Natasha Tori Maru

Yes okay, all well and good. Are you going to explain this and lay out the facts for us all, or act like a gatekeeper of some grand mystery that has the potential to reveal precisely what this phenomenon is? Lots of air and dancing around anything substantial in the post.

Deep sleep.

Yep, this is the Big One. This contemplation eats Just awareness.

@ivankiss the trolling intermingled with the haphazard splattering of earnestness 🤪 He's flirting with the fire. Will he be a good boy

I can deal with some light - but not a lot. 1hr no light kindle or books before sleep. Phone is on flight mode. I wake at 4:50AM every day so I am outside while the sun rises (walking dog + construction 7am start). Sleep by 9pm. I like some sound and need a cold bedroom. Like, really cold. In addition - I can't eat within 3 hours of sleep time because it will fuck up the whole process

Where's the temperature control? Amateur

@Someone here You might like this from John Wheeler - an excerpt from one of his writings. I find you are sensing the futility of spirituality and life. How it all fits. What might be its purpose and application. It came up in my feed randomly and I thought of you: I do not know if you are heavily into non-duality - but this applies to seekers in general.

Basher reports telepathy and mind reading is simply when 2 individuals think exactly alike at a moment in time

@Jowblob At the same time, you could argue that having children is for a higher good for humanity - Leo's mother carried and gave birth to him. Leo then created content to assist humanity elevating its consciousness. So you could argue Leo's mother ALSO did something selfless for humanities higher good. The children we bring into the world - how are we to know what they will then go on to create, put out. Assist. Creativity is humanities birth-right. Einstein's mother/father, Newton's mother/father. They participated in the creation of those individuals that changed the world and assisted humanity. So despite the perhaps selfish individual reasons for having children - from another perspective you could argue the outcome was selfless with how they contributed to humanity. Intention may be selfish - but outcome is selfless. Perhaps it is not so clear cut

That subreddit breaks my heart - I always hope they do not damage the kids through life resentment

One thing I will say about this topic - it has been interesting reading replies. There is so much coming up from user's subconsciousness. It is coming through from them in their posts with zero awareness - precisely because it is in the unconscious mind. Sorry to derail - carry on.

@ivankiss You would hope no one is being led...

Ah right okay - I think your usage of the words has twisted the meaning for me. 'Suffering physically' There is pain, and there is suffering. I sense that you want a cure for pain, suffering, or both. But it is just baked into reality. All we can alter are our perceptions of pain and suffering.

I think so - Hashimoto's can brutalise you systemically. I am BLOODY lucky I do not have CFS as my pathology is in remission. Interesting - are you attempting to look into why you may be drawn to Leo as a projection or a disowning of portions of your psyche? I find examples of myself doing this whenever I judge someone. I am disowning a part of myself and reality externally by judging. So I pay attention to it as it is my brain filtering something out existentially. And I do not want to filter our parts of my reality. I am blocking out something within myself and only choosing to see it outside. The mind is conscious of a lot more than we realise - but we learn to filter it all out in an attempt to 'know' and survive. I am constantly trying to destroy these filters within my spiritual process. Although it can be a hard balance - sometimes I pay attention to things that are irrelevant to survival

I don't like to talk about my plans and goals unless I am trying to figure out a best course of action. Or consulting with someone I deem as an expert or has more knowledge. I have to have a real valid reason to talk about it. A goal. Otherwise, in my 40 years of experience, the dopamine and energy kick of talking about a plan or idea is enough for me to feel as if I had achieved it. I want all that energy and dopamine to be channelled into the task. If I talk about it, I hamstring myself. Rob myself of the energy to actualise it. Plus, I don't really listen to what people say as much in life. I just look at what they do. That shows you their values and beliefs better than any words.

Exactly. Slap a nice little label on it and reduce it down so you can dis-identify it from your egoic beliefs. Voilà! Perhaps you could argue satanism is worshiping and pedestalising some dark deity - but that would be worshipping a concept or belief. So, a falsehood!

The book enquires deeply into things like this. The post above by @Freshta is also a lovely anecdote illustrating it. @Sugarcoat linked a BRILLIANT youtube clip a while ago regarding pain and suffering from someone who suffers cluster headaches (one of the worst types of physical pain). Consider this example found experientially: The force of a large piece of concrete formwork pushes down onto some earth. The pushing force of the concrete down can represent pain. Physical, unavoidable pain. You want to stop this so you try to push the concrete off the soft earth. But as you push - you add a terrible shearing force laterally across the ground between the earth and concrete. Now you have 2 sources of pain. The existing pain pushing down - and the lateral force you are exerting. Heat and friction are added to the downward crushing. This lateral force is you resisting the pain, fighting the pain. This is the suffering component. You are the source of this force, which you exert with good intention - you think this force (suffering) will assist with the pain. But all it does is drain your energy. It actually makes the physical force of the concrete baring down harder to endure, because you are now wasting energy trying to push it aside. This is an example of how suffering and pain can be separate. And it is useful to interocept and self enquire to understand fully what mechanisms are at play internally, which ones we contribute to, and which are part of survival. I argue that you have not made this distinction - yet. I understand you will just repeat your assertion and resist what others are trying to touch on in this thread. And within that resistance, you are actually creating suffering (much like pushing the concrete aside) - you are suffering us all telling you that there is some suffering that is imaginary and avoidable. Ironic, isn't it? You won't get anywhere trying to argue on a forum if you won't even read that Ralston book....

What if Leo cannot have kids? Hashimoto's can fuck you up in ways you wouldn't expect. It's an autoimmune disease where your immune system tries to kill itself. The systematic issues it causes aren't a fun time (I have Hashimoto's also). Why would he disclose if he couldn't? This could be a brutal thing to project. If one cannot have kids, to be told they need to and are missing out is a kick to the guts. Just a new way to frame it, not agreeing or disagreeing 🤪

@UnbornTao Letdown after letdown.... The Simpsons had so much right

https://youtu.be/-JcMhIqBxYg?si=cWpnXzCzmVyghRLO

I agree with this, I don't understand what OP's aim or goal is. It might be helpful if there was a clear reason - as in - is the the listening pathological? Does the user avoid all life responsivities because they just want to listen to music? Are they unable to moderate volume and damaging their hearing? Sound and music are conduits for joy, emotion, feeling. And, speaking for myself, have always been a healthy form of expression. Therapeutic even.

I will add to this - if you post in a forum such as this with big claims, expect to have them pulled apart and dissected. It's not meant as an attack (although coupled with wrong tone it can be perceived as such). Why else would you post but to want to discuss it? We are all here trying to understand so deep enquiry is going to happen. There are plenty of other places on the internet to post if you want to have a belief reinforced. Having said that, it's not an excuse to be mean or derogatory. But you can't post here and expect not to be probed and questioned extensively. We want to understand so these questions attempt to find out, even if laced with doubt. I think @Hojo raised this as well

Fuck why did I do this - I started watching because I love the Alien films. This had so much potential... NGL though, they used that Tool song at the worst part - you'd expect a song about anal fisting to happen when there was FULL ALIEN carnage. But it was the outro... the rights alone would be $$$ Anywho, I'm onto episode 3 with nothing but hopes and dreams left...

@AION Sex =/= damage Virginity is a social construct, not a moral value. 'get a virgin girl' - implying this has some sort of high value you should just delete yourself & your integrity for....

I haven't perceived this as a social expectation. This sounds like a pathological feminine expectation - unique to an unhealthy individual and not a societal expectation. And it applies to both men and women. You are totally fine as a man to be stoic, lead, and to have boundaries. You should feel fine to assert them as such. 'These are my expectations' and mutually agree. Self sovereignty is for all. Also reads like AI AI AI - did you generate it through ChatGPT?