Natasha Tori Maru

I'm surprised the Diary of a CEO dude (don't rate him personally) had Hoffman on - I always assumed he would be a bit unpalatable to the masses. I came across and watched this earlier today. He's all about survival blinding us to the truth.

Life became effortless and full of wonder. Do you want that? 🙃 (But this is based on what I have gotten from truth seeking, this forum and teachings. As a... Byproduct)

This is the part that is not certain. The theory is higher domain/reality/energy plain UFOs do not normally come across the physical dense reality we inhabit. Some parts of the earth interfere with their shit. It is something they have never dealt with. Like an 'amphibian human intelligence' in the ocean - the 'amphibian human intelligence' is designed for the ocean environment and coming onto land it will malfunction. We also are assuming here intellect is what generates mastery - this might not be the case. Just theories. Additionally - many reports are that these craft and beings can be interacted with through consciousness - conscious contact - and that individuals can 'reach out' and contact UFOs, deceiving them and luring them down to crash or for us to shoot/capture them. But who knows, I draw no conclusions. I just really go hard into the topic

@Judy2 I think you nailed some of the issue - something is preventing you having a pleasant and welcome experience in the eating process. External or internal - whatever that thing is might unravel something? You could be so distracted while eating, once the meal is done, it is like you didn't even have one. Something robbed your attention away from the experience of it. So you reach for more because it was like you missed the meal! Personally I eat my meals on my balcony, no technology. Sometimes music. I watch the forest and do not do anything else. I eat very slowly. But this is just me personally I joke that I am so single minded I struggle to walk and chew gum!

@Judy2 I think you have actually done some amazing work learning about the nutrition side of the problem - which reduces it as a factor. It definitely rooted in the negative self image. This (to me, again could be wrong) points to unconscious negative thoughts still being present somewhere... something so automatic it is like breathing. It just happens instinctually. I have come from a place of terrible negative self image, fear of my own potential, comparison of myself to others. The disordered nature of my pathology arose in different ways: lack of discipline towards life's obligations, OCD-like compulsions, endless time wasted on the internet. It just so happens your overeating is the way it is manifesting in you. Trying to find those thoughts and catching them as they arise is the big big big challenge. Just remember - the urge to binge/overeat will pass, whether you act on it or not This behaviour could also simply be a bad habit you need to break, a remnant from anorexia recovery. You are a lovely gentle woman, it comes across in your posts. You are so hard on yourself Do you feel numb when you eat?

I will point out - in your experience. The only reason I say this is because Ralston's work triggered this realisation for me. It is true for me, in my experience. And I have reduced my own suffering substantially. I still do suffer - however this is due to more work within myself needing to be done to realise where the internal friction is. Well yes - Ralston is saying that the structure you have is causing suffering, and his work involves unravelling that structure (deconstructing). I think maybe there is something missing in understanding here. Perhaps just language terminology. Ralston means the thought IS the 'structure' that you are elaborating on above. The thought doesn't cause the structure - it is the structure that needs to be pulled apart. I actually think you agree with Ralston. Your terminology and metaphors differ is all

@Breakingthewall When Ralston says that thought generates the suffering - you are tripping up a bit here. He isn't placing blame on the person for generating the suffering - he is just pointing out that they are doing it and active in its cause. There is no blaming or judgement. It is just the truth of the matter. Do you think you are the one attributing blame to this fact, because (in your view) it makes the person responsible? This is circumvented by Ralston also clearly pointing out people are unaware of this going on within them. There is no blame or responsibility - simply a lack of awareness. Ignorance only - with no negative connotations. And he aims to bring this hidden process into the persons awareness - so they see they can prevent it happening. Thereby raising the consciousness of the person.

@kray Yep - the problem I have with it: these predictions have happened so many times... always a nothingburger

This could be the key to it - usually eating disorders (or disordered eating - which is when you don't get a formal diagnosis, and the pathology isn't severe enough to interfere with daily functioning) are tied to emotions. From your comment to @Schizophonia above - I think you have a lot of your self worth tied into your body. Several instances of shaming yourself and comparing to others. Judging yourself for lacking discipline. I've been there... These thoughts will be the parts that are generating the emotions that lead to the eating. Do you have any sort of meditation or practice that involved thought awareness? I think your inner dialogue is running wild in negativity. It sounds less like a nutritional issue and more rooted in emotions and thoughts. I could be wrong.

I am a female and I don't understand myself in the slightest. All I know is its pretty twisted up in the Tash universe. I think there isn't much self left to understand >.>

@Judy2 I have a lot of experience with eating disorders through the pervasive nature it has afflicted the women in my family. My sister, mother, grandmother - it goes back inter-generationally. My sister went from extreme anorexia to uncontrollable binging (as you describe), to bulimia. The body is smarter than your brain and the binging is a rebound from the restricting. Grelin and leptin hormones do this. They are more powerful than your executive brain function and will totally override rationality in an attempt to survive. This will result in action compulsions (eating). Thought compulsions also tie in - fixation on calories, clean eating, counting, macros. It is part of the eating disorder itself and feeds it. Enhancing its grip. Can I ask if you attempt to restrict after overeating? Eating disorders are more complex than they seem. Part of the issue is the brain is in a semi-malfunctional irrational state where it cannot rationally realise 'having bodyfat is okay'. This is caused from malnutrition. The brain is mostly fat - and fat has more calories than carbohydrates and protein. So it is usually restricted and impacts executive functioning. Do you have OCD? These go hand in hand - a common comorbidity. It's about control. All my love & healing to you - I am happy to DM <3

@Bashar Do you mean craft? All the stuff I find is hearsay so I don't bother posting it here. Very difficult to find any real facts. A LOT of conspiracy. I personally think there are real UFOs and government ones held with the big weapons manufacturers. Pure speculation.

TBH I dislike Corbell also - its the way he comes across. It is like he doesn't present findings in a clean, calm and professional way like George Knapp (who I rate). He is quite fanatical with his delivery which I find off-putting. Unprofessional. In addition, his stream of consciousness rants are difficult to digest because he is adding parenthesis on top of parenthesis. Digressing into the next fucken dimension! I get it, it's passion. But it makes me think the guy has lost touch with reality. De-lulu Whereas Luis Elizondo I genuinely think is a disinformation agent. He comes across as much more professional but less trustworthy. Constantly hiding under hats - lowered eye contact. Closed body language. He is extremely controlled and unnatural in his videos. Makes me distrust him. Hiding in sight. Adding my disclosure this is based on my subjective cold reads across multiple videos.

@Salvijus You beat me to it, you scoundrel! But I have MORE TO ADD So, this clip you linked above is for the 2027 'object' that's been banging around recently. Interestingly enough - I remember when Jeremy Corbell made a statement about a 'lie about a ship coming in 2027' - conversation below Could be nothing - could be a direct link and reference. Jeremy Corbell "Your government now wants you to know one truth, and that truth is that UFOs are real. They've already done told you. Sometimes, when you want somebody to know a truth, it's so you can set them up to believe a lie, and that's coming. I have zero doubt that lie is coming." Producer: "What is the lie?" Corbell: "Specifically, you want me to say it right now, for real, real? On camera, to be put in the show?" Producer: "Yes." Corbell: "Okay. Problem with that: If we tell the lie before it's told, they can adapt. That wouldn't be wise. I'll tell you privately, but I would really think about if you want to put this in your show. For real. That's a real thing I'm telling you. So, will you think about it before putting it in your show?" Producer: "Absolutely." Corbell: "Okay. So UFOs are real, and they've been here a long time, and that's the truth. But the lie is coming. All indications, like ALL of them, is that that lie is going to be that there is a craft slowly making its way to us here on Earth. And that is the lie they're gonna want you to believe. "It's nuanced, how they explain that, the nature of that threat. But that 100 f**king percent is the lie you are going to be told. You even got a date. People been whispering a date for a long time now. I know where that lie comes from. I know, specifically, what document from the 70s initiated the idea of that lie. A classified document. That is the lie you will be told. You're gonna be told that there is a craft on its way to Earth. That's the lie. "Maybe I'm wrong. Hope I'm wrong. I sent you two texts today with a year (Messages showing 2027 are shown on a cell phone). Not from me. Nope, I'm not gonna propagate that lie. I'm not gonna be part of it, I'm not going to say it to the camera. Everybody knows. Just start paying attention. And they'll change the date - especially if they see this - things will change. Because maybe I'm trustworthy, maybe I'm worthy of your trust, maybe I've told you the truth the whole way through it and now and you can verify it. If that's the case, then I'm f**king dangerous. "You've been told the truth about UFOs for a long time now. It's been pretty orchestrated, it's been pretty clear, and it's using people that are telling the truth and wanna tell the truth. Ultimately, they want you to know something. They want you to know UFOs are real. Thank God, we're finally there, we're all there now. They want you to know the truth. But why [do] they want you to know that truth now. I hope I'm wrong, but it's terrifying. Think about it "Maybe it's good to get ahead of it, call it out now, before they do it. I'll be called crazy. That's okay."

I've read the Book of Not knowing twice over. Re-reading juices these books for more every time...

Yes! I copy in external ones - like SO! 😈 But to do so requires my phone's assortment or searching + ctrl v, ctrl c

DUDE YEZZZZ That book was great. It's not just about sexual seduction - it applies all over the place. I use techniques from it in all facets of life. Great recommendation

OP have you seen anyone die a natural death? Underneath the ego is consciousness. God. There is no ego becoming anything - the ego is just survival. When you pass away there is no more need for survival. So the ego sloughs off. The body comes into a state of being as brain functions slow and cease. You witness this ego dissolve, and a state of pure being shine out of the dying person. Unmistakable presence of God. It's the same in the birthing process. Have you seen that? I saw my little brother being born. The big flaw in your post is that you think when the ego ceases there is still this 'thinking' 'concepts'. There is no thinking going on to 'convince ego it is God'. That's gone. Honestly seeing someone die a natural death with show you in a way no words can. How do you even know you are in your body? You just assume that. Your consciousness under the ego could be located well outside the material containment of your body. You're all backwards here. Upside down and inside out.

Now now now. The real important question is - would we fuck the robots if they had a temperature controlled, self-lubricating fleshlight installed... where it counts?

@Xonas Pitfall The funny thing is - baboons are actually violent and terrifying. They are well known to rip the skin off people's faces...

Haha man the whole spiritual community is choking on his cock at this point - they tried and now it's all too much Every time I go back to YouTube the algorithm vomits up more

I find it very difficult. It has been getting easier when engaging in more prolonged meditation practice. Half the issue is the rapid nature of thought. My awareness of the thoughts is slower than the thoughts themselves. It's a constant attempt to bring the speed of the two together. Again it comes down to what I want to get out of the practice - because I have 3 types I go between: dreamstates/hypnagogic work, sessions where I want to stop all thought, and sessions where I just want to witness and keep up. To be honest I only make headway when I go HARDCORE. Like no stimulus. No music. Sit and stare at the letter A for an hour until everything is moving like a mirage. Until I don't even know what the thing is I am staring at. My concept of the letter A dissolves. Awareness and being is then raised to a level I can witness the ping ping ping of constant thoughts like notes. When that happens the thoughts are perceived as slower - so I can sort the wheat from the chaff, so to speak... This is why trying to sing a song or recall a song in my mind is good fun - I can't really think at the same time I play the song in my mind. Too many thousands of notes. Like the thousands of thoughts... I think of it like a dog's sense of smell... they live in another world. Humans blind to it. Something there we simply have no sense for - OR - have we just not refined the sense enough? OR - have we not removed enough of the cataract of survival to perceive and sense?

@Emerald I can say I am more solitary than most. And I have had periods in my life of no contact with others - a month at the maximum. I was only able to endure it because there was a goal and meaning - making solitude very tolerable. I need depth of connection. So quality shits on quantity for me. And it only needs to be one person. In lieu of that - most of my casual social needs are met through going out alone. Art shows. Jazz clubs. Conventions. Taking the laptop or sketchpad to a cafe. People watching in large energy spaces with little contact. Just witnessing. These acts satisfy much of my social needs when I am more isolated. I don't need to interact per se, just witness.

Yeah hell, yeah I mean, I agree here totally. I am good enough at reading others - they broadcast intentions through actions rather than words. I really appreciate when someone uses leverage for that effortless outcome. When a man takes charge and I am comfortable I sink into playful femininity. Otherwise I am taken out of that element which reduces sexual tension and play - I want the masculine/feminine contrast in that situation. I don't want to be a boss bitch any more than I have to (I don't even enjoy it at work, but I have to put on the red stilettos for that role. Again its just a roleplay to me and I switch off immediately when done). In fact, skilfully navigating someone to sex - the final act is a nod to masculinity itself by consummation. A confirmation by action that skilful manipulation was utilized. Provided both parties are mature and aren't approval seeking that is. I use the term manipulation here without any negative associations.

I get around it. I am similar in mindset. You're method, I imagine, would also serve other purposes. My diet is simple, structured, regimented. I don't need to think about it. I just do it. It frees up an unimaginable amount of time and energy. No thinking. Just being and doing. Better on the wallet. Honestly most people just have NFI how much time and energy they spend on thinking about food. What to have? The next meal. Using it as a reward. Cooking, shopping... etc. All related to decision fatigue. Endless options. You might not be like this. People don't understand how I do so much with my time. But it comes down surgically removing anything that wastes energy.