Natasha Tori Maru

@Sucuk Ekmek Absolutely! Mastering the use of black came later in my work. I found it very difficult to work with as I needed a light touch. Which, incidentally, is rather like moderating this forum It is a shame images cannot capture the textures in our works Same! I remember learning this from my grandfather. You learn all the tricks the brain plays with the visual field - and how to work with them to render light, shade etc. I love how being an artist or creator forces us to deconstruct the appearance of everything

I would recommend always staying grounded by looking to your experience. Your thoughts and concepts cannot pollute the raw truth to be found there, as long as you prioritize clarity.

@Dodo I love this one from Rupert, always worth repeat listening as you follow the path

Oh damn, one I haven't heard - anthem to the afternoon 10k run - thank you very much

@ivankiss mate wtf are you linking me my Spotify rotation??? Syncopation and discord are my jam I think I probably have similar taste to you - Bohren and de Club of Gore gets thrashed 😁 Let the sun rise and it's rays burn your rage away

@Beans yeah she has some animalistic essence Who knew a bird riding a giant knife could invoke a FEELING: https://youtu.be/wwjlVlLAyds?si=gwdUYQPzIKhBwKbk

@ivankiss Ikr? Lady heartbreak That album got me through some evil chit Ice cold seduction

This pattern is repeated over and over. Obviously I am not going to go into any wild conspiracy conclusions, but every time there is a huge announcement it coincides with some other chit. Same with that comet people are claiming is an alien spacecraft. Controlled 'disclosure'

Solipsism is cope for consequences 😈 muahahah! Ngl though @Someone here's advice is best: recognise that your thoughts about solipsism are just a bad habit. Something you do automatically without consciously deciding to. That is all. You aren't plagued by solipsism 'oh the thought! It befalls me, oh no!'. It's simply a mind fixation - it's a compulsion exactly like OCD. A thought compulsion. You have control over it. In addition - you recognise it is unfalsifiable yes? The survival mind wants certainty. It craves it. So it can feel secure. Safe. Ensure survival. Solipsism is activating the amygdala into overdrive which is why you are obsessed with the idea. But please don't hurt yourself ❤️ As much as we all fight about this topic, we are actually all here because we share genuine interest in truth. Gotta love all the peeps here for that 🙂

So the answer is 'you already are' No wonder AI vomits up dump truck answers - it's the sum of the binjuice of humanities left overs 💀🤣

@Salvijus

You could look at all of the above... as mini 'deaths', no? If we take death to mean - end. Because I feel the same as you - only I consider all of that death But! I do not obsess about it. I am committed to its inevitability. It WILL happen to me. Knowing this dismisses a lot of the thoughts around it. If we are talking about just the end of the subject-object experience permanently? No obsession for me

Absolutely. I really try to figure out just how one can become more resilient to stress. I lead and train the team I work with at the office - and it is HIGH stress. A revolving door for people who cannot do construction from the back end and handle it. It is a big one for me - I can only come to the conclusion it is nature & nurture. I think by nature I am confident and resilient - toward the higher end of the spectrum. I always took this to be a product of my experience; I have seen some evil shit. Been through evil shit. And have a massive capacity for stress. I used to labour under the assumption this arose in me because of hard challenges in my past. Each horrible thing I experienced very much prepared me for the next challenge. And so on and so forth. Until I had such a high capacity for stress, I struggle to even comprehend it myself - especially retrospectively. And so, because I overcame so much and became stronger - I went through life assuming anyone who faced challenges could reframe and grow from it. Siphon out the positive from any bad experience and learn the lessons to be had there. I projected this onto others. A 'golden shadow'. I truly believed everyone could do this and boy oh boy was I HARD on people when they fell short. Then I begun working with my sister. She went through similar trauma as me, the same environment. She was exposed to slightly less horror I will say. But she has no capacity for stress. She suffers from anxiety attacks with only a slight push. She isn't able to see positive from past experiences unless they made her happy in totality. She constantly worries how she will be perceived. Worries for her safety - won't walk down the street in the dark. Worries about how a cashier will think of her order - similar to your friends pathology around going to McDonalds in the dark. Bit long winded - but in the example above, it illustrates how 2 family members can be exposed to the same trauma and walk away with totally different understandings and lessons. And our responses could not be more different - I have no regret and am stronger as a result; she feels she has had an unfair and bad life, and has been weakened. Our minds did totally different things with the experience... all in the mind. And indeed, how strange our minds are! I can tell you though - my sister lets our past define her. And define her future. I do not. I don't even think on it. Unless to reveal a story such as above to illustrate a point. I have no attachment to my past. I recognize it as a story about someone. It doesn't limit me. I have no attachment there... So I can see how spirituality has altered my mind and how I have been able to reframe my experience in a way my sister simply cannot. And she is not interested in spirituality, nonduality, inquiry - any of it. Looping back to @Someone here - I think he could be in a great position to tackle the stress of addiction head on, because he is in a relatively good position (from what I gather, I do not know all of his circumstances) to do so. He can build resilience to stress while he has stability in other areas. Because if there is one thing I know in life - it comes to fuck you in the arse with no condom in a sudden and shocking way. Your whole existence and way of being can be deleted at the drop of a hat.

What stood out to me here was the level of resistance to seeking out bread to eat (survive). I think with the removal of nicotine you will have to face that stress (as well all do) and then work on acclimating until it is a norm and not an issue to deal with. Easier said than done, I understand. But that passage was an interesting contrast to my own, as stress for me only arises when serious physical injury or sickness comes about. There was a time when I endured stress from situations you describe - but then life came and fucked me up so hard the reality check was brutal. I do not say this to minimise your struggle. Because the mind and physical addiction is up there. More as an observation that every small challenge you smash prepares you for the next 🙏🌱

@ivankiss Ha ha ha - you need to file a restraining order against that big brain boy. Alexa: If all my experience of everything is inside, behind my eyes, in my nose, in my ears - why do we think reality and matter is outside?

❤️ There are no mistakes I really enjoy you dont use a lot of black - I consider it a bit of a rooky mistake

We are the Succulent Chinese Meal 🤪 This man knows enlightenment:

@theoneandnone I don't draw any conclusions but remain open 🫠 If you listen to Bashar for any length of time, Daryl could reasonably have gone deep down into eastern and western spirituality and used multiple sources to build a worldview, and used the 'channeling' aspect as a platform to become a 'teacher'. A lot of what Bashar teaches is taken from current spiritual teachings and methods we already know. He just makes them accessible - digestible - to a western audience. He also translates them into something a bit more actionable. There is a shitload of crossover between this and then Law of One (another channeled entity, Ra). The main difference being the LoO material is a lot denser and difficult to understand. And some is REALLY far out there. You have to be exceptionally open to not dismiss it. Some dialogues are so dense you have to spend time rereading it in different states for meaning (which could be said for most teachings, heh) I just look at them as more pointers - pointers similar to Zen, Jesus, Buddah, Tantra, Vedanta etc

@integral thanks for the insights ❤️ My girl hasn't been neutered. I just deal with her cycles and it's not an issue. I learned to manage like any other part of life. And IT IS life. She is not here at my convenience. I too am worried about having her fixed. It doesn't make sense removing an essential part of them, although I face a lot of judgement for not fixing her. I am consistently accused of being a bad pet owner. I cook all her food. It did a lot of research around what dogs can eat and cannot before I begun... But I noticed her digestion prior any allergies or skin issues. She hasn't had anything like that thankfully. But my vet has spoken about terrible bumps, skin rashes, eye issues. Scratching. Cancer/immune issues. She is very intelligent, but also burdened with what she sees owners do. Most dogs are really overweight as well. My girl doesn't have any sort of twitching or scratching as per your elaboration above. She is a poodle so prone to ear infections (floppy ears) - but I noticed when I begun cooking all her food her earwax buildup went down. No issues at all there. One of the biggest things I did note was her behaviour and training improved as soon as I changed her diet. Her anxiety went down, less destructiveness, more receptive to training. More attentive and better interactions with strange dogs. I do not use any scented products in my apartment either. I get a blocked/stuffy nose if I use anything of the sort. I am hyper aware of this as dogs smell on a level we could never understand. It's a pain in the arse cosmetics wise for me 🤪. I've almost eliminated everything because there are scents and additives I cannot be sure of. I'll keep observing

Enlightenment or awakening? You walk unmarked paths through the deep forest, and it is dark for a time. Fear will come up because the ground isn't known. Brambles to trip on, steep declines, slippery rocks. I only say the above because it is common and natural to feel fear. If you let yourself feel this fear (and you should, repression will block your access to other emotions also) is it the Unknown? Everything you know, how to be, is dissolving. Take a look into the fear - it won't actually hurt you, despite what your mind might think. Many people do not realise that allowing feelings does not pose a threat to us. It just appears this way 🙂 Uncertainty runs the opposite direction to survival. And survival is all about certainty.

@integral have you extended your research to include animals yet? Dogs and cats are displaying ridiculous amounts of health issues and cancer - rates and incidents have been on the rise. I thought it prudent to point this out as their bodies are much smaller than us, and reach toxic capacities much much quicker. The vet that I take my dog to researches this on the side. I haven't contributed much to your conversation but I have been reading what you present 👍

I'm over here harvesting that shit like a golden datamine

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We may just end up mutually disagreeing - I still do not think force is the most important/fundamental element. It is part of the method. It still remains that wisdom, intelligence and good information can act towards an informed decision - in which case action is taken to change potential to kinetic (the force). Without the above - wisdom, intelligence, information - a simple force in action with no clear intention acts to increase entropy and not achieve anything. So, I feel it is a combination of energy, wisdom and force - as opposed to one (force) being fundamental In retrospect I sort of approached this assuming I would be treated as a disembodied voice making claims in cyberspace: I couldn't expect you to know I am a bit prickly and battle hardened in the idea-dissection arena And the approach you have with respect to women is an intelligent one - in real life, for sure. It just might not apply on a spiritual forum spearheaded by a brutally candid and blunt leader ! I think I just do not want to you lose out on potentially revelatory conversation due to my avatar and name bringing baggage. And I do not want to lose out, either. I am similar in behavior; many years of life have taught me I can be much more candid with men (which is my natural way), but with women I need to be concerned with what feelings arise and backing off accordingly.