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Thanks for responding I appreciate it.... but we see life completely differently.... I'm not interested in money our business at all. The only thing that would interest me is to lead my students toward a vision, (I'm a school teacher), but I know very well that my students are a reflection of my own energy. It has become completely clear to me that everything there is in my life it's just symbolic and a reflection that mirrors my energy and emotions. That's why I asked you what do you think that you would had manifest if you would had stayed and this mental state of million of IQ or whatever was that that you felt.

Even if I am conscious enough to understand that I invented Buddha and everything else I still can't invent consciously, it happens automatically, I want to practise doing it, inventing I mean, more consciously What I wanted to ask you @Leo Gura is what do you think you would hat invent if you would had stayed in this state where your IQ was 1500?

Yes, that's what I do imaginary which I think is true- imaginary which I believe it's not true (Like love stories with a happy ending, it only happens in the movies *sigh*)

true story

I remember I had a break down when I first realised it, 3 years ago. I even called my mom and started crying cause I felt so disappointed that she in not actually my mom in the sense I thought she was. I thought I wouldn't know how I would go on with my life anymore. I thought that my life would come upside down. But actually no.... nothing changed apart from me taking responsibility for everything that happens in my life.

There is no truth, only fantasy...

All health problems are inaccurate perception. The problem is that changing your perception is almost impossible. It can be done in some extend but you would hack life and then what? Maybe we are not supposed to hack life..... because we don't want to hack life. we are here to have a human experience.

"The only person staning in you way is you. It's time to let her go..... Lose yourself" The black swan... It's about letting go.... "spiritualisme" reveals itself only when you let go.... suprise yourself Black Swan - You Bit Me - YouTube

Besides Sadhhguru said it...when he was talking about kundalini, that those kind of changes must happen gradually otherwise you are at risk of losing your mind... And I know what he means cause my first realisation.. that I'm not who I think I'm and the world is not what I think it is, it is was really sudden.. BOOM!!! In my face! It was such a sock that I thought I would never be able to act like a normal human again in life.... thank God... most of the time I manage to control it and play my role as human being. When I called my mom and start crying cause that's what hurt me the most... the realisation that she is not actually my mom... she thought I lost my fucking mind..... That was two years ago... but I haven't lost my mind I'm stronger than ever... And now when I'm talking to my mom about all those things... she is making fun of me and we are laughing together... Last time when I started again telling her that I know better and that she should believe me... (that if she wants to see any changes in her life she should completely change her self and the way she sees things)... she answered me... " I don't wanna believe you cause I'm afraid you will take me in space with you"... she was joking of course and we were laughing so much... (I'm still laughing right now). Other times she tells me "shut up with those shit, I'm not that kind of person.. keep it to yourself, I don't wanna know about it"

true story... even though it's harder as I thought to believe I can do it.. even If i know it's possible.. That's why I'm losing my mind here cause I know it's possible but I still can't do it.... and I'll alway remember this scene from spiderman where he is trying to web... how this fucking stupid things happens??!!! Maybe I will succeed it when I will be ready... It wouldn't have been nice to totaly lose my mind by fast radical changes anyway,,,

I don't know if clubs are the right places to find the right women... But of course if MrBon want just to get laid, not strings attached, then it's a completely different story and I don't have an advice cause I have a totally different mentallity. Im my opinion you should try to meet women doing things like climbing , sports, yoga and stuff like that... It will also be very beneficial you will be become healthly and happy

@Leo Gura I hate intenet I think it's a total waste of time... (talking to strangers and staying all day in my room, I've done that for so many years and it didn't bring much... it's a new age for me, I'm not gonna repeat the same mistakes) but God your honesty... is soooo fucking sexy You see Mr Bon... there are a variate of characteristics to supply yourself with to become more yummy

It's really not easy to express my self in english for topic like that... it would had been difficult in Greek too.. It's a symbol... and the half it's dark not of course because it's evil.... but some people may exprerience some thoughts they have as evil... some women may experience thier masculine site as evil and have guilts...

I know... there is no devil anyway.... I think masculine symbolises and represents the opposite of feminine... There is no bad or good.. that's what I'm trying to teach my self

You confuse me... on the one hand you say our body is imaginary on the other hand you talk about diet and yoga... @Striving for more Do yoga and eat more probiotics. It helps so much that it makes me feel that my body is God

yup... that looks exactly like me.... You can imagine my schock when I realised I was the devil... the fucking devil for God's shake!! Can i say fuck here? we are not only Gods we are also Devils... I always hated the devil.. and now I have to love him! The book of Herman Essen "Demian" that I read recently has helped me realise that if you love God you also have to love Devil too.. Am I off topic again? Try to see the biggest picture.. it's not that easy for me to express my self in english

I don't think I was born... but that's the last thing that concerns me... I need to organise my thoughts and see, with all the things that I know now, how I will deal with life from now on. My world came upside down,, for the right reason of course, but still, it's not easy to reorganise everything and rebuild everything from scratch... Well if it was really from scratch it would had been much easier, I have to get rid first off all my old beliefs and that's the hardest part.

Everything I want means that I have desires... I want this or that... a boyfriend or beautiful body or to learn the piano... Now, that I have matured, I try to have goals and be excited about them without being stressed and dissapointed that things didn't work out the way I wanted so far... Before I was stressed all the time and anxious to reach my goals... I was succeeding them but I wasn't happy, even If I was reaching my goals I was becoming more and more miserable and that's what pushed me to see things differently and change. I don't want to be off topic... so yeah me too I believe that the ultimate goal is to find your other half...and I also believe that it's hard to be really happy without that person...it's a rule I made for my self and I try to follow.. If you don't like that rulem for yourself, you can change it... I. personally, don't wanna change it... I'm not sure why, I guess it kinds of motivate me.. does this mean that it's my nature? No, cause I know now that I can change everything I believe... that's what enlightment is all about... being able to change the things you believe

I agree but you know what... for some reason I don't wanna say I'll be happy no matter what... I like that I have desires... it makes me feel human it makes me wanna fight to earn what I desire... otherwise what am I going to do all day? close my eyes and meditate?

It's such a turn off Leo... a deal breaker... I don't know if you experience it....I know I do and if this is truly the case... then.... at least I'll work hard to have a really funny life, with rainbows and roses that I love and the sound of the rain that I adore and people who are happy and even unicorns

That's exactly what I'm looking for lattely... Cause real weird stuff are happening... I wonder how I haven't lost my mind and I still continue to act like a normal human being...

We don't attract shit.. what is inside us finds a way out through hallucinations

I know what you mean... when I saw at his profil that he lives in LA... I was like..."eww" I don't know though, I may be wrong, I've never been there... it's that I have all those stereotypes that LA is a place where a lot of supperficial people live...of course this is pure ignorance... but still... we can't get rid of stereotypical ideas easily. Personally more spiritual I become, less stimilations I need... So i would had prefer a cabin in the woods

So actually MrBon if I understand correctly... you want to attract women who are attracted by tall guys... There are also women who are attracted by guys who have a lot of money.. Other women like fame, some want to have guys who are their servants... But there are also women who search for love.. trust me Personally I think that shared sense of humour is the key to a relationship... And all those years, till recently, I was complaining and accusing others that they were boring and not funny... well I realised that I was the problem, I was always in a bad mood, stressed and miserable and I couldn't find anything funny.... You should also see if the problem is you and not your height. Your height is irrelevant... yes women like tall men, like you like big breast and boobs and asses and models and pornstar... so what? (I'm sorry if I'm off topic... I'm new here plus.. I'm a foreighner, I don't even live in USA and I haven't read the whole thread)

I have a crush on Leo those days... I think he is sexy but not because of all the things you described... I don't even know the guy, I don't know if he is well dressed or how tall he is... all I see it's a head on my screen.... and some of the things he is talking about are vanilla...(I already know all that Leo... I need more!!!) But I find him sexy because of his facial expressions... Women don't get turned on exclusively by men's height