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@Basman Yes, at least culturally 18 y olds are kids to me. For example, an 18 year olds and a 17 year olds bodies are virtually the same, yet the other is illegal and the other is legal. How would you feel like having sex with an 17 year old? Probably very wrong. Anyway, all this being said, maybe I’m going to a club for youngsters to pick up some 18 y olds this weekend, just to see how I feel about having sex with them nowadays, to have an honest assesment. Probably just seeing their faces, and I want out of the club. Especially 18 y old males look extra kid like.

I for one don’t think I’m attracted to an 18 year old’s body. Especially as their mind comes with their body. They are kids, and their bodies reflect that. Perhaps it is more so their mind that I am repulsed by, rather than their body.

New one. The writing (caption) this time is especially juicy. @WonderSeeker would probably enjoy it a lot, as we discussed the topic a while back. Please like and comment if you enjoy, as that helps push it into the algorithm! https://www.instagram.com/reel/DRaEPgcgpOe/?igsh=YmNiYWIzYmdyYjM2

Since I spent a lot of time writing an answer to a question from @BlessedLion , I decided to copy-paste the answer here as well. Original question: From: My answer: Thanks for asking. This will be a more in-depth answer, simply because I am very passionate about it + I am not fully 100% clear and articulate about it, so I will probably be analyzing somewhat as I write. Short version: I can't, at least yet, put it into a short sentence. But it is something to do with the combination of art, dance, beauty, film (including acting), story-telling, insights, deeper thoughts, philosophy, writing & speaking. ---- Long version with examples: I want to touch people deeply on an emotional level. Inspire them like nothing else. And get them to FEEL deeply & contemplate deep stuff about life. For now, I want to keep it relatively relatable for the mass, so that I can get traction & traffic - but later as I am financially well off, I will go hard into the deepest stuff (as well). The vision is such that I will be at my peak in like 20-30 years, perhaps even later. My dancing might not be as good then anymore but I believe my peak level dancing will be in my 40s, so in a bit over 10 years - so maybe in my 40s and 50s, I will be doing my best work, since dancing will be a huge part of it (as I see it now at least, because that's the unique thing about me that separates me from the rest. More on it later) Here are some examples to get an idea: https://www.instagram.com/p/CygMx_etst5/ For some reason, the music is out of sync when you listen with headphones on phone, but on computer it works fine. On phone, if you don't use headphones, it is better in sync. I hate adding the music on the Instagram app but I have no choice if I want to use copyrighted music. Notice how on Instagram I can use pretty much any song I want without being copyright struck (Instagram music library, which is pretty much Spotify). And I can also write in the caption somewhat in-depth. On YouTube, music usage is very limited (which is probably 50% of my art lol. Need to think more about how much it really is). Plus, writing on description box / comments just doesn't have the same feel as writing on Instagram post captions. Here are some other raw stuff I shot lately: Watch these cuz they will probably be taken down here soon (copyright music) These raw stuff (emotionally & no edits wise) don't have anything else but dancing and they're shot inside. Shooting outside is probably my main thing, that's where probably my best work will be shot (altho I can def see that there's a ton of beauty to be created inside where you have more control over the environment - just require more budget). One problem with shooting inside, especially in my living room lol, is the limited space. As a dancer, the space I have is way too little before I run out of the camera frame. But just to give an idea what my dancing and music choice alone can affect in this vision. Include the rest ''the combination of art, dance, beauty, film (including acting), story-telling, insights, deeper thoughts, philosophy, writing & speaking.'' - And I believe at my peak in a couple of decades, I can create something so hella beautiful, I can't even put it into words... -- Also, I wanted to share these cuz they were shot the other day so they are my most recent dances recorded. Listen to the music carefully, while watching me dance, otherwise you miss a lot of beauty. use headphones & watch full screen, ideally on a bigger screen than phone like laptop & 4k - my dancing style is very subtle and has a lot of details (I wish I had a couple proper moving videographes to catch all the details of my dance), unlike breakdance which is all about big, power moves: ''And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music - Friedrich Nietzsche'' Keep in mind that my dancing & art is a very different side of me that I have not shown on this forum at all really. (I'm glad you asked me the question so that I got the chance to show this side of me as well, which is where I feel most at home... With philosophy & art. My dancing is mostly freestyling / improvisation (more about it later). And it's definitely a bit rusty, since I haven't dance much the past years (more about it later) but I still think it's very good. I can't wait to get to my peak form and especially to my peak dancing abilities. The next one is RAW. Might require some attention span, depending on who watches, but if you want to see me RAW... it has a proper, slow build-up (like any good stories) - and isn't this Instagram straight to the crazy high energy hooky kinda thing. This next one I love so much simply because of the song being called Line of Sight (by Odesza). And look at that damn line of light / sight in my window! So much fucking meaning and beauty in that connection. Last one. This song always makes me emotional. Not that the other ones doesn't. This one has a softness in it. The first, third and fourth videos are music by Odesza. The second one is by a smaller artist called BleedingXHeart. --- As I become more successful, I will have more resources (money) to increase the production level, by a lot! CRAZILY A LOT! Some key points about dancing: My dancing is a style that I've developed my whole life. It is unique to me. The style is very subtle. It's not like breakdance where you have all these big, power moves. My dance is all about the details. It has a bigger picture to it of course but the details are what makes it. I mostly do freestyling. I find it most raw. That's how I can express the most raw emotions. I hate choreographies because after repeating the same ol moves a hundred times, it has completely sucked the emotion out of it. Heck, even repeating it 3 times gets dry. But I do often have like a structure / idea / outline in my freestyles. And definitely something / some message / some emotion that I want to express. Finally, dancing is extremely effortless for me. All these clips were taken in an 1 hour freestyling session. Meaning, I didn't spent any time preparing any choreos for it. And keep in mind, my dancing is rusty, since I've been busy experimenting with other stuff the past years (more below). And I am also nowhere near my peak dancing ability. Perhaps in 10 years. This is why I would say that this is my most unique strength. Or an unfair advantage if you may. It also doesn't hurt that I look beautiful The Instagram post that I shared first is definitely much closer to the vision than these raw dances. Since it has elements of the other parts as well like speaking, writing (both in the video but also in the caption), an insight that I'm sharing, somewhat deeper thoughts in the caption, editing, story etc... But it lacks for example film and acting, and it's very short.. This vision / life purpose is in a way fresh / new for me as I have been spending the past years exploring other stuff like coaching, public speaking, teaching, pure philosophy (too much influence by my past teachers like Osho, Owen Cook, Rupert Spira, Leo etc. & honestly just a lot of spiritual & self-help brainwashing But I've always been deep into this ''fresh'' vision of mine, as you can see in my dancing skills. I have always been into film and beauty as well. Ever since I was a teenager. I just took a break from all of it for the past 3 years to explore the above mentioned. Now I have been able to deconstruct (thanks Leo) so much spiritual & self-help brainwashing that I'm fully ready to get back into it. Feels like I am finally going back home. For example, I used to think that my emotional side was wrong because of spiritual brainwashing. So much beauty and depth was taken away because of it, especially as I am a very emotional being. I used to think that my ambitious side is wrong because desire is suffering!! I didn't even realize how creative I truly am until recently because of all that. Sorry about all the neglecting... my life purpose. My heart is with you fully this time! Don't get me wrong tho, I have learned a ton of wisdom and grown (to a level I would have never been able to without the teachings) from all of the teachings, that I'm going to be using in my vision and life purpose. The issue was that I took the traps of the teachings to my heart as well. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to write all these and share it with ya'll. I have wanted to but I haven't been sure where - also just haven't been this clear about the vision as well. Honestly, I kinda want to copy-paste this and make a whole new post sharing it somewhere so as many people sees, but I don't know if I can really do it anywhere. Perhaps in the Life Purpose sub-forum. Maybe as an Inspiration (excuse ) for others. But actually, it kinda can be very inspiring! --- --- --- I'll be updating ya'll in this post as I get more material & thoughts! I guess I'll turn this into my Life Purpose Journal!

@Natasha Tori Maru Butoh dancing looks very interesting, thank you for sharing. I can see how my dancing style can incorporate Butoh! And oh, I know the feeling of ”loving to dance” way too well haha. I think I healed a lot of my traumas via my dancing. I’m sure I even were able to embody and integrate a lot of my masculinity, and especially femininity via dancing. It’s hard to say at this point how much dancing helped me in these areas and in healing & self-help in general, as I’ve always danced. Are you still practicing Butoh dancing, or are you doing / also practicing something else?

Honestly, the past 5 years of my life, especially the past 3, could be titled: Shredding Of Spiritual Fantasy. And really, it has cultivated into the recent 6-12 months, where I've had to properly accept how bad it truly is. It's so bad I don't even want to write about it. I've lost most of my human motivations.

Of course not, we are all different. Some people can be completely happy with a simple 9-5 life. For me tho, one of my highest priorities is to break free from wage slavery in the next 5-10 years. Having complete freedom and autonomy to work on my purpose is one of the most important things for me.

If you want to be a leader at that scale, then yes you need to be ruthless. You don’t get that huge by being a conscious and a loving leader. It’s survival on steroids up there. That being said, Obama was a more empathetic leader. And the good thing is, no one really needs to be a leader at that scale to be a ’world class’. It just depends on how you define it. Sadhguru to me is a world class leader. But so is Leo with his tiny following base.

Reminds me of myself. In the past year or so, I’ve started to shred tears more often. Whether it is something integrous that I am experiencing, or sadness & hopelessness, or beauty and the magic of reality. I always thought I was quite in touch with my femininity but I feel like once I turned 30, I unlocked a completely new level of femininity (just fully realized this now as I’m writing) I broke off from my long-term relationship that was misaligned despite loving each other dearly, and that freed up so much time and energy for me to just be with me, and get more in touch with my femininity (find deeper alignment in myself). In the past 5 years, I’ve grown so damn much and had to face, accept, and let go so many damn painful lessons and harsh truths that I feel like it’s finally catching up integrating and reaching into my being. Of course the breaking up makes me tear up due to sadness, but lately I find myself tearing up almost daily from also seeing integrity, hearing beautiful music, touching the depth of life etc. It is to the point where my whole dancing style has transformed from aggressive hip hop to a soft, graceful, yet powerful style - it is a completely unique style that I am gonna develop further. I have yet to give it a name but something along the lines of ’Majestic Dancing’.

Bruh I’m eating

You are twisting my words brother. I said masculinity is attractive but femininity connects.

He has said that for 10 years. It’s a marketing technique to create scarcity.

Until the point you are too horny. Then you look like a dog fucking a tree

You make a good point. Also, in many ways melancholic and even sad music uplifts you because it gets you in touch with the harder sides of you, the sides you usually repress and run away from. So by getting more in touch with them, already you feel better and uplift.

Where I do my contemplations:

Let’s try to respect Emerald and keep this thread more in topic.

Leo’s taste in music is fairly similar to mine. I’d say I prefer a bit more emotional ones. Here is an example of a more sad and melancholic that I’m currently vibing with. Beautiful piece, and such low views. That’s a sign!

For many of us, this is the only safe place for us to be fully ourselves. Or at least close. In my day-to-day, I am and show like 5-10% of who I really am deep down. Probably less. Here I pretty much show everything. At least 90%. You have no idea how that ability makes me feel as an extrovert. I deeply crave socialization and connection with people at the core level, but shallow fake inauthentic BS small-talks leaves me utterly empty. Being shallow and having fake social face all day, and holding my truest self and depth in - then having a place like this to let it all out. Can you imagine? I could go on much more, but you seem invested in the notion that we should not take this place too seriously! Seriously!

Literally what I said. Women desire to follow, the right man, who is worthy of following, aka someone who is mentally strong and confident, and can lead.

Realistically, how many girls are really into murderers? Probably a very tiny percentage. Most girls are afraid of and repulsed by them - because they lack femininity completely. They are all macho masculinity, aka toxic masculinity. And this proves everything we have discussed here on this thread.

What you guys don’t realize is that while girls can get guys and partners much easier, most of the guys are repulsive. I am like a girl in the sense that having people attracted to me and wanting to be with me is fairly easy. But majority of them are repulsive and don’t excite me. Top with it the fact that I am relatively pretty developed psychologically and spiritually, and now even the more attractive girls easily turn me off mentally. Being aware of their unconsciousness and childhisness makes me feel like hanging out with most of them like a complete waste of energy and time, and leaves me feeling shallow and empty afterwards. It’s like having millions and spending it on alcohol and partying with unconscious egos. What are you left feeling afterwards, when all settles down? Talk about humble brag. My God, I sound like a narcissist. Perhaps I am So guys or girls, you need to develop yourself to becoming truly desiresble, ar a core level - and not just someone others use to feed their ego.

Yup. I’ve seen some of the lowest scum and not good looking guys date the hottest girls, just because they were very delusionally confident and assure of themselves, had social skills & charisma. On the other hand, I’ve seen really amazing guys on paper, but struggle to date. Girls are like children. You gotta lead them with confidence & frame. They desire to follow, but you gotta provide that. Being in victimhood and defeatist mindset is the opposite to all of that.

I didn’t mean literally. I meant that you come across very gay, which is a turn off.

Acting like a girl by definition means you don’t want to fuck her immediately off the bat.

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