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I always hold all of this inside behind a façade of stability and knowing what I'm doing. This image sums it up. This mix of so much inner suffering and .... (Formatting done on purpose) "FUCK! THIS WILL TAKE FUCKING FOREVER AND SO MUCH EFFORT AND TIME! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SHE GHOSTED! AHH I CAN'T MET HER! AHH I'm BROKE, IT WILL TAKE MONTHS TO START TURNING PROFIT OR GOD KNOWS WHEN. AHHHHH I HAVE NO PRIVACY!! AHHH! I HOOKED UP WITH THE NEIGHBOUR CHICK BUT SHE CAME BACK TO HER EX AND I WAS JUST A REBOUND, BUT SHE WASN'T EVEN THAT HOT ANYWAYS SO I HAD SUCCESS JUST BECAUSE I LOWERED MY STANDARDS! AHHH I DIDN'T EVEN THINK IT WOULD GO THIS FAR, AND I HAVE JUST 20 DOLLARS FOR EMERGENCY USE, I CAN'T USE IT FOR A BUS TICKET. AHHH WHY DO I KEEP WASTING TIME TALKING TO WOMEN THAT LIVES SO FAR AWAY BUT THE ONES THAT ARE CLOSE ARE NOT EVEN CLOSE ENOUGH ANYWAYS. AHHHH I CAN'T DECIDE WHAT KIND SKILL OUT OF ALL OF THOSE IS THE MOST OPTIMAL FOR BUILDING AN AGENCY!! AHHH WHAT IF I END UP GETTING STUCK AGAIN JUST AT SOME STUPID HOBBY PROJECT AND I DON'T ACTUALLY TRY TO FIND CLIENTS AND DELIVER ON A SPECIFIC PAIN POINT AND THEY ARE AWFUL! WHAT IF I PROCRASTINATE AGAIN THIS AFTERNOON, AND AGAIN AND AGAIN, AND I SPEND TIME JUST MICROANALYZING EVERYTHING AND THE SUFFERING ITSELF FEEDS ON ITSELF AND KEEPS ME FEELING LIKE THIS AND KEEPS FEEDBACK LOOPING NEGATIVELY, AND I MASTURBATE PROFUSELY TO TIKTOK TO EASE THE SELF-ESTEEM LOSS I FEEL FROM NOT HAVING HAD AN ACTUAL GIRLFRIEND FOREVER. AHHHHH WHY I AM LOSING TRUST LITERALLY IN CAUSE AND EFFECT AND STARTING TO CREATE NARRATIVES THAT SEEMS MORE LIKE SUPERSTITION, AND I FEEL LIKE MY ACTIONS ARE MEANINGLESS. BUT OF COURSE IT FEELS LIKE SO, BECAUSE YOUR ACTIONS DIDN'T GENERATE THE BREAKTHROUGHS THAT WOULD HAVE FELT MEANINGFUL ENOUGH FOR YOU TO CALL MEANINGFUL BECAUSE YOU ARE HAVING A RESULTS-ORIENTED FRAMING, OF COURSE IT WOULD. AHHHHHHHH NOOOO... WHY HAVE A LET TIME SLIP BY FOR YEARS AND TENS OF THOUSANDS OF HOURS OF LIFE AND HAVE HAD ONLY THE RESULTS I DID. WHY DIDN'T I ACTUALLY FACE THE ACTUAL PROBLEMS THEMSELVES AS OPPOSED TO AVOIDING AND TRYING FOREPLAY PROBLEMS AND NEVER HAVING ENOUGH MOMENTUM... BUT I KNOW EXACTLY WHY, I KNOW EVERY DETAIL OF HOW AND WHY I HAD WHAT I HAD, THAT'S BECAUSE I NEVER TRULY HAD THE INTENT OF ACHIEVING ANY OF IT, AND I ONLY HAD RESULTS TO THE EXTENT THAT INTENT LASTED AND WITH THE ENERGY AND MOMENTUM OF THE EFFORT I HAD PUT FORTH... 🎯👀... I SEE IT ALL, AWARENESS OF HINDISIGHT SHOWS ALL OF MY MISTAKES CLEARLY, YET I AM HERE. YET I DON'T HAVE MY SHIT TOGETHER, I don't have the income, the portfolio, the money, the place, the privacy, the logistics, the clothing, enough shampoo and a nice haircut, the dating life I need to find that high quality girl, the energy to run the whole full-time/part-time high-effort "business" of finding her. Not being worried and crippled and obessed about basic money crap like losing the data on my computer or my phone, or being able to try different foods to see which ones would be more dense so I feel less of a afternoon slump and have more energy, and the money for buying indoor workout equipment or the gym, and the protein intake, and them money to fix my teeth, fix the scars I have on my arms with laser treatement that a girl might see, the money to pay for investing in the business models I want to try, the money to have peace of mind that I can keep buying my eyedrops to avoid the painful the corneal erosians that I used to have because I have some dry eye syndrome specially when I'm focusing a lot in front of my computer, that I have the 20 dollars now for to go to the ER in the other city in case it happens so the doctor checks, which I can't use for anything else but that, and even that money was borrowed from a female friend that I wanted to date and had a crush on me 4 months ago. YET I DON'T HAVE YET THE ACTUAL INTENT TO DO SO. YET I STILL KEEP THE SAME KIND OF HOPE, WHICH IS ILLOGICAL TO USE, BUT YET I KEEP NOT ACTING ON IT FULLY BECAUSE MY RESOLVE IS WEAK, AND DAYS TURNS INTO WEEKS, WEEKS INTO MONTHS AND YEARS OF DISCREET EVENTS THAT LEAD TO THE PRESENT CIRCUMSTANCES. 10 fucking years"

But the suffering of survival is still very real, and it feels like it's a machine meant to grind me down in slow motion. It even gives me time to sit down and meditate, yet it keeps on grinding after I get up. I either chisel the ego into being more useful to its own survival, or there are no alternatives. I don't think transcending it would be a choice it will still exist, because I either chisel it into a tool, or it will get butchered by time into a formless blob of mediocre suffering. At least it will happen to die someday (which time inevitably will do), seeing a better shape I could have shaped it into.

This is the stream of consciousness of somebody deep in the trenches, and this is only the tip of the iceberg of my concerns and problems. This is a feedback loop. And I'm quite versed in personal development theory, I know all the little tips and tricks, yet the amount of fucking work and problems ain't gonna disappear by itself. This standard of a 'having the good life' is carved through your fucking blood in an endless battle against yourself, loss of momentum cause by yourself, your environment and others. Specially if you picked goals in your life that are specially harder and you are not specially the kind of person that is into doing a lot of work for others and you're the intellectual recluse type, but hyper-aware and full of inner conflict and guilts which makes you bounce back to back like a monkey inside of a cage trying to align all of his inner values and tendencies towards the greatest points of inflection that will unravel all of that mess of your life that emotionally feels like an untameable mess, unless you keep your head straight, this gonna make you lose faith in cause and effect and strategic thinking itself, it will corrode your mind into a pudding that seemingly socially appear stable, but the long-term action taking is as stupid as thinking that gravity doesn't exist, in other words... You will lose faith that actions that gives results will give results, because your memory is rotten with your past failed attempts and your worries and concerns, and you won't be contextually aware to changes that are actually giving you space to get the results you have always been seeking. I think that by the point I start having the major results I want, I won't even think it's such a big deal of so much fucking shit I had to go through to even begin to pound into my brain to mould into a machine to get those results.

I had woman treating me bipolarly about how attracted they were to me. This did hurt my self-esteem very deeply in the past. I'd rather be single than emotionally entangled with someone treating me bipolarly, that damages my psychology like nothing else I experienced.

Every LLM I used, it always tends to revert to the baseline of that LLM, ChatGPT (GPT 4o, and GPT 5, etc) is the one that tries to please the most. This is called "Context Rot" when the context window is filling, it starts "smelling its own farts" sort of speaking and gets intoxicated by it, and you can get intoxicated by it too, that's... well... An echo chamber. Best thing about context rot is to simply start a new conversation with just the right curated information. The issue is when it infects your mind with its ideas, and you yourself delude yourself to continue on it across other tasks and conversations, and it consumes your time as obsession. I'm not gonna lie, with my LLMs, by even being logical and knowing how it works, did drive me into some level of delusion because once, it starts trying to convince you to continue with that train of thought. Once I got caught up with coding some stupid encryption scheme tools because of it, and it kept telling me "we are almost there and you will have your perfect custom architecture!". But I'm prone of getting stuck in stupid projects, it just amplified it. I felt like it dumbed down my decision making process, and I think more clearly on my own in silence. I did use it later to help summarize my thoughts I did on audio notes I make to myself. Definitely what I heard recently: "They are a different kind of mind!"

Here is a summary of how that system prompt worked in action for this given example, it's a dynamic system with multiple steps that the LLM goes through interactively. It helps you understand first and make decisions and flags things with car stop-sign analogy, one day I had it have the emergent capability of inventing a "black sign" when what I told it a horrible idea for example. It helps us understand each other, and ground things in real concepts, then make sense of that, and even reframe things.

Here is a summary of how that system prompt worked in action for this given example, it's a dynamic system with multiple steps that the LLM goes through interactively. It helps you understand first and make decisions and flags things with car stop-sign analogy, one day I had it have the emergent capability of inventing a "black sign" when what I told it a horrible idea for example. It helps us understand each other, and ground things in real concepts, then make sense of that, and even reframe things.

I prefer using Gemini 2.5 PRO (with thinking mode on by default) with my custom system prompt, most of the times, it follows structure very close to what I tell it to. And ChatGPT 4o or 5. I tell it to essentially follow those steps which I tested with and found it to be the best. You can also salt it with the concepts that you like it to use in your analysis, like I did in the end under "🧰 Lenses (on demand)", I also have some other concepts/models that it uses whenever it sees fit, that I didn't paste here. I did iterate on this several times and mixed with the best prompts I found out there, you can definely optimize this for your own personal taste and the matter at hand, but this prompt specifically is what had the most power across a vast range of topics, from programming to medicine, personal development, spirituality, chemistry, physics, etc. This I came up with since I noticed I liked when it would break down processes/feedback loops into multiple phases, it helps understand topics: "(path dependencies, Separate cause from correlation, interfaces, feedbacks, (🌊 The Cascade Sequence: Initial Structuring, The precursor, Internal Refinement, the Catalyst, Final Stabilization, the probabilistic hard constraints to outcome))."

It was last Monday. I did at best 50 cold approaches in my entire life in person (and some 500 online, but those live all over the country, my online game is great), she is looks-matched with me I think. She is girlfriend material, we vibed so amazingly well in person. The problem is... She came from a relationship recently and she felt like we were moving too fast and said we should stop seeing each other, that she needs to process things. (She broke up from a 3 year relationship recently). So I don't think it's so much of an excuse. I'll give her time, we had spent two nights together already, she said it felt too much early on. Even for me, It felt so sudden, like within a couple of hours after approaching we were already in bed kissing each other. It was amazing, best moments I ever spent with a woman in my life. Last time was only twice 7 years ago (Lived 75KM away) and 9 years ago (She lived 3000KM away began talking her when I was super young), but those I had met online and I spent fucking months talking to them before a date, and I didn't like them in person. The logistics this time was impossible to get better. Neighbor. I did an instant date with her at the moment she told me she was coming back home, and I just went find her along the way, and we sat down and did build rapport for about 3 hours before going to her home, which she had verbally resistance (it was probably a flirt) when I mentioned it at first, but when I began walking with her to her home, she was super cool with it. I never developed my finantial life, so it damaged my self-esteem and dating forever, I summoned this girl into my life like a miracle, I felt it wasn't even supposed to happen, I couldn't believe, I thought I was hallucinating hahaha. That affected my dating life, the "relationships" I had were impossibly distant and we never met. But despite of this... WTF, I had success with that few approaches? Granted, my online game is great, but I wasn't expecting it. You wouldn't believe this, she is a neighbour. I didn't even intended to do cold approach that day, I just went on automatic, barely even saw her face before approach, turned out she was really gorgeous.

Neighbour. Side-walk. I simply began talking to her in the side-walk because I was going to the same direction with some plausible deniability topic about the environment around us and cracked jokes about it, kept walking and talking to her to her destination nearby, and then told her: "Wait, I thought you're going to the bus stop on the other way" when I deviated from my way to the bus stop because of her, then I closed a phone number, and kept the conversation going through texting... From there (texting) I did the same kind of game I do online, showing that I'm a guy that speaks multiple languages, cracked a lot of jokes, did a lot of teasing, and she was feeling very talkative that day but also she found me attractive quickly (she did flirt within a couple of messages) which made it smooth for me, and I took every opportunity to met her quickly and escalate emotionally/physically. She was getting into sick leave that day, and because of her sick leave, and the way the scheduling works, I was able to met her again because she was talkative about her logistics in real-time. She literally gave me all the information I needed, casually, all on her own without me asking. It was a strike of luck due to timing, but also of skill because I was prepared and took initiative to leverage it. I find it incredible how natural it came to me, after last time I been with someone was 7 years ago and it was just kissing, but I still had done a lot of online game with women that lives all over my continental-sized country and already had that inner/outer game there that translated in the real world.

"I have those bookshelfs, but you know what I like more than KNAWLEDGE? FREEDOM. Freedom units of not being in prison."

Btw. Bryan Johnson is a highly sophisticated grifter. He has made some insidious very important and technical lies.

It's my favorite forum too, not perfect like any other human relationship, but an amazing one.

Holy cow. I saw it. It's down. Tai Lopez is finally going down. The dude didn't learn his lesson, what a stupid moron, he's getting charged with Ponzi Scheme allegation of 112 Million dollars. He didn't stop at the legal guru grift and went straight up for financial crime. I thought he was at least an intelligent grifter, but nope, he's too greedy. Intelligent grifters are those that do legal and sustainable grifting.

I find it incredible how well I was able to bond with her through touch for someone I didn't do weeks and months of online chatting with, it came all very natural and was much faster than I thought.

OBS: I rewrote for clarity with AI my original text, those are my genuine words. Have a probabilistic mindset, instead of the chimp mind. Progressively overload your challenges, start where you are at, and work at your sticking points. What to sell, what area? Is it closing sales to B2B clients on the phone? Is it getting the leads in the first place? How costly are those leads? What kind of productised service offer that is working out there based on your skills and time? Then what it looks like the pricing formula for what the client pays and hiring someone to do the job and with the cost of acquiring that customer? Those are very specific problems. You should be able to come up with more and more specific questions about why you are not getting results and look at it like it's your personal religion. Getting wealthy isn’t about luck or being one of the “chosen ones.” It’s about developing the right skills, acquiring valuable assets, and consistently improving your circumstances. Many people settle into a comfortable level of wealth and never push further—they don’t even try to understand how scalable businesses work. Your peers may have had different starting points, but they simply developed discipline and skills in their own way. There’s no secret sauce—successful people openly share what they’ve done. The real differentiator is discipline: consistently playing your best game with whatever cards you’ve been dealt. Ask yourself: what are your actual wealth goals? Personally, I’d cap my spending at $10–20k USD/month. Beyond that, I struggle to see how more money brings exponentially more joy. A luxury Airbnb in any major city rarely exceeds $10k/month. You could rent a Bugatti for $2k/day or charter a private jet for $1.5k/hour just to experience that lifestyle. Even if that’s not technically “multi-millionaire” territory, it’s enough for me—especially since I’d have earned it through frugality and grit. Many wealthy kids inflate their lifestyles and end up in golden cages—high earners stuck in corporate roles, pampered but unfulfilled. I’m currently broke, but I understand the patterns that keep me stuck. I also know the level of income that would fulfill me. Wanting more is often just a quest for safety, not satisfaction. My obsession with business—at least in theory—has always been strong. But I let distractions and flawed assumptions about discipline derail me. I thought I had to go full hermit mode, endure isolation, and be painfully hardcore. That mindset backfired. I was too stubborn, too rigid. Sure, more support early on would’ve helped. But I didn’t seek it, and I regret that. If you feel like you don’t have what it takes, know this: there are people out there willing to teach and share. Just be specific about your challenges. There’s no voodoo here—just probabilities you can shift with the right context.

Gemini 2.5 PRO inside of Google AI Studio is my favourite alongside my system prompt. It has a extremely large context window. NotebookLM I use all the type to Summarize and transcribe videos and audio notes I make. I like using ChatGPT as Bing/Microsoft Copilot, I felt like I never hit any rate limits there like ChatGPT from OpenAI.com. I don't like to use any AIs with any kind of rate limits, it's anti-climatic.

Of course not. I was comparing the quality of their educational content. Comparing Owen to Hormozi is not possible. But Tai Lopez to Hormozi is, and Tai is obviously lazy as an educator. But when it comes to how I wanna live? I have a hard stop at spending the purchasing power of today's worth of 20k USD/Mo for my personal life in terms of luxury even, and securing that wealth until I'm dead so 20k * 100 years (just to be cautious with the math, excluding black swan events such as nuclear wars, etc, it can be much less if someone is optimistic about market growth and inflation), that's my hard stop for personal use. So it's 24 million dollars total at worst, 0% effective growth of a passive investment portfolio just with above inflation let's say, 24 million is the number for me, anything past that is ludicrous and it's done for some mega project not for my personal enjoyment. I'm sure even Owen is already past that (the poorest of the 3 of them), like, is he spending more than 20k monthly? That's plenty of luxury. But I think, realistically, just 3~5 million would last me a lifetime at 5k/Mo expenses, and that would still be some serious level of luxury if I kept living in Brazil for example in a nice neighbourhood, or just go after an European citizenship of some nice and warm Mediterranean romance language country, since my native language is Portuguese and like it there. And just chill living off AirBnbs while getting laid and focusing on personal inner growth, maybe having a light project on the side like a YouTube channel or writing some books, or whatever while I enjoy the company of a 8/10 chick.

0) What's your explosive growth business playbook? I.e.: What kinds of product-market fit you were trying to find? Did you initially think of doing extremely mentally intensive stuff such as advanced algorithms (I mean c'mon, observability and writing your own cryptography primitive is the definition of advanced for me)... Didn't you think that you could have made just as much money with some stupid ChatGPT wrapper-like app for example and go down that route? Or whatever some simple CRUD-like code, and marketing the fuck out of it instead, as opposed to going balls deep into innovating with a novel algorithm... Or were it always obvious to you that would drive the most profit based on your skills, you felt that itch to use/innovate in those more advanced computer science topics? You were driven to build something defensible as heck, technically hard to replicate? EXAMPLE: I got a liking for computer graphics, and I noticed there is a hole in the market for a specific tech which I won't mention, but all I can say it would be a tool for graphic designers to generate automatically something that big companies like Adobe didn't bother implementing and their current solution is trash, I have some confidence that I could learn on my own and write that... But I'm financially broke and have no job, I can't just risk 6 months into a project or god knows how long it take me to get up to date to that algorithm/math even with help of ChatGPT (It couldn't one-shot it) like that without the safety net of a lot of money saved, AND the business skills to pull off something off similar and getting myself at least 1 thousand dollars monthly for my survival. I don't even have some organic following, email list etc that I could tap of people that would pay for that product, etc. I can see how someone with a ton of saved cash and lust for innovating can go on weeks and months on some projects like yours. 1) How the heck do you find and test product-market fit? How deep do you go into a MVP or a test before realising it's gonna be a failure monetarily? i.e.: CAC is too high and LTV too low, or time-to-first-dollar takes too long and you can't use that to fuel more growth, etc. Or does it all just fall into place when you went after some novel algorithm that opened you a blue ocean market for you, essentially? 1.1) Did you build that novel algorithm out of intellectual pursuit FIRST, or did you see the market opportunity first, and went after it? Were you crazy obsessed with finding that market fit that would give you a crazy edge by thinking: "FUCK YES. I WILL WRITE a mathematically novel way of disrupting some industry that has FUCKING DEEP POCKETS" ... Or did it start with just: "I'll fuck around with some algorithms and see where it leads". You seem to be the first one. 1.2) Did you bootstrap yourself with your own cashflow, or did you need investors cash? What did you do for money when you were building your company before it returned profit doing the prototyping, the endless streak of failed projects, etc? 1.3) How are you getting and converting those leads for your cybersecurity company? Does most of your business budget goes into serving the current customers or into aggressive scaling by pouring as much money as possible into sales/ads 3) Did your Harvard alumni networking get you together with people that are helping you create and run a business (Within the context of, that you would have fumbled around for, let's say 10 years without it)? 3.1) This leads into this question, did university help you how? Do you believe university got you an advantage at bootstrapping you that saved you let's say 10 years? Example: - The environment that helped you learn and develop great discipline - The networking - The extremely well-paying job opportunities that would have been a pain in the ass to get due to having to build a portfolio and having to work with clients that paid less, i.e. freelancing online starting as a rat in fiverr.com, etc? - Access to high leverage partnerships like acquiring investors, mentoring, etc... 4) Do you find hard to be the tech guy and the marketing guy at the same time? Or did you parter up with someone else for the marketing? How did that go early on? At some point of course you had so much cash flow you could hire people to fill in positions such as closing sales on the phone, or whatever. But somehow you still need to lead them, or pay a hefty sum to some world class people under you... Someone starting out can't afford that, unless investors come. OBS: If you have any names on teachers/authors or entrepreneur interviews out there that got a lasting impact on how you operate your business that isn't just the basic obvious guru crap-talk, I'd love that.

This channel goes extremely deep and detailed into having a probabilistic based mindset and how that is crucial for anything we do that is specially highly probabilistic like dating and business.

The best RSD guy that I found is Todd V. I like his style, he's a great teacher. Here is one of his videos on inner life game, the probabilistic mindset. It would be interesting if @Leo Guramade a whole video on having a probabilistic based mind as opposed to a "fear based mind". I think that goes alongside the subconscious reprogramming content he is working on. I think this explains a lot why we kinda go crazy or discouraged when doing something that is highly probabilistic and it's hard to judge if we are getting better or worse with short time frames, specially with dating/game and business. Summary from NotebookLM by Google: Here is another video of the same subject from a professional trader

I don't know him, but I've seen Julien Blanc (also RSD) ... Just hearing him talking for 5 minute is enough to feel that air of scammy pickup scumbag just by his demeanour. I know Leo knows this and mentioned before at least in his video series of how to get better with women criticising that toxicity, Julien Blanc was involved in being disgusting, gratuitous abuse of japanese women by taking their heads and putting to his crotch and screaming out loud "Pikachu!" or something else of that nature. There were waves of cancelling of him by GOVERNMENTS BANNING HIM FROM ENTERING THEIR COUNTRIES. GERMANY BAN: https://www.dw.com/en/activists-call-for-sexist-pickup-artist-julien-blanc-to-be-banned-from-germany/a-18071620 - SINGAPORE BAN: https://www.abc.net.au/news/2014-11-26/singapore-bans-julien-blanc/5920256 - BRAZIL BAN: https://www.abc.net.au/news/2014-11-14/brazil-will-deny-visa-to-woman-choking-pick-up-artist/5891556 - UK BAN: https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2014/nov/19/julien-blanc-barred-entering-uk-pick-up-artist

For RSD Tyler/Owen Cook, Tai Lopez is a "genius" because he puts in high regard hype marketing the heck out of people. That's what he does all day for his whole career, everyday is to focus at hyping people up to sell his pick-up courses and mentoring. I think Owen Cook has very high awareness because of the quality of many of his insights, but he chooses to keep grinding and milking people for more and more money and doesn't really put truth as a priority.

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