Natasha Tori Maru

As I got further in, I notice the women's responses - it almost seems like this process destroyed their boundaries. As if giving at the expense of yourself and your needs was the honest and most honorable thing to do? A form of self betrayal. To pretzel yourself into what someone else needs. It appears this also caused them to trauma bond. They are taking pride in the trauma they have been through. As if being able to endure that is a signal of strength. I see so many brilliant women truly think enduring a horrible relationship or abuse, is a signal of strength. They stay in terrible abusive situations and wear it like a badge of honour Aubreys face is like... dupers delight?

Do you mean stylish, instead of luxury? I only point this out as I am familiar with luxury meaning 'something that is not essential but provides pleasure and comfort'. Expensive or hard to obtain. Which leads into the point of the post, that the irrational consumerism of society leads to striving for excess, at the expense of all sense.

Agree. Genuinely feel people are going to want affirmation and praise over truth and accuracy. The AI I have used is set to be surgically truthful, and even then it has this tendency to want to validate. I don't care for that as it's not what I use it for...

This is a great paper on the recursive, self reinforcing nature of large language model models (LLM, like chatGPT) that highlights how the echo chamber they create can be perilous, when not coupled with really sound reasoning, logic and analytical skills. The title of the paper is 'Neural howlround’ in large language models: a self-reinforcing bias phenomenon, and a dynamic attenuation solution. https://arxiv.org/pdf/2504.07992 Thoughts?

Do not consider suicide an option. Firstly, if you are thinking about this - please seek professional help. Secondly - do you really want to commit such an act to your body, or do you just want this current phase of your existence to end? Most of my friends who went through suicidal ideation didn't really want to die, they wanted to end their current circumstances. 24 years old is so young.... please know, your existence, just existing... is valid. You don't actually have to do anything at all in life, you are worthy and allowed to just be. That is so OK. We are all children in different stages of an aged body... free to play and do whatever we want. Free to love and be loved. You may not have received this message that you are valid and OK to just exist, free of the cycle of needing to pretzel yourself into something for someone else. But that is what you should have been shown when growing up. The only reason I say the above is because you seem very caught up in needing to be useful. Successful... needing to be anything other than the bright, vibrant & beautiful being that you ARE. Just be that, because its worthy. You have time to make small changes - every small change and hurdle you overcome prepares you for the next one. But truly I want you to reach out and seek help <3

I couldn't get past the first 20 minutes. 'This relationship constellation' 'Everything is in relationship. Down to atoms in relationship.. and what are they in? Crisis. Relationships are in crisis' LeTs inSeRT sUm SCiEnce, tO mAkE iT SoUnD LeGIt

You are choosing to walk a path of honour, integrity and respect. And while life isn't a vending machine where you put good shit in and good shit comes out, the good you do is going to pay dividends. Spiritually, personally. If you are gifted to feel compelled to assist others you must do so. Otherwise that gift will backfire on you, go inwards and hurt you. You being aware of the systematic effects of your families behaviour is the key to keeping you aligned to this greater good of helping others. YOU will go to sleep at night at peace. YOU will finish a hard days work feeling satisfied. You won't even want anything in return They will not experience peace like that. Think of accepting their gifts as them passing some form of energy to you - you are going to take it and use it to help you in assist others.

* nodding* I think a process of appreciation & gratitude is an asset for cases such as glass toilet bowl lady. If she appreciated what she has, she may not be locked in wonton & ostentatious consumerism!

My god it better be frosted glass, who would want to see their turds from all angles?

Absolutely killed it, this is my understanding. The mathematics behind it are what speak to me and mirror my experience & understanding.

Do it boy, spill your guts and tell us all the dirty spiritual secrets you unlocked 😈 On a serious note, do share if you are comfortable with that level of e-intimacy. I love hearing about peoples experiences on retreats

Ohhhh nonono - we need a Leo Gura vs the forum heavyweights round robin like this. Everyone seated around him waiting to try to get the claws in The topic can be: solipsism. Just to really heckle peoples jimmies

Yeah this is what I have had revealed to me, and seen myself.

10-4 Red Leader Sharpening the tools

@Leo Gura You removed your video on solipsism (it has been since reuploaded). I personally have no issue with fear on the topic. Are you considering this one of your teachings? I am just trying to understand your intent with driving into this topic. It seems you are trying to school others here, and this doesn't marry up to your previous stance that it was 'too advanced'.

I simply have had a different experience to this. I have had awakenings to reveal something else. Can't really do anything with that as it is just what I have seen.

I love this mental topic. Absolute level of consciousness? Sure solipsism. Relative individuated consciousness? Negative.

Holy fucken shitballs at the nuclear testing post. Makes me SICK regarding the animals. I didn't know about the animals... just the testing. No wonder the aliens are not coming to say hello to us Reminds me of Laika the first dog in space: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Laika She cooked alive on the 4th day in space, I believe. I just think of her alone. Dying... Man I CANT EVEN. RAGE INDUCING.

@Xonas Pitfall I do so graciously thank you ! This one was metal as fuck I loved it. We originally had some piping and more Giger-esc stuff going on, but it detracted from the focus (textiles). I love the arts scene and working with photographers. I have some other contact reels from shoots, and some more sketches and paintings. I will trickle feed

Some more - oil on canvas. I have posted these previously, but like the donkey I am I didn't see this thread >.< Ignore the purple haze (ha!) on the black-friday tree burning one, I forgot to turn off the RGB light.

Yeah fuck I know right? I keep thinking maybe its just HD cameras, but life is literally carving him up like a sandblasted bucket

Some collaborative noir modelling stuff - yes I am a bit goth. This was with a textile artist. I had to be sewn in to the top. Mixture of contact reel shots and some formal ones. Robert McManus is the artist/photographer. Obviously I am the model lol

Fucken hell, it's incredible to witness how emotionally charged up he gets when really pinned down. You can see this when the debaters force him to really define his terms. He manages to evade clear definitions with crafty word play. Also, you can see his inability to manage internal frustration. He gets so keyed up he ends up simply attempting to come at the debater with authority by literally telling them off like a child. Then he rides that high of 'winning' to purge the emotion and go back to a calm state. Rinse/repeat. He was really not having it when he felt anyone was steering him into a trap with leading questions. I noticed he was more willing to engage with debaters that were women. He may prefer a softer approach as this lets him remain stoic and a lot clearer in his points. He opened up when he was able to remain in a clean, composed emotional state. It was good when he was able to concede topics outside his scope of knowledge, but I really wanted to see him dissect a point (a point he hasn't thought on expensively) on the fly, as this would have displayed sound reasoning skills. It came across like he didn't want to appear wrong, but you can admit to being wrong and still successfully debate a point. LOTS of ego. Not enough surgical precision of the mind (but that is what I personally admire in men). He got torn apart by some of the men. Couple of those boys were fucken firing on all cylinders! I think he has some great things to say - when he steers in his lane IE psychology etc As an aside I went to one of his talks in Melbourne prior to his explosion into insanity. He has a mighty presence and was very gracious to speak to. He remarked a few times on the fact I bowed when meeting him, he really enjoys signs of respect and manners But I bow to everyone I meet for the first time... Thanks for the share!

The time dimension - users are going to struggle with this because they have no frame without time. My thoughts on this thread so far

I see it as, we are Gods dream. He is the Dreamer. But we are not dreaming each other. We are the fragments that coalesce into matter to house consciousness. God endures, fed, based on the experience created by the friction of all individuated consciousness in tandem.