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As a cartoon movie I recommend "SpongeBob". He never feels bad neither about himself no others. And if he does, it´s always a fun and adventure. As a book a recommend "Shantaram" by Gregor David Roberts. You´ll forget yourself while reading the story, it is so captivating and incomprehensible. Almost impossible to beleive that something of that kind can really happen to somebody.

I think, thoughts without emotions are compleeeeetely ok. If the thoughts notice that they dont´t strike any emotion, they piss off. Because.. what´s the point? I´d say all that unwanted thoughts, they come for your emotions. Thought without emotions are ok, emotions without thoughts are great. But this mix together: thoughts AND emotions is a poison.

I really wish, Leo answers your question. Till then I´ll try to share me experience: 1. First of all, get rid of people who makes you feel uneasy. Weak ego is a sweet bait for all kind of manipulators. I observe very often people with weak ego getting used and abused by arseholes. Don´t be gracefull with arseholes. Off of them! 2. After step 1 you probably won´t have a lot of people around you. Maybe even nobody. You will have to live on your own. "Dee do de de, dee do de de. I get so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, yeah!" You´ll have nobody to ask advice. You´ll have to make all decisions and all choices yourself and cope with their consequences on your own. Some of them will be good, the others - bad. It doesn´t matter. What matters, you´ll get psycological independance. Some day other people´s opinions won´t play a great role for you any more. But it may take you years. I wish Leo answers you. Because I wish, somebody had told me 15 years ago what I heard from Leo recently: To get rid of ego you have to make it strong at first. Because weak ego resists too much. I wish, I knew it then, and focused on ego (what you a re going to do) instead of haunting a glimpse of enlightment.

Me else! I dreamt about India for almost 2 years after I had been there for just 2 days on business trip. I was always with somebody else - parents, relatives, friends, colleagues, I took quite a crowd of people over there with me. And each time we were on our way home but we nevere got there - we stuck in the traffic, lost our way, were to tired or whatsoever... These dreams stopped as abruptly as they began. In my last dream I was getting into the air plane to fly to India, but they checked the visas at the entrance and sorted me out. My colleagues took the flight without me. I wish, I could go back to India and understand, what happened 18 years ago. But I am a little afraid. Afraid that something happened, but also that nothing happened.

Hello Leo, I have a question to you. Your videos helped me to see the nature of thought. Now I am able to shut the door in front of them any time I want to. Unbelievable how easy I can do it now in term of seconds! I don´t even need to sit into meditation. But! I feel the pressure at the shut door. It´s a permanent subtle anxiety. Something of the kind: general uncertainty about future? It´s always there, sometimes more sometimes less. My main emotion, a background. You told, it´s all about survival. How can I get rid of it? Of this disturbing background emotion? After I have learned to stop the flow of thoughts I´ve got rid of a bunch of other emotions: first of all - sadness and disapointment (completely!), but also anger (partially), envy, and so on.. But the anxiety is always there. I aso don´t quite understand the connection between the thoughts and the emotions. What is prior? You told sometimes emotions and sometimes thoughts? But what is determining this order? Maybe you have a video about connection betwenn emotions and thoughts.? Thank you!

It´s a matter of perspective. Who wants to understand that time is an illusion? If it is a human being, I don´t know your name, for example, Tony Smith, than it´s nonsense, Because time is not an illusion for Tony Smith. For Tony Smith there was a start - his birth, and there will be an end - his death, and the aging inbetween. To understand that time is an illusion you need to understand that everything is an illusion including yourself. First of all YOUR SELF is an illusion. It´s like your are sleeping and dreaming that you are running from a monster. And this running creature tries his/her best to understand that a monster is an illusion. But it´s not a point. A point is to understand that EVERYTHING is a dream. Then the monster won´t matter. I know it, because I often had the nightmares as a child with monsters, murderes, corpses, I was lying in the bed and trembling. Since 10-15 years I haven´t had a single nightmare. I still dream sometimes of monsters, murderers, corpses. But now I don´t mind the blockbusters in the nights, I find them entertaining. In the background there is always an awareness of dreaming. (Isn´t it funny, that the only difference between "end" and "and" is only one letter which sounds almost the same? Sorry, it seems I´ve found a good platform for amazing conversation with myself and improving my English skills at the same time)

No issue with health. I´m just thinking aloud. It´s a strange thing, in one video Leo proposed to close the eyes and imagine 1 Mio $ on my account, which I did. And bingo! I´ve grasped it at once. And I was healed from the lovesickness. I saw so clear, that it was just a thought of me which created a thought of him - nothing real. Such a useless nonsense! What is real never changed all these year always there. How strange is it? The thought of 1 mio $ helped me to understand and overcome the heartsickness but not the financial / material insecurity, the sense of insecurity..

Hi PurpleTree. I think now, it was rather egoistic question: all about the emotional comfort of the ego - the first and the last thought, which is so difficult to abandon, almost impossible. I have no clue, how to do it. This fall into comlete uncertainty. I cannot even imagine, that I will ever dare it..