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My ex was like... very much above average so I never tried with him... if I had, I wouldn't have any bowels left... haven't done it with a guy, but I like plugs with little tails on the end. It's not my "go to", but the filled sensation from using both types of toy is quite nice on occasion. I like the sensation of pain with pleasure, feels like stretching a leg or something.

Get your place cleaned and your room, or wherever you are at set up so that it looks fun and mystical! Excited to hear your trip report! Good luck!

There's a ledge/hill/retaining wall type of thing in the backyard - we are going to remove the grass this summer and plant all sorts of lovely things. Buy two salvia plants and care for them - then start taking shamanic journeys next year once they are big enough to take some leaves from them - I plan to do it the way that shamans of the Mazatec people's prefer, which is to quid the leaves, it provides a more comfortable trip; I'm not looking to blast out of the universe - just touch the edges so I know a bit more what's up. It's the only thing legal in my area that I want to try, and it won't mix with my medications in the wrong way. Finish this - when done it will include all of the wrongs society has inflicted upon itself - with a nam-shub - a memetic message to those who control this aspect of reality to try and change the negative outcomes that have been plaguing us. It serves as a dream catcher. We got two ducks to help clear the garden of bugs like slugs and snails. You can see the hill area behind them, which will be cleared out and new plants put in. Their water looks dirty, but it is cleaned out daily - ducks are just notorious poopers. Train my dog to walk on a leash/finish her vaccine apts. Smoke weed and work on my spiritual insights - try to improve upon them. That's it.

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These are some of the victims that were murdered, I couldn't find a picture of them all. Rest in peace.

@Someone here It can be addictive psychologically. I started using it when I was in my early 20's, and it didn't initially start off as addictive until I moved out of my parent's, moved into a condo and lost two friend groups - both had BPD - one had a history of pitting people against each other, and the other's boyfriend was "touchy feely"; and they split relationships apart and often take people with them when they do, so that was the end of that. I was stuck alone in a city without friends and a lot of free time, so I started smoking and noticed that I could think clearer - it clears up my ADD a bit - and that I could actually generate creative insight and as a creative person, this is important to me, and then I found God while on weed, so weed opened a door to the other side that I have a harder time getting to when sober - I guess you could say the addiction is really just trying to find my way back to God with the one neural map that I have. I have had sober awakenings, but not the same as when I experienced it while high on weed, just the plasticity of my mind opens up, my heart opens up, my anxiety goes away - it fixes everything. That's why it is addictive for me. @Someone here I will answer you better, but @Gregory1 aka @Michael Jackson has banned me, temp. (it was a fe-ni mod... nottobrightlol) Send me a note and I'll get back to you in a week. Much love, I'ma go work on art, y'all cats are lame-sauce.

My INFP, totally accurate stereotypes: I keep these ones in particular to remind me of my roots... and to remind me of how much I love fresh baked bread, mmmm. Here's my ENTP friend, a living stereotype: @thisintegrated - I thought you'd relate to it. He's a cool ENTP. @something_else He's cool, I like him. Sorry I would respond to you, but previously banned member Gregory1 aka Michael Jackson felt like hitting the report button and Natasha being a fe-ni user... isn't to... bright... on... catching those sorts of things. Don't blame her - ENFJ's are not very smart, are they.

@Someone here True story. I just remember being younger, and all that it took to learn about myself; about my own spirituality and place on this earth, and it is always evolving. What I mean is, that if someone is younger, I tend to try to "take care" more with my words because I view youth as important because they are the future, and in my experience, a lot of what happens in your youth sticks to you more than it does when you get older, but you're right each individual is unique. Do you feel your age or do you feel older than your years? I would try... a few different things if I were in your shoes. Better Now than never. Each experience has something to offer for sure. When I was young in my early 20's I tried every drug that I could get ahold of "just once", just to see what it was like and there was no addiction - aside from weed and sadly alcohol, but the heavy stuff, I never really enjoyed much. It was too frenetic, as I had mostly access to uppers - and I didn't like that energy jolt it gave me as it made me feel unhinged. If you have never tried weed before, I would do it in a setting that is best for you, get a playlist together and just really, really enjoy some quality music and let your emotions come to the surface, and to feel into your body, because on weed, the body feels nice, and inquire if you choose. Just my 2c, do what you feel is right for you.

@Someone here I'm 34, so anyone under 25 is like a "lil bro" to me. You may not be a kid-kid, but when it comes to certain things in life, I find that young 20's are still trying to figure themselves out, much like kids are - with identity, exposure, dating, etc. I wouldn't brag about weed or booze, they're annoying habits of which I love both. I tend to talk more about how hindering alcohol is, of which I have pretty much quit, but the weed is still a strong one for me due to it's ability to enhance creative thinking. Try it and see, you'll get a lot of insight from it, but less from the alcohol, although the alcohol might give you an understanding of how it feels to mostly be fear-free; that's where the pull is for me.

I'd try weed or something, it's safe and the high garners a lot of insight when used right. You've never tried alcohol? Sometimes I forget this place has a lot of young guys/kids. Weed, if it works for you, helps with anxiety or makes it worse - try a small hit, see how you feel after five minutes, then try another hit - go slow. Weed increases consciousness moreso than booze, so if you wanna try something new I would go for the weed.

I've reached out to Alien "me's" and I got the message from the higher self, I am you. Still don't really get it, though, and solipsism isn't my thing - I still feel like a bubble amongst other bubbles, but not as being the entire soup. I can feel other's bubbles around me - as their own ""Godheads"" - but they all feel like they are moving towards one centralized space. This was the message, I have clairaudience and can hear messages and consciousness and beings in music. This one happened back in 2018 when I was dancing in a very present state, I just moved with whatever felt right in my body and then this song came on and I could "hear" my higher self - but it felt very "alien".

I relate to it for sure. It gave me this idea... "Bubbles of infinity" - they look like little worlds in each one, just like yours.

Hufflesnuff. Representing "honey badger don't care" since 1988.

@Michael Jackson Nope, not drunk at all, you're just trying to blow up context in order to "win" because I said something that hit a nerve to you. You're an exaggerator. You did have a previous account here. So you lie and tell tall tales. You goad into arguments. Did you not call "all women pigs?" Or are we only looking at me in this instance? Because getting some report points on me, for getting annoyed with the "sheep talk" of this forum just... it really got to you, and you're just "doing the right thing?" Please. A lot of the people here are really dumb, they don't think for themselves. This is fact. Anyways, I have notes to write up and studying to do... because I like to you know, learn stuff. I'll block you, because you're like a hyper-active hamster on a wheel and I don't have the time for it. There's your space, laters.

I was curious to see what would come up with some of actualized's titles. Here is infinity of gods in death and love version.

@Michael Jackson You report people all the time for things. I don't. You've been banned from here before, why are you still here Gregory? Did I hit a nerve, when I called you impulsive? How are you supposed to get to God when you can't even handle a little bit of this before hitting the report button? You're a piece of work, I won't interact with you on here anymore. You're a "cry wolf". And someday you might need someone to step up, who's gunna when you waste that on a trivial spat? And didn't you troll someone's journal... not that long ago, when they asked you to stop? You were defending trolling at that point. You stand on whatever leg is best for you, not the community. You're not God realized at all.

They have new prompts - love, death and robots. Death Love Robots

I'm chubby, from the meds I take, but you know, I don't mind it one bit. What other people think of my body is not my problem. When I was thin, my face started to show some age, and the bit of weight on my cheeks makes me look 10 years younger. I'm 34 and people have thought I was anywhere from high school age to 24. I think her body looks just fine.

^ Made notes here, with songs and pictures - it might help if you're confused.

@Michael Jackson Weren't you banned from here for being an impulsive imp? Welcome back. Someone as impulsive as you without any questioning towards it isn't going to be refined in much of anything I am afraid...

This was the first awakening I ever had, was the existence of other souls, brimming in a soup. Most of you here are really... really dumb and can't just introspect... for whatever reason despite that being pointed out to you hundreds of times. I have no respect for that. It's not that hard. Don't take what this guy says at face value... let it all go; go within and find out your own facets of truth, if this guy's material bugs you, don't watch it. I noticed this when he came out with the solipsism video, suddenly the paradigm shifted to that, now this. Y'all are letting people shift you around too much.