you have what you need inside the jar, rub your hands, and feel into the friction, as you do this, bring your hands away and you are going to see a black, dark energy ball form between your hands - your hands will be warm from being rubbed against each other - you will feel the power of the dark energy ball between your hands and once you feel that this dark energy balls is big enough - you have to see greatness happen within the ball - once you fill the energy with your intentions and feelings/pain are in the ball and the pain/positive you want to send others - you are going to take the ball and put it into the jar. Visualize what you would like to happen to happen, but visualize it within the dark energy ball - once you place it in the jar you say your prayers and shut the jar closed. If you are using candle magic you can use this same method with candle magic as well. Visualize the energy ball spinning around and over the spell and everything that is going to come out of the spell, see it within the ball that is now on the spell. This is a powerful spell - be sure to use it only if you understand the full ramifications of cause and effect, as energy given is energy returned. My ego: (I don't want to work with dark energy!) No choice. The umbrella signifies spiritual protection. Feels. At least I have an umbrella. I think. I hope. I feel like I do, it is going in that direction. https://ammazulu.com/law_of_one_lesson_11.htm This link has a lot of valuable info - notes later. Talks about entity possession, and red and green rays.. I wonder if you can use both? What would something like this be classified under even? IDK... more tomorrow. Need to start a meditation habit asap.

You say, "The burger they forgot to put in the bag that you shared with your dad - it is still at the McDonalds waiting for you." We use Golden Arches because they're easy to remember and to see, especially for confused and lost souls. I remember something very similar to this in dreams where I know/feel that I am dead. I am always looking for someone that I know and can't find. I am walking in a daze down a darkening desert road and see this off in the distance and I go in and get something to eat. I remember how neon lights looked, they were very beautiful. I think there must be some sort of city of the dead. I bet it works with energy and consumption. Like, I bet that there are kiosks for pleasurable things like food, stuffed toys, things that you can imbue with love or that are very good - to keep you going when the sun goes down. I feel as though in another dimension this is how it works. Like a maze or something. I get caught by gluttony a lot. I remember stopping at kiosks that have Japanese stuffed animals, and I am being lead through an energy mall by my partner hand in hand - we are running away from something heavy chasing us because we broke some sort of rule. It is exhilarating and fun. I try to grab all of them and I can't carry them all - but they're so cute I want every one of them - so I am running away with all of them only to get caught by the energy that ends up being another aspect of my partner - I feel confused. I am raped by it, and I struggle, but once I give in I am given the knowledge of anything I could need to know right there - it looks like a clear, starry sky - face pressed into cold, but satisfying desert sand. "Be not afraid. Godfather. Outside cultural frame. Be humble to see. Will bleed through in certain areas, pay attention to this. Love the darkness. Never stop learning, always a monkey's paw in the mix - be sure to spot those. Addict, consumer, this is the energetic resonance of it. Be humble, we love humility." "To See clearly you need to give to get out of a consumer narrative, even if you don't feel well. Instead, fall back into yourself from outside of your cultural narrative and keep your mind open, clear. Nothing is set in stone, you could be royalty or a fool depending on how you approach us." Not a fan of this song, either. I don't like every key I get, I follow sometimes what looks like it has the most consciousness in it, or maybe just the lyrics are good or the art may not be my style but what is underneath is trying to break through. I view them as ingredients. <<Good.>> (lol) When I am shamaning, the ayami and the assistant spirits are possessing me; whether big or small, they penetrate me, as smoke or vapour would. When the ayami is within me, it is she who speaks through my mouth, and she does everything herself. Some sort of archetype of "the father"." Darkness is not evil, it is just sharp. Jutting. Existing within as a primal force. Many different ways to read something, most of the paradigms right under your nose. Important to keep in mind during divination. This stuff has a power to it I should do my best to be respectful of. Always a monkey's paw. You think you know and then it throws you for a loop.

Thank you... good boy! Good job! ??

I make contracts with spirits, but I wouldn't with a person. I think love should be free. People can get married if that helps them, but for me it would stress me out. You always need the element of the person being allowed to leave imo.

Ok... got some weed, got some coffee... now back to work. Walked home - graffiti on the side of a store of a ghost saying: "boo!", and then a large painting of a smiling yellow flower in a pot and just past that a sign that reads: "Look up gods watching you, and so is my camera." My intention - get back to that energy, it was really dishing out a lot of information - and try to get more from it to understand a bit better. Hey you... thing... show yourself again. I am clouded. "Accept death into your heart." That was fast. Help me kill off my ego. (Speaking to this thing.) "Emptiness..." (Here we go again... ) "The mentalist." "Accept death into your heart." Fix all neurosis. Don't know... "Me" centered. Imbalanced. Fearful and always looking for immortality. I want to be surrounded by beauty and instead I feel surrounded by ugliness. I know I have a chemical imbalance but I am afraid to lose my connection to God if I go on meds. Nothing matters. Been avoiding death again. Blood of the past. Your own story goes on underneath your delusions. What exactly is it? Coffee + weed = willpower = "magick" A lot of blood signs. Cheating fate with death. The right role of the dice and leaving human life behind if it catches me. Come to know it. Bargain with it. Bad mouthing. Roots of the mountain. Blood of the past. Return to a new land on a boat - floating on the water. Remembering it. This must be the realization of sin. I saw God in the clouds as well in the yellow light - "always with you" and also when I smoked a bowl, the flame that was moving around in the most blackened ash - it looked very real. Hyperreal from a presence that was mutually observing. I look up - at the tall black lamp in my living room, the one that was a purple goblet - it is off, but I feel like, "Look up gods watching you, and so is my camera." - I have gotten a lot of messages from this thing before. I can see death around me again, is what it is. When I do, I look at this for some reason - once it said I was a shaman, and once I disidentified with it and I went back into childhood and a memory came up and this has come with the same energy. I see it in the coyote skull that I own as well. I forget about 'right NOW' reality sometimes. Freaks me out. It is probably the cloud as well. I compulsively write to avoid these moments... can't deny it, it's God's Word. What should I do? Trauma release. Found this from previous song - "follow the emerald star" - had found God's light in Rusty's green eye. Starting up again, I see. This world is a skin over another reality. Go to turn off the light next to me - the same colour green. Who/what are you? Objectively built, it just comes in. This thing often tries to come in. It always says good things like, "If you build an altar with a routine this will help" and "I am the stars aligned" and "Simply doing things provides an exchange of energy, make something to maintain energy here, responsibility" and "Elements, earth, fire, air, ect", "You have a distortion; notice this", ect, Things of this nature. Maybe I should listen to it? Try and and see, it is never negative. This is an altar, too. Be mindful of offerings.

5 or 8, not sure but they both move in this direction. Pilgrimage = mountain roots - 4:44 (cultivate energy for the mountain) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tihar_(festival) RESET - I wish to bring the old Gods back into the modern world. For a reset on humanity from the roots up, to return to the wisdom of nature and of the Earth, to hear what we have forgotten, to feel connection, peace, unity, love and light.

Blood of the past - The comet is coming

Sultan + Shepard = Naama = National Arab American Medical Association = Lovely Meaning: Lovely or Gracious. Gender: Female.

@allislove Are you able to see the underlying energy coming from this initial post, that might have caused another person to dislike the tone, the implication? Look at how it is worded - you can see that it isn't really coming from a good place. This person set the tone initially, and can't tolerate getting back what they give. You happen to understand how energy works, follow your gut and read that post and see how you would feel if someone was trying to, essentially, instigate this sort of energy. They don't want to admit that this is a post made for that reason with that sentiment in mind. It is accusatory, dismissive, arrogant and downplays the experiences of other people here - many who work with siddhis. What if I made a post in the dating section with something like, "I don't believe a certain party should be doing this or that." That is the same message. He changed the name, indicating some level of self awareness that energy given is energy got. Good to know. Have a good night, I'm done here. @James123 Not always. There is often a circle when it comes to these things, you are all choosing not to be nuanced simply because you have a different belief system when it comes to spirituality. And once again, that is not okay. It is not right to start off with energy that brings this sort of conversation to the table, and then when you get the meal you ask for, to pretend like you didn't order it. You get it? I am working through difficult emotional aspects of this path right now, in fact, just tonight. This is not what people on their own path need to be seeing. But no one here bothered to ask, did they? They just assumed that my emotions do not have a purpose at all, or even where they stemmed from - but this person is allowed to act hurtful, to instigate, and then hide behind all of you. That's cheap. That is also dismissive, and another form of gaslighting. If this person had made a respectful post, then this would not be an issue, so why is it that the onus is solely on me when it takes two... or apparently a group, to tango? The only reason why you guys are backing this person up is because of a similar, closed belief system to other aspects of spirituality. This is all really messed up. Not cool. I'll be making sure to avoid you guys because you're dishonest in how you communicate - I really don't care for it. And you wanna know what? My experienced are grounded in direct experience. I sit with my own death. To see this is basically to have someone say that the very depths of what I am working on is a lie - when there is nothing more final than that... all siddhis come from the same place, the cultivation of energy from the edge of death, the same place that you guys work from just with a different outcome... jeez... do you guys understand this? At all? Has anyone read a book on this or attempted to develop one? It is legitimately having someone say "You are doing exactly what I suggest, but the outcome is something I don't agree with therefore it is wrong." When it isn't. You guys are just closed off to it. This is... really bad. Because I can feel the real reasons for why this is happening. And each person's actions, why they have taken the stance, and it is not as noble, or bold or anything. This is wrong. I am going to say it. This is wrong. And I can feel and know the underlying reason for each person who has gone against what I have said here, and where the underlying judgement comes from as well. So not only have my experiences been dismissed, but I know the reasons for it are not as straightforward as people claim. And if I say what it is, even though it is true, these people won't be honest. It will be on me. This is the problem that people with these abilities have. Is that we know what is going on underneath and people don't like that. @Someone here You passive aggressively tagged me and then deleted the post. ^ read this and move on. You are an instigator. The fact that you tagged me while I am silenced at the moment goes to show what you are made of underneath. @allislove Please be aware of this, that this person is instigating. Keep that in mind in the future. They deleted the post, but the intention was clear. This is in bad form. Really. @Javfly33 I had offered you advice earlier this year, perhaps in december in which you had a similar awakening experience due to how descriptive I was of it. You throw me under the bus? You remember the experience you had where you heard birds and became one with music after I instructed you in a thread on how to do it, the siddhi happened soon after. @Javfly33 Because I was getting too popular. I was being bothered (stalked, actually) offsite, and a bit onsite and thought the name change would stop it. After Leo mentioned it on a video I thought I would change it because I don't being seen. I waited a long time with that, with the stalking before changing it - just didn't want to deal with the people who were doing that anymore.

@Barbara You proved my point, thank you. I will leave, but I see what is going on here and it's not right. Don't ever triangulate me here again, I don't like that, and putting up a boundary against it is fine. I don't think it is okay for one party to treat a group of people rudely, and then for a person in that group not to have the ability to essentially explain the underlying reason for why this person made this post in the first place. This guy had, just a few months ago, been inquiring into wanting to have these experiences.

@Someone here I was right about you dude. Why do you spend so much time here trying to act like you know better than other people? That is the actual issue, not what you think is bullshit. Do you know this? Do you know that acting like this is harmful for other people here who are just trying to do their own thing? Are you going to do anything about it or keep it up? I wanna know. Since you felt the need to marginalize people such as myself, what are you going to do to improve your own style of communication here? Or are you going to gaslight me because I was accurate and that bothered you? p.s. - stop being full of shit.

@Barbara Same here. You're not cool. You are a triangulator. I will keep that in mind for the future that you have a quasi manipulative form of communication with others. You are not a good communicator and you are pretending to be. Don't do that. I don't like having aspects of my journey downplayed, with the amount of emotional work that it takes, to have people play games like this. That is not okay. I want you to know this.

@Someone here No, I am not. I am the person that has this happen to me and have to try to get folks to stop. I then do it in return. So once again, thank you for gaslighting and being a part of the problem that this forum has, which is trying to control how other people work on themselves. You don't like being called out on the truth of your actions, do you? You are arrogant. Fix it. Don't make it my problem, or the problem of people who do have these abilities, we have to deal with enough stigma. I rarely ever talk to people via PM, I never spam, never start convos via PM. I keep to myself here. Very much so. The times that I have done something that I view as wrong, I do my best to work on it, but generally, I have been the victim of this 75 percent of the time. @Barbara That is an assumption as well on your part, don't you think? To assume that what I wrote was because I was hiding from bullshit, instead of having another, possibly more nuanced issue with this. Do you know this person here? They have issues with controlling other people's experiences. I'm not kidding, this guy spends way too much time doing that. This is a habit of his. I have bothered and bullied here for working through such things, it's annoying to be seeing these sentiments everywhere. I see that he likes to do exactly what he can't handle. Coward.