True Friend

When I was 17, I started smoking a lot of weed, I was a a real shithead, it gave me panic attacks, but at least I felt cool. Then when I was 19, 20, my new exposed underlying anxiety disorder really took a dark turn, I couldn't go in public without it feeling like I was dying, and of course hypochondriac, and paranoid, I used to think I had cancer, or if I ever had sex, an STD, I used to think I had a huge range of personality disorders, brain damage... anything really,,at one point I thought my roommate was trying to gas my room because I was having difficulty breathing due to anxiety. I dunno why I was so delusional before. I still am, but my psychology changed, I've matured, I've come to not immediately accept my thoughts as being true, and remembering all times I was wrong I'm 25 now. Not 100 percent free from hypochondriac thoughts, but miles better. Therapy helped, YouTube helped, Leo helped.

Clothes aren't really gonna get you laid, neither is having big muscles. I've seen dudes with impeccable style and muscles fail miserably with women, when I, rather slim and dresses "incorrectly" still get women chasing me.

Smoking is bad for you. Exercise (I find running to be the best for nerves), eat healthy, get enough sun light, literally practice lowering your heart rate/deep breathing I've been able to achieve a resting heart rate of 70BPM, but I can do better

I'm skeptical of MBTI, supposedly I am an INTP, but idk I feel like I dont quite fit in any of the personalities... I know its based on cognitive functions, but what exactly is extroversion/introversion? I feel like I dont really fit in either category

I rarely cry, and when I do its triggered by music, cinema, YouTube... nothing in my own life is worth crying about though, I was taught very early on in life that my own sufferings often pale in comparison to others. Tears of happiness are something I've never experienced before either.