Natasha Tori Maru

This is a judgement. It misses the point. Trauma can change where you derive meaning. People who have overcome trauma aren't necessarily glorifying it, but reclaiming sovereignty and authorship from something that once stripped them of control. It doesn't have to have any attachment to a story involved for it to change trajectory. In the end much of this work is about dissolving conditioning - which can be trauma.

This is a great share and reflects a lot of my own journey. Just in a different domain. I feel a great motivation and compulsion to prevent physical, sexual and emotional abuse in my workplace and in interpersonal relationships. Healing also taught me how important boundaries are to wellbeing and our ability to serve ourselves first, so we can always be there for, and give back to, others. Be our best for others. And this means never abandoning ourselves. We put on our own oxygen mask in a flight emergency first. I often step in to prevent abuse and issues. But not at my own expense and always best outcome mutually. I myself, previously, took a lot of pride in my ability to withstand negative pressure and environments. Pride in my resilience. But this pride was something I had to learn to discard as often people make themselves martyrs. And it has the propensity to enable abuse that can cause trauma 'I can handle his violence'. Many people fall prey to taking pride in their ability to withstand abuse. I tend to reach out and assist those who display those previous traits I had, to prevent unconscious trauma. Sometimes I cannot stop myself. Healing from trauma can give one a saviour complex that can also be detrimental in other ways. It is a good warning not to make ones healing from trauma (and attachment to story) a huge focus. It can hold us back in other ways we do not foresee.

See here: Discussed extensively in the post above.

@integral Thats fair - I just note that is not typically what most people refer to as their definition of trauma. Samskara is a good word for it - an emotional echo that leaves a malfunctioning pattern in our thinking and behaviour after the event. Like a broken program running on a loop, inhibiting the sufferer from functioning. I think it physical and emotional trauma should be a distinction. For example - I have a TBI. Physical trauma. I also had CPTSD.

I am not sure about that. I was terribly damaged and non-functional as a result of what I endured. It was diagnosed as CPTSD by medical professionals. I have since healed recovered from CPTSD. Does this mean I did not suffer a traumatic event? Trauma is not an official, formal diagnosis. Trauma is a deeply distressing event that overwhelms an individual’s ability to cope. @Lila9 100%

It can go both ways. It appears to be linked to genetics (how we respond, which predispositions are activated). Some people recover and others do not. Sink or swim. The trauma I suffered made me who I am today - and I am infinitely stronger and have a better idea of who I am. What I am capable of. And where my limits are. My siblings all endured the same situation that lead to the trauma - but two of them ended up addicts, with severe panic disorders, anxiety and CPTSD. My younger brother and I walked away okay. How each person responds is totally different.

They didn't cause the rage. You did.

Whaaaaat!? Do you think you would have a different experience (IE deeper, more gravity) if you had watched Breaking Bad then Better Call Saul?

@Breakingthewall unsure what you are trying to communicate.

Equal for me - symbiotic. I treat them as one big series.

I shall take up the mantle of sacrifice and report anything noteworthy 🥹💀

Honestly, I feel stupid for being so pig headed - but I hate the name of it also 😭

@Ramasta9 I think I am pointing to - where is the evidence? These are all hearsay accounts as far as I see it. How do we know it is not a giant echo chamber with nothing tangible behind it all? I notice patterns also - this does not always mean something is real. Our minds fill in gaps - our minds actually make stuff up to fill in these gaps. And without real, direct evidence to substantiate these claims other than 'vibes' - what do we actually have?

Nice. Melbourne restaurant.

Can you show me?

@Leo Gura @Carl-Richard hly chit STAHP Dead. Sides. GONE Couldn't get into Pluribus, personally.

This is such a common conspiracy theory I simply never trust that any reading as such is genuine. It is like Chinese whispers heard from one person and then projected to the next. If you described the vibe you got using sensation and feeling details I would find it legit. But just slapping the reptilian distinction on it screams conspiracy woo. 100% it's just picked up from someone else. This is an interpretation. I would consider described sense data as much more accurate. And this is coming from someone who has had experience with the Mantis beings. It's not like I don't know there are other beings out there. But I question legitimacy when it's an 'evil' entity label literally everyone defaults to.

I accept your apology, but I don't accept condescension. I am not trying to undermine you or claim you 'need' to maintain a 'stance' or that you might be 'attached' to an identity. I don't need reassurance that I might feel destabilized by your worldview; I need you to recognise a boundary. We can respect that without the need to condescend.

@Xerces 🎯 👽

@YIDIRYIDIR sounds like 'play' mindset? Leo has some great advice around that - a few blog posts floating here and there too!

Construction actually - but most of construction is based around massive legal contracts. Big money sums usually mean astronomical contacts with hundreds of clauses. I am very wary of what I sign, and what I authorise the business to sign. LLMs are great at translating and summarising the loopholes and red flags 🙂

You aren't approaching anything here in good faith or to have a conversation. You just want to insist on your worldview. Attachment to our story can and often does produce emotional reaction. Your attempt to debunk has fallen into reductionism. This is my stance. It's not going to change. Don't waste your energy.

Some of the contracts I have with clients are 200-300 pages long, part of my job is administering them. I use AI to help understand some jargon - really helps !

Plug it into AI and prompt for the parts you need to watch for? Or common trips?

Where did I say this? It's possible to not get angry when someone cuts one off in traffic. It's possible to get angry when one cuts one off on traffic.