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Just try at least once and be very aware of the sensations. How can I describe how Fanta tastes, take sip instead. I’m sure there are free trials available here and there ?

@Thought Art They are having trouble with measuring the effect?

Or is it the arrogance that causes morals?

It’s very powerful, totally recommend it. Compared to Thought Art I’m a beginner but still. Best part was that I could prove the effect of it right away.

Some observations... I realized that there are less and less difficult people in my life. Transformation has lasted for years but lately there are pretty much none. I’m trying to understand what these very clear brief moments mean when I seem to exit the automatic mode and become very present, very aware. I need to teach myself to extend them. Seems to be easiest in nature, in the shower. Is it being aware of awareness? A hand is an interesting thing to look at. Im feeling connected with some people I don’t really know. Two in this forum, one at work(with him no language to communicate with, but still). During last weeks members of the forum ask my questions. Before I can formulate them. My life is almost too good. I used to get euphoric on a motorcycle, now a home , a bed , a meal can make me cry, it’s just so awesome. At the same time I’m aware that if those things are taken away from me I would snap out of this. Let’s not kid ourselves. That guy who sat himself in fire and just sat there. No ego, no survival mode. How does it feel?

Never had a journal before. Should be fun . Reality keeps things interesting. After hundreds of hours of different great thinkers, contemplating and other useful stuff I find myself in a new situation. New meaning I can’t trust my thoughts anymore. Realized not long time ago that I’m not my thoughts. While it’s not news for many , it’s hard for me because they were my favorite place to be. They seemed to be the perfect tool to slice and dice the reality. Just more Watts, more Krishnamurti, philosophy, Spira, Leo ... In a way very useful, in a way distraction. Traditional walk in the forest today, with snow and sun. Letting the thoughts run free, noticed that they were going in circles around one post in the forum. Subject, female vs male sexuality. I’m realizing, he’s trying to draw a map of female sexuality, to understand, to predict etc. what to expect, how to act etc when the interaction with the opposite sex happens. At least it seemed so. That observation led to my own map drawing process. General map of reality, my great masterpiece, the collection of theories, assumptions, observations , seemingly irrefutable facts. And I’m standing in knee-deep snow , it hits me. Why did I ever assume that the human mind is capable to explain reality? To put it in words...Does it have to have a reason? Just questions.. I’m like a person who’s been sitting behind a table, wearing plus 4 glasses, drawing an object that is running around in the room. I’m so concentrated that I don’t know that something has moved the paper constantly. Was it my left hand? It’s just useless lines on paper. Did I put those glasses on? Am I losing it? Losing what? It should be known if we are talking about losing. Wtf? Laughing blended with crying... Huge relief, I look at the trees, the sky and I’m not totally sure if I really know what I’m looking at... I’m Ok with not knowing, Why did I put this pressure on myself? This constant explaining.. Am I really looking ? Is me looking a thought or activity? More thoughts, too many thoughts. Does this constant storytelling mean that all the mind is, is thoughts and models? So every time I think, I’m in “mind-mode”.. The trees seem to be there even if they are not named... Beautiful sight.

@flume Yeah, to be honest, I don’t know where this train is going?

@intotheblack I don’t really understand how foot fetish for example can start from childhood wound? Do You have an explanation to that? Thanks!

@GreenWoods I see, thank you for the explanation ? I thought that once you “get it” you can put the signposts down. That the worshiping part seems unnecessary.

Kind of unrelated but what’s up with all the statues and pictures? Some have altars... If you understand that there’s only IT /you it kind of loses the point... What am I missing?

Assumption is the mother of all fuck ups! I think it was in a movie..

I began with the inner work...now I can wear sweatpants and mismatched socks and still get the woman I’m interested in pretty much every time. Then again I’m sapiosexual witch solves usually the gift wrap issue? I would totally suck at pick up.

Wrapping paper is often misleading...

@RendHeaven He’s after volume , not quality?

hmm we are trying to identify what training our mind is exposed to when learning a skill. There is good training and bad training, we need to be aware of what we are exposing our selves to. In the case of language learning, we are training the ability to memorize symbols and repeat them. That's the core repetitive action taken. That's what we are communicating to our mind system. I can’t see it that way but interesting explanation, thanks?

@integral Who ranks the value of learning a thing? Is it the person who’s learning or is it someone else’s ranking system? In case it’s someone else’s, who’s is the “best”? Why? The chess part was a joke, I also play?

@Tim R Yes, for me it started in nature, totally alone. More and more often it comes over. Lately even at work. With really strong emotions and warmth... ❤️

@integral Must be all that chess that made You so stiff, can’t be the music? Who’s to decide, what’s valuable to learn? Can it vary between different people?

Estonian, Finnish, Swedish, English and some Russian. Languages are cool?

@universe Very well put!! ❤️

Too funny, I wanted to ask the same question...

@VeganAwake Some years ago somebody broke my car’s locks , tried to drive away with it, couldn’t, took some stuff and left. I still remember how I sat there and realized that it didn’t happen to me, it just happened. I laughed couple of minutes . Very liberating. Every lousy situation that I have had since then goes thru same process in mind.

It could be Your world. What is necessary to catch a self-actualizing, “deep” woman for a meaningful relationship, with shared development etc?? I’m assuming that You are shooting for that, correct me if I’m wrong. What is really important??

@Javfly33 What if You are just genuinely pleasant person to be with? Good listener with sense of humor, kind etc. Your “aura/presence “ will draw all kinds of persons towards You, they can’t help it. Then You choose...

Ok, I did. You basically answer it with Your question. We don’t know. Can be joking , can be daddy issues, who knows ? What is Ok/normal? To whom? etc?