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a whole new generation of art & artists is coming our way. Thanks to modern resources, we are not doomed to repeat the mistakes of our ancestors. This is the time of blossoming creativity & the Spontaneous Erection of Divine Light

Forget about the concept of spiritual enlightenment & understanding GOD. That's a bunch of bullshit. Eat meat, go to sleep. Simple. In many ways they are even more Simple & pure thank monks. Bevause monks still have to survive. Plus the monks add meditation & mantras & a bunch of other shit. These dudes just stick to survival. Also, if you were enlightened, you wouldn't know it! Case in point!!

This is the same thing when I went to the East & so-called "underdeveloped 3rd world" countries, at least according to SD theory. Average dude seems WAYYYY more conscious than us Westerners. Just more in touch with their bodies. More alive. SImple. It radiates from their eyes & smiles. Talking about South Asia mostly. Enlightenment just means living. Those dudes are LIVING!

@Jannes lmao that is one way to look at it. My thought is that they seem much more conscious than I am and my Western counterparts.

Would listen to this song walking around the poignant and intense streets of Srinagar. Oh, what nostalgia!

This keeps happening, now that I am getting sober I am seeing how much I narrate and rehearse in my mind. I want to impress people, to be heard. It is so important to me. And it's making me mad And yet, when I finally wake up from my self-dialouge (it's like, OHHHH, AHA, I was TOTALLY lost for what might as well have been a whole lifetime of blabbering), I am disgusted with myself. Rather, disgust arises out of nothing... But this is self hating self — not getting anywhere.. Me being disgusted at myself is more of the same story — the story that disgusts me. Holy fuck, I'ma Vomit!

I'm fucking sick of this shit. Always speaking to myself in my head, ARGGHHHJA, it is annoying to say the damn LEAST!!! Fuck, man, I won't shut the FUCK UP! the narration & rehearsals Always role playing in my mind. Asking myself question as if I am someone else. Because everyone wants to hear WHAT I HAVE TO SAY! LISTEN UP FELLAS, BEST WORD IN TOWN FOUND HERE! Fuck, sickening, I tell you. In the shower. Asking my own damn self questions & sometimes even responding OUT LOUD!? AS IF TALKING 2 MYSELF IN ME HEAD WASNT ENOUGH?? I'm sure lots of you people can relate since people do this sort of thing. Because they want to be loved, approved, fondled, etc. But this is str8 fucked, mane. I don't wanna hear my own bullshit anymore. I feel ready to shut the fuck up.

Leo's book is gonna be fucking nuts, only have to wait 20 more years!

@Judy2 hola Judy, I relate to you, I also feel hopeless & helpless. I'm sorry to hear your support group won't help. I don't think anyone will. I think you are dealing with an issue beyond conventional resolution It is time indeed to fully Let Go & Let God!

I understand why you say Leo could be a demon or demon possessed, I really do. And maybe the "Leo" avatar is prone to self-deception & corruption just as much as you are. But let's not kid ourselves about the honesty & integrity of Leo's work. This channel / forum is a gem. And I'm grateful to Leo for giving us a platform to converge, a set of teachings to grow our lives in so many different ways, and playing such a pivotal role in my own development. Sure lots of people can relate. That being said, I hope you find that GRACE, bro. Buena suerte

@Breakingthewall Damn! I totally fell for it man! I was reading 1st paragraph thinking to myself "damn right preach brother." Guess ive been listening too much Ralston lol. Looks like it is possible to brainwash urself with the very best teachings. Just turn em into an ideology and bam, youre fucked Does this make Surrender & Abandonment the Ultimate Path? Or do we truly have Nothing to Hold Onto? What Say Ye?

When I say will help you understand psychology & politics better, is because observation = most powerful way to learn If you do practice I told you, you will learn all kinds of shit abt all kinds of things. WHAT you will be learning is irrelevant. You Shall See! Do it! Again, just observing and not being reactive. Just perceiving, not reacting. Simple. Don't get caught up in the psychology or politics. Then you will have the best understanding of the psychology & politics.

Trying to change someone else's mind is a big NO. Doesn't work.

Use it as meditation non-reactive practice. When they are talking shit, u train your mind to not be emotionally reactive & to remain indifferent. Will help you understand human psychology & politics & yourself better. Ultimate solution = move out

@Nilsi leopard Cohen is original g

Think reciprocality has some good insight here Part of this path is not judging people. That being said, lots of people are simply low conscious, and this is hard to debate, especially when you see the desperation & misery worn on their face as they scroll through their phone. Reminds me of zombie from movie or call of duty: zombies. I would say that EVERYONE is doing self-help. Everyone is helping themselves! It's just a matter of degree & quality & content. Not a lot of people are gonna be doing THIS PARTICULAR BRAND of self-help, which highlights mysticism as the core & foundation of "personal success." Most people are doing self-help by building themselves up. We are doing it by taking ourselves down. Obviously the former is more attractive. Who tf wants to delete themselves out of existence?

Happy for you. Top floor. Stairs = exercise. Adds up over time. Plus you might get a view.

Hey man, you gotta be like a ninja, like a sneaky motherfucker, you gotta play their game, that is, if you want to #1 solution here = drop your identity and don't get affected my insults bc you know who you are and NO ONE CAN TOUCH YOU! BUt, if you're looking for a more combative/defensive way to go about, say, "putting them in their place" (bc who tf are they to talk to you like that?), then I would suggest doing just that. This requires supreme audacity & creativity. Has to come from humor. If you are genuinely interested in hurting them back, best to walk away. But if it is coming from a place like, "who tf are you to disrespect me," then you coulf say sometjing like, "Well, at least I am not you!" Or "Yeah, man, that really means a lot to me. Most people are too busy with their own problems to point out mine!" Or, more snarky & aggressive, "Fuck you, who do you think you are?" "What would your mother think if she saw you being a dickhead in public and insulting other people?" Also, if you can fight, or at least are stronger than whoever is insulting you, you can get closer to them in proximity, that will assert your dominance. For example: Geezer: "Your skin is too pale, you fucking suck, man." You: Walks closer. Right up to their fkn face. "I am sorry, can you repeat that please, sir. I am TERRIBLY afraid that I didn't hear you!" And so on. Again, best advice is drop your identity anf don't play these games. Only a fucking fool would insult you. They are only insulting themselves.

@Carl-Richard yes, Carl-Richard, my bad for epically butchering your name lol It is malicious kind of addiction for sure. Gotta stop

@Hojo this is sick, man. How did you create it?

@RendHeaven Rhiocerous must be in your room right now otherwise what are we talking about? either that or you are not in a room...

Here is my contribution. 1st, if u are a weed smoker and reading this comment, FKN STOP DUDE!! If you are even CONSIDERING stopping, fkn STOP!! This goes for any addiction. Good rule of thumb is that if u are on da fence Abt whether or not to kick it, kick it. Can't hurt. At least you will see if you are addicted or not. CHances are, you are, and the withdrawal symptoms will reveal this to you, not in a subtle way. I am now 1 day sober. THIS IS THE FUCKTEENTH TIME I HAVE QUIT GODDAMNIT! Every couple other days, when my top shelf Cali dispensary 8th runs out, I quit. Then I buy another 8th. Has been going on for a year. Before that, was unabashedly smoking Hashish everyday. No attempt at stopping. Is fucked, man. I am scared of everything. Just jerk off all day. Jerk off. Assassin's Creed. Listen to OSHO talk abt God. Rinse/repeat. Terrible fkn lifestyle man. Fuck that. Fuck weed. Fuck being slave to substance. I have abused weed more than I have abused my phone. And I have abused my phone quite literally. I really hope to God and Jesus to become free of my addiction. I don't like it very much. I keep sabotaging my damn self. Over and over again. Keep telling myself I'm gonna quit. Lately, longest I made was 2 weeks. Then bought more weed and re-entered cycle of debauchery. It is dangerous. Carl-Vinson said it is more sinister than nicotine or coffee, both of which I am also addicted to. He is right.

Hey man, that fkn sucks, I also am in the dumps. I am dealing with perpetual heartbreak, infinite libido, and NO WAY OUT! I have no money, no friends. Hella earwax stuck in my left lobe. The shit is like CAKED on there, man. Think it was from my earbuds. I feel like a social retard also. I cannot make genuine connections with people. I feel like I am always manipulating them. Even if I am honest about me being manipulative, it is more manipulation. This has me stuck feeling like monster. What is more, mother is going through emotional crisis out of which I cannot help her. Father is dealing with a longe-term anger disease, now some 20 years & counting. Sister is fat and won't slim down. Weight watchers seemed to have made her fatter. Grandpa battling cancer of the nuts. And those are the only 4 ppl in my life. So how do I deal with all this? Man, I don't. Try not to be thinking about all that BOOOOlshitterooni, man. Will make you sick. Might even vomit. Whatever my problem is, whenever I write it out, helps me be conscious that it is projection I am doing in Real Time, which means I can stop. Try this method out. Be ruthlessly honest as you write. No one else gonna read it, so why not? Spell out your problems. Even if it makes you sound like a chimp. Then, you might just reach the realization, if even for a SPLIT second, that your problems be fake, dude. Scam! Just like those shady dudes in Pahar Ganj.

Hojo gives insight. You ask how to balance this and that, it reminds me of going back to square one: defensey mechanisimo. It is suspected that your mind will prepare elaborate story of variables and other people so that you can UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH! You ask, "I wonder how different I would be at the opposite end of this pole?" You already are! You mentioned having the ability to fine-tune and suit/tailor your personality to whichever one you are with. That just goes to show that you are a shape shifter at core. You do not belong anywhere, as you have suspected. So take that feeling and ride it like wave. Jump on Rumi's Caravan of Love. Sacrifice everything you know. In a place close to home, floating in the ethereal mist of the immediately obvious, is the possibility of gaining immortality, instantaneous teleportation, and Jesus Christ being just as worthy of worship as Donald Trump, Satan, or another celebrity. At the end of the day, night comes. But what is missed is most essential. That is the spontaneous erection of divine light, Muhammad's Fable of wisdom, and Abraham's Ejaculation of knowledge

I agree what @theleelajoker said. Focus in on the resistance that is left within you, use it as springboard to dive into deepest aspect of yourself.