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Innovation is exciting.

Is using binaural beats cheating? Binaural beats seem to help centre my mind, & makes it easier for me to be aware of my surroundings & the sensations. Also, i'm still struglling to convince myself to deliberately mediate often I do meditate, but nearly always it's in the evening because I'm too tired to do anything else productive. & It always feels "lazy", like i'm "just being lazy" & I can't see how it will help me enough, although my intuition tells me that it will 100% help, my logical mind says no. It's just hard for me to connect mediation with tangible results, because it's very hard to measure how X hours meditation leads to better results in Y area of life.

Does DMSA actually chelate lead out of the brain? Or does it only bind to lead in your body? I've had my filling removed, I can start chelating with DMSA right away right ? (I know u must wait with ala) Would this lead to less brain fog or just help the body Where do I order DMSA from UK

Today I worked hard, in spite of the brain fog & OCD. I messed it up by using cheap shampoo that I decided to use as an experiment. d Really really itchy head, headache, can't sleep. I'm never using shampoo again. It makes my hair all flaky & over soft anyway, & I don't want any of these chemicals. I bought a "natural biotin shampoo" but its expensive & I don't know if it's full of shit. Time to cut out soaps, deodorants. It's a shame because smelling good is such an advantage to attraction & I want every advantage, I don't wanna do oger game (lol) So many fucking chemicals in that shampoo when I looked at the truth. Lol, we in the dark ages. But I wanna be butterfly man ! Nah fuck that, I'm still NEO.

Vishen Lakhiani > Founder of Mind Valley He is the real deal because is so ecleptic in knowledge & skill base He has mastered both his personal success & the spiritual side he is trained in computer science, hypnosis, meditation, psychology, imo Tom beliyeu & Rich Roll > are very basic boring self help people. Please don't limit yourself to them, go for someone like Vishen Lakhiani

COMPLETE MSITAKE. Shouldn't have drunken wine. I had a third of a glass... I have severe brain fog today, it's feels similar to if I had smoke some bad quality weed. Not good at all. I also ate some sushi yesterday terrible idea. farmed salmon is not good. It's so easy for mind to rationalize bad behaviour, need to be strict NO FISH, ESPECIALLY FARMED FISH, NO. NO SOY. NO PRESERVED FOOD. & I masturbated twice this week, doubt that helps. Maybe I have delayed reaction to gluten too, I ate piece of bread yesterday not good either. I dunno but I don't feel good at all, I will still keep going & find a way to move city. Get away from my disgusting father & deranged neighbours & dark room & this fucking place. I will try & enhance my life & environment regardless, the root solution, must take ownership of my life, where I live, what I put in my body, who I interreact with, as Leo said. Can not ever quit. I pray that I will feel sharper again soon, & I will increase my energy & my IQ By at least 50%, they say anything is possible. If it takes weeks that's ok (BUT IT'S NOT COS I HAVE NO FUCKING PATIENCE & I WATCHED LEOS PATIENCE VIDEO 3 TIMES & I TRIED MEDIATATIUNN& FASTING 7 ahh ahd fuck fuck fuck fuck give me give me give me shit fucking right now FUCK. I'm so desparate. Ok, OCD is too bad, I can't right on here anymore, I can't do this anymore. Leaving this forum for several months.

Mind Valley Because of his holistic approach to growth

But the problem is I struggle to believe anything. As napoleon hill says > u need ABSOLUTE FAITH FAITH & FEARLESSNESS. Do you even need leo or any book if you have these? Not even.... This is the path to power. I CHOSE FAITH & FEARLESSNESS. I WILL NOT QUIT, I WILL NOT BE NEGATIVE. I WILL PRIME THE SUBCONSCIOU EVERY DAY, EVERY FUCKING DAY & I WILL PLAN & ACT EVERY DAY EVERY DAY I need my wine fuck off now but we all get the message. FAITH & FEARLESSNESS.

Hollowness. Having a cavity, gap, or space within Deeply indented or concave; sunken. Without substance or character. Most people get stuck here ^ way in to middle age's & beyond, often until death. This is the look I saw in my cousin months back. "I drive a train yes for my son, it's a bit boring uhh ... "Ah u want to go travelling ... I wish I went travelling in my 20's ..." INTENSELY PAINFUL EXPRESSION OF REGRET Hollowness, Regret, lack of fulfilment, loneliness at work, married his wife over political dogmas. Only 35 but had already resigned himself. I pity him yes, BUT FUCK THAT MOFO FUCK THAT I WON'T BE LIKE THE HERD. NO! MONEY, POWER, CREATIVITY, JOY, SUCCESS, ART, NATURE, EXCITEMENT, ON THE EDGE, BURN THE BRIDGES, LEADERSHIP, UNFORGETTABLE, ALPHA, SUCCESS, DEVINE POWER, CHARISMA, CHARM, MAGNETIC FORCE, UNSTOPPABLE. I've always had a painful tendency to ruminate, to regret the past. It's a travesty of the mind & a painful, Unrelenting habit. Diet didn't help, exercize didn't help, none of that shit works because ultimately when you feel hollow & regret & alone, no physical empty thing like food will change that. My life's moving too slow & I'm still mediocre, in spite of doing tons of self help stuff, books everything u can think of ... but because I haven't sorted the basics : my environment. So so important. I still can't think of where to move, or how to move, I'm not good at "requisite variety", because I have such a picky apetite for all the list of conditions i'd need in my environment, & so far unless I burn through cash like crazy person spending 2-4K a month, then I can't find anywhere ... Unless I could move to mexico ... BUT WHEN? WHEN THE FUCK WILL THAT BE POSSIBLE ahaha I just want you so much, Canada, please have me NEEEEEEEEEED. NEEEDINESSS > I NEEEED YOU! I really want to go Mexico, but I don't know how ... or when? These restrictions may never stop it feels like. Authoritarians doesn't wanna quit ey But I need to find a good place, I know i'm responsible but my morale is just so low, I struggle to put in the work to be earning big bucks like I could be, I know I could be if i moved somewhere good & I don't just mean money I mean I'd be doing so much, I can see it & I've known this for years, I just need this basic infrastructure, god please help me reach my potential in all ways, I command the subconscious mind to find me the right environment, the right physical, spacial, naturalistic, spiritual, infrastructural, social environment. I need some balance in my life. I want to do martial arts & hobbies again & work on my nascent passions some time & going back to the whiteboard & churning out business ideas for fun, & expressmy unique self more & I want to listen the music I like loud as day & go pick up girls & bring em round after a long hard day of hard work & fuck their brains out & travel & meet cultures all over the world. & take mushrooms & kambo & I want to play soccer again for once like I always used to, I used to be so good & I just love to play, just haven't really for years & I wish did, need to join some teams but ah there's just no time it feels. I know I can see myself as this alpha, fun, creative & successful guy ... no longer in stuck in my head ruminating, but fully in the present, too busy to think negatives, to happy to care. Successful, confident, proud, on top of the world. spreading these vibrations on to others. Making the world a better place, not by being "good" .. but merely by shining a light on these troubling times, being that vibration that lifts a room, makes a street glow, makes an old lady smile. OK NOW I'M JUST BLABBERMOUTHING BLABBER BLABBER... BLUBLU. TIME TO GO VISUALIZE, PRIME THE SUBCONSCIOUS MIND, REVIEW MY DAY & HAVE A GLASS OF WINE. TIME TO PRACTICE SELF LOVE, & TRY FEEL IN TO MY EMOTIONS, REGRET, HOLLOWNESS, NEEDINESS, DESPAIR ... FEEL IN TO THEM "LOVE THEM TO DEATH". MELT IT AWAY WITH LOVE.

Hollowness. Having a cavity, gap, or space within Deeply indented or concave; sunken. Without substance or character. Time to escape. I just wanna forget myself & take some mushrooms, wait for the afterglow then go chill by the sunset. Mushrooms & Kambo ... & Sunsets. That is "spirituality" to me. Especially if I can do that with a friend or gal, "social spirituality". I don't give a fuck about what leo talks about 80% of the time Lol, I mostly listen to his old videos, but still find some great nuggets in the new ones too. Cos that's all spirituality is to me, that's it. Mushrooms, sunsets, Mdma, connection, being in the moment, nature, I don't need to fucking study it fuck off. Everything is so hollow, Can't wait to get the money & so I can just live life for once, I'm not really a Jeff bezos type, I need balance. That isn't to say i'm "less ambitious than jeff bezos", it's equally ambitious to want the good life all round, perhaps more ambitious cos it's harder to achieve & more worthwhile.

Taking LSD was the worst decision I ever made. Traumatising experience. Really depends on the person & context. Mushrooms & MDMA Though ... what a blessing.

Fuck yeah that's true. If someone hits you you betta smack their ass to the ground & ensure that they learn a lesson. Just 1 big nice hook to the jaw. Nothing else. Once they're down you walk away. When I was younger I used to let people pick on me, I wouldn't retaliate. The lingering sense of frustration of not standing up for myself was not worth it. Always sort the person out then & there. THen you never need to think about it later.

100 I second that one! I need to workout the logistics of moving country in this time, hopefully they allow me.

I believe have the natural charisma to be an very good actor. I love narratives & film & also I love Hollywood lifestyle. An intuitive girl once looked at me deeply & said I should be an actor, she said it with much conviction. Arnold shwartzy did it in his 30s I'm not going to put my life into acting because I'm too ecelptic for that but i'd love to be a part time A list Hollywood dude

I'm confused about fluoride. I currently use fluoride free toothpaste due to it's name. But I'm aware many people get told by their dentist to "use more flouride to prevent tooth decay". I have quite bad teeth at the moment, I need to see a dentist I haven't gone in about 4 years ... But I'm also scared of dentists cos the last prick gave me a mercury filling. What is it with dentists ? They love fluoride and mercury. I just want to know the facts, is fluoride really beneficial or not.

Anyway, fuck acting & fuck this forum. It's too late for that & What the fuck am I doing, I already know what my passions are. I love culture, socialising, hot women, decadence, travel & foreign languages & this can easily be made in to a business. I keep posting & commenting stuff out of impulsive habit to distract myself, but I have a life to live, I MUST STOP WASTING TIME, I HAVE HIGHLY AMBIOUTS DREAMS THAT I MUST WORK TOWARDS, NO MORE OF MY PRECIOUS LIFE WASTED, NO MORE, NO! message to all of you like me, lets go act & follow our dreams, stop the distractions, don't let this forum become an addiction. Goodbye.

I am a synthesis of ESTJ - ESFJ & ENFP My weakness is lack of ENTJ which I am in the process of developing. You can be whatever you type you decide to be. No limits.

I had my Amalgam removed yesterday ... I currently feel tired & moody, but this is probably also due to lifestyle issues like environment, circadian rhythm. So just wondering if it's common to temporarily feel tired & moody after removing an amalgam filling & how long this could last ?

Theatrical musical stuff is really not for me. f just makes me cringe. I'd rather play an evil villain or a man undergoing a mid life crises with wife problems or maybe some sort of 300 warrior. I never could watch this stuff Apart from high school musical > but only because I was in love with Vanessa Hudgens

That's great! These are definitely emerging trends that need innovation & growth. They're all compatible too. Try break that down specifically. I mean general is good, but with this alone there's probably hundreds of sub sectors, or different business potentials. I'm same man I love nature & drugs. All drugs lol. Also, just think about how such a tiny fucking % of people are actively following their passion, so there won't be much competition especially in these underdeveloped markets you discussed.

I thought DMSA was the only chelator of lead & so It should take lead away from the brain ? Because DMSA is the only lead chelator right ?

Increase patience muscle, "letting go" muscle Enhance cognitive abilities, energy, focus, mood & mental clarity Be able to guilt free reward myself with MacDonald's & Pizza 2/3 times a week Lol

I have fasted so far since 4PM (17 Hours) yesterday. I felt more awake after less sleep (6.5 hours) But I also feel hungry. I lack the awareness to tell if I'm actually more productive or less, because I could be more focused but also distracted due to thinking about food. So my main question is : Is Intermittent Fasting a clear cut productivity hack or not? Does it just take time getting used to the hungry feeling, then maybe it stops becoming a distraction & pays off? Or maybe it only works well for some people? Or maybe it's all Bullshit ?

Awareness & letting go. Yesterday I fell into a deep rumination loop for several hours. I started regretting the time & youth I've wasted, tense symptoms arised in the body, feeling the sharp pain of regret. After hours of a whirlwind of regret, envy, jealously of others, a sense of despair & impatience. I realized my OS Needs rebooting. I watched an old ACT.org video about "how to let go of the past". Great video, key insight. "The past & the future do not exist, especially the past, it is just thoughts in the mind". Yesterday doe not exist, 5 minutes ago does not exist. ONLY THE PRESENT IS REAL. Another insight > whenever I catch myself ruminating, I must swiftly respond by breathing deeply & make a conscious decision to be in THIS MOMENT, RIGHT NOW. This should help ground me. My second video which this I rewatched but clearly have forgotten the principle is the power of letting go. I command thy subconscious mind to flex this musculó todo el tiempo, todo! I will let go > This will help me become multi millionaire. I WILL LET GO BECAUSE THIS WILL GIVE ME POWER & SUCESS. MONEY, PUSSY & POWER. BUT COUNTERINTUITIVELY I WILL EVEN LET GO OF THE DISIRE TO HAVE ALL OF THESE THINGS (Because this will secretly give me them )

Am I sourdough ? I always knew I was crispy