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I haven't cried since I stubbed my toe back in the binkie days. You know, toddler shit? I can't even remember the last time I actually cried! Well, that ain't true, I cried when my girlfriend threatened to break up with me to my face, but that wasn't genuine, not by any means. Was just looking for some goddamn sympathy. Or at least a way to keep her around. Can't be left alone with my thoughts now, can I? Fuck it. My question is if it is normal/healthy/okay by your standard that I haven't cried in..... years! What's wrong with me? Should I post this on the health sub? Do I need to watch another horror story or film or telenovela? Was watching one of Leo's blog posts from a few years ago, at the end he was crying, looked real, was kinda cute. I thought, why don't I ever cry? Now, I was watching a sad video, some old man who was a hostage in Gaza for 500 days & was released just to hear his mother & daughter were murdered back on the 7th. That's a big "FUCK!" moment So ya I listen 2 podcast & very difficult. Man was going thru some shit, could hear it in his voice. As he recounted the perspectival horrors of suffering in the dark tunnels underneath Gaza, it struck me that this is some fucked up shit, that I am fortunate California suburb boy, got a bag of chips with me here, blahblahablah, so ya, I almost shed a tear. but then I just laughed like insensitive animal, wtf is wrong with me, folks? I hear spiritual folk talking about crying in the river of love because God is so beautiful, and Leo is doing it too. It must be some natural response to seeing beauty, or something, I figure, surely, right? Crying? Wtf is up with me? Or maybe I don't have to cry? Is my experience not deep enough? That is the main question I am trying to answer in earnest today. thank you for reading to the end. And extra props for taking me seriously. Bless Up

It is neither both the yes-no-either-or conundrum nor anything else but LOVE, indeed. Love holds the winning card.

That's right, my plugs are all lost or locked up. I ain't got a source at the moment. Living in scarcity.

Damm, Aaron! Took you twenty f***ngg years!? Is there any hope for spiritual pipsqueeks like me who's naggering for a slice of God?

Couldn't have said it better myself!

Obviously Christianity is fake but why bother about the delusion of other people?... which is the only place that icky religion can exist when you firmly establish yourself as outside of it? That is like critiquing the manner in which the homeless people on the side of the street dwell in the poverty of God! Or getting angry at the imaginary heads of the corruption and devious ways of the people that lie and butcher God as if it were a pizzapi3.

It seems like you're asking a question that is grounded on the presumably uncognized assumption that psychedelics have something to offer that is not immanent.

God Bless You, even when you're not sneezing

May I ask what your goal is in achieving the highly esteemed and utterly magnanimous Lotus Position, Brother?

1. Lots of stretching 2. Try it out for yourself 3. 1st try (Though it stings like a BITCH) All the best to you on this incredible journey of being and becoming, my magnanimous brother 👐🤲👈🤏👆

That is only because you want to befriend them. How would you feel if you were the last man standing, just you and the animals, all humans gone forever so that you are free and trapped to roam in eternity with only your own voice speaking back to you

I don't know what you're talking about bro, just that it's funny, in other words, like ahahahah, You said "type of dealio" as if maharaja samadhi is just "some kind of thing." Its no big deal, man. Just keep it pushing! Lol! No sweat! Until you're dripping HEAD TO FUCKING TOE! 😰

Its funny how you refer to the great rapturous opening of God as sahaja samadhi "type of dealio"

if you ask me, they are the same, but if you ask the dictionary, there is no answer, because the dictionary is inanimate.

Experience is what is, but for most people it devolves into another word in the dictionary.

Then after, hold foot in same side hand and bring to ear on opposite side. Again, do as much you can. Slow & easy habibi. Life Lotus is a journey, not a race

Just do butterfly and push your knees down and bring feet closer to anus and head down to cock for the best stretch. Do what you can. Slowly flexibility gets (you guessed it) more flexible

Not "any fool." It is one who has the power to create sentences. This is one who can move in synchronization with the beginning of what is coming to be. That is not understandable in the contortionist dystopia of tell tale signs that what you are becoming is, after all, just waiting to be born. I hope we meet someday in person so that we may perform the final, nondual duel of mahasamadi execution upon one another, that's like when you have noodle with girlfriend, both end of noodle in yo lips, and slurpy slurp, her lips approach yours and she spits a lougie down your pie hole. You didn't think that was going there, did you? Welcome to twisted adventures down mystery lane.

I am yet to read a single comment on this thread. That is because I haven't watched the video. I plan to engorge myself in the enlightening bullshit yall are on about after I watch the video. I wanna talk about WHY I'm not watching the video. I have been postponing this moment. It's because Im quite scared. Also, I'm lazy -- but that's an excuse, not the truth. Truth is I'm scared. I don't want to listen to Leo tell me what I don't want to hear. Why the fuck would I? I know damn well already what Leo is gonna rail on about in this video... perhaps even better than those of you out there who have watched it through with a notepad. This is literally going to the gas chambers. Man. Leo gonna shit on my personhood, on God. It doesn't feel good when someone says, yo, you want to climb a mountain, take an avalanche, sucker! People's words speak STUFF INTO EXISTENCE... AND HENCE! Anyways, getting off track real fast, I forgot to mention the purpose of this post, nevermind — I never knew it to begin. Still, I don't feel like I'm learning from Leo's videos anymore. At first, I thought I understood, years ago. Then I watched his videos again and again, and realized how little I actually knew. Nowadays, revisiting classics like "What is Authority" makes me feel nothing. I know that Im not learning anything. Im just looking at a representation of my greatest fear. I don't want to go THERE! IT'S DARK AND SCARY! But this Forum, RIGHT HERE, is cool. Love you guys. This is, indeed, the place to be.

Everyone, don't freak out, he's just practicing his humor muscle (tho I think it's fully flexed)

@Someone here In that case, my top advice for you would be to try this 21st-century rendition of the twelve step program with my own added twist fitted for seamless application. Believe in yourself Don't follow rules Don't have a backbone Be in the driver's seat, but not drunk Have a life, man Be headless, get some head And behead the witchdoctor, your wife Remember that chicken and eggs don't always taste good together, similar to a refried break pakoda All in all, peace and joy, also sadness In the end, cigarettes are not your problem

@Someone here sab tik bro, just make the transition to rolling your cigarettes instead

Maybe Im just like a spartan warrior, lol. Ain't no chance in Sparta you would catch King Leonidas sobbing up a storm, but hey, maybe he did it behind closed doors, lol. Maybe Leonidas was a bitchboy crybaby lol.

@Ropuch7 asalam aleikum Ropuch bro!! Hope your day is splendid and filled with NEARLY incapturable mysteries.... I have done exactly what you did (well, not exactly, but what the fuck!), & I especially resonate with feeling free & vulnerable with the chat bot since he can't disparage or berate me (at least not with audible laughter). The chatbot often barfs out some word salad that confirms my intuition or changes my perspective entirely, sometimes profoundly. Those moments can be emotional indeed, but they still lack the component of physically liquid tears, and that was the point of this post. However, precisely because of YOU, dear brother, and the posts above from people with hearts of gold that reached out to touch mine, this problem is resolved, that is, I no longer believe that I am spiritually unhealthy for not Crying (tears coming out of my eyes)

What would that change? Then you would never know what you are missing out on! Whatever though, I like making love with reality, but sometimes it gets messy and tissues are needed.