Natasha Tori Maru

I do not have kids. And I don't want them. And I am not attracted to them. 🙃

Do we think humans evolved and created the advanced civilization we have today by never cooperating and developing good relationships/community? Humanities modern civilization was born from power in numbers. Cooperation. Relationships. Community. This was always our advantage that enabled us to conquer so much of survival and this world, don't we think?

Not resisting the chronic issue - suggesting professional help. Chemical imbalance is what needs to be considered. Unless you are happy to claim you are equipped to deal with suicide, depression and suicidal ideation? Which is the context here. I am saying if the issue is that bad, there could possibly be a neurotransmitter issue/imbalance or serious psychiatric issue at play.

Hahaha 'I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IT IS' Sums it all up!

Most of Studio Ghibli, Cowboy Bebop, Samurai Champloo! Death Note, Neon Genesis: Evangelion, Perfect Blue. Ninja Scroll. Used to be a bit of a weeb - COME FOR ME. But sort of not, because Japanese heritage. And raised with a lot of weird Japanese traditions in my youth from my Dad. Edit: forgot to add why, usually for either beautiful animation, great deep/complex characters or existential themes. Music/score always a big part of it

@Alexop definitely - there is always some skill involved flirting between causing confusion vs contemplation/enquiry. Like being brutally skull fucked with concepts - but in a good way 💀

@Leo Gura How slippery All for good cause

I think you misunderstand me. Quite willfully, I might add. My questions were an attempt to understand your context better - not use answers as ammo to shoot you with. Or to twist you into a guided line of questioning that resulted in a trap. Nothing in this world of language is clear without context. This defensiveness is serving to block you from all intimate contact with others. And it is apparent you desperately want real contact with another human being We are all trying to help you, but you are stubbornly unwilling to consider what others are saying.

This is such a good breakdown - better than my words. I really wish this was taught in school.

Mean this with due respect Leo - but sometimes you come out with statements with context completely removed. Everything becomes clear once you elaborate further after probing. I see it as a function of how language works. I think this is 90% of the confusion caused when you face backlash that questions your reasoning. Context is that tricky shit that defines whether I mean light as in, illumination. Light as in weight. Light as in low fat. I see that happening a lot

Therapy and medication are beautiful assets available to lower the activation energy to execute. Until we can do this on our own, without aid.

@Joshe action of any kind. Just having a shower. Just brushing teeth. 5 minute walk around the block. Engaging physically with reality in any way possible. In the smallest, tiniest ways. Read OPs reply - they are immobilised and bogged down because of THINKING. Thinking is contributing. Any mechanical action is showing the brain that things can be accomplished even if tiny. This is the rewiring. You change the brain from 'i achieved nothing today' to 'I took care of my body, even if nothing else'. The beliefs about 'too hard' don't change with thinking - they change when you physically do something in reality and the brain rewires itself. You essentially teach yourself how to operate through leveraging this in built mechanism. A baby learns to walk through just doing and trying again and again and practicing. One wobbly step one day. Maybe two the next. Baby doesn't think. Baby isn't thinking about one day paying bills and needing money for car payments. Ridiculously thinking too far on the future. The future doesn't even exist! Yet. OP is caught up in some future of big achievements and the weight of it all. THAT is the mind state. The brain gives up and asks 'why, what's the point?' because nothing was done toward this goals. It's not seeing how goals are going to be achieved. Brain doesn't need a huge path outlining the whole future toward being a millionaire. It just needs small actions that accumilate. AND COURAGE TO TAKE THESE SMALL STEPS IN THE FACE OF FEAR. Taking action toward ANYTHING acts as the feedback to change beliefs. Goals are achieved through millions of tiny baby steps. Brain goes 'oh, okay. That wasn't that bad' Millions of tiny actions. Just 2 minutes of breathing. Just one moment to wipe a bench. It translates to actions and execution. Before you know it, execution is reflexive and the energy to activate it is lowered. Body moves. Body does. The body and movement. It is smarter than the brain.

Yeah, she was outstanding. In particular the scene where she repeatedly returned to the mirror to adjust some part of her appearance (for the date when she was in her aged body). The obsessive compulsive outfit and makeup adjustment really captured the revulsion and self hate one can have for their appearance. The constant returning to adjust something due to dissatisfaction. I've actually done exactly that in the past! Just got over it and smeared makeup all over the place and wrecked my hair to spite it all. I also thought they did the visceral extreme closeups and sound detail so well. Cringe and nails on chalkboards feelings of revolsion at eating sounds 🤢🤮

Anyone seen 'The Substance'? Body horror. Went too long, but well done. But also 🤢🤮

@Joshe This is why I said they need a trained professional. Taking action toward small, positive outcomes is not dangerous. It builds momentum.

Fuck, he's full into Oompa Loompa mode isn't he? Are toupees conformity? Just into bald mode and get it over with. Accents are conformity.

Too true! It's... Too quiet. Haven't had to use the administrator kiss of death (instant 20 points) in a minute ay? 💀

I don't claim to understand exactly how it works. It felt like engaging in the radical allowance of feeling/emotion led to some *thunk* moments of gears clicking into place. And over time all those little gears coming into alignment smoothed out the operation of the machine. Precisely as you say! Practice. Everything follows 🎯

The context is construction. Try asking it how to design an anti-ligature hardware doorset with a master keyed cylinder with proper cam and have it all be compatible using different brands of hardware. ChatGPT has no access to standards databases so it will give the most busted answer that wont work in the real world. You can use it for many other things effectively. I never said that was not the case.

The thing is - OP cannot think their way out of a problem the thinking mind created. The one thing possibly not tried is to just act, and asses internal change following action. Not try to internally change and then act. You need to act out, do the thing. Execute. Physically. In reality. The internal change will follow. Trust and surrender. I was taught the method of Kaizen (Japanese Dad): The core idea behind Kaizen for personal development is that making tiny, consistent improvements helps bypass the brain's "fight-or-flight" fear response that often derails large, overwhelming changes. By focusing on a single, almost trivial, action, you build momentum and gradually form lasting habits, with the cumulative effect leading to significant transformations over time. I have always used this method to slowly build momentum out of a funk.

@Carl-Richard No shit, I got this notification as I drowning the giant peace lilly that was looking sad.

I've come across those 2 sources also - great stuff 🤍 Many people misunderstand Ralston's work and interpret what he is saying as bypassing or repression. This is not the case at all. You must radically ALLOW the emotions and move through them. You cannot understand and know them without this step. Repressing them will move one further away from grasping how we generate their heightened activity. I view it as unconsciously white knuckling a ball in our hand without being aware. If you cannot move sensation awareness to the hand that is gripping, how will you ever be able to let go of the ball? You don't even know you are holding it! This is why your awareness needs to go to the emotion, not bypass it. Through it. Allow. Follow it to it's root in thoughts. Reverse engineer the process by investigating so you can stop the mechanism prior to it gripping you. In before all the Ralston/No self haters who claim bypassing 😈😈😈

Hmmm. In my head I ask myself this frequently. I receive many comments I am earnest, genuine and authentic. I wasn't always this way. The transition has occurred over the last 5 years since rekindling the relationship with my father. When I think on the reasons for this feedback, I return to my character being perceived as true expression in the moment. I ensure words align with action. I think people can feel this integrity as power, truth - and humans are drawn to power like moths to a flame. We instinctively reach for power due to conditioning from the survival domain, as it represents safety. When words and actions align and are expressed without need for censure in the moment, it broadcasts strength and resilience. Self confidence and efficacy. That alignment and congruency is like the powerful integrity of carbon atoms in a lattice that make up a diamond. Resilient. Strong. Able to withstand force. Compare that to the higgledy-piggledy out of order carbon atoms in a lump of coal. Brittle. Weak. Breaks under pressure. Both are made of the same stuff - carbon. But the diamond draws you in with strength, power & luminosity. Magnetic radiance. So I think words & actioned aligned, expressed without censure, are a sort of embodiment of personal truth. This truth is powerful. It draws others in with fascination. A responsiveness to reality and a quiet refusal to lie about who you are in order to be accepted. Shame is the protective mechanism that blocks authenticity.

Oh, I wouldn't expect that. In fact, I wouldn't want that! ⁠(͡⁠°⁠‿⁠ ͡⁠°⁠)🖖