Natasha Tori Maru

@aurum breakfast 😈💀 IM GOING IN

Some of the shit Jim Carrey spits makes me think he has had an experience also

@Ramanujan My real life work is all people, meetings, phonecalls. Deadlines, project cost blowouts, late deliveries, yelling clients. It's very stressful for most people. The forum and dealing with issues here is like a happy break believe it or not... People used to be more of an issue for me. With time you will develop better skills with them 😊 Once you realise everyone just wants something, and you learn to quickly work out what that is - you have the choice to give it to them or just turn away. Most people just don't stick with the problem long enough to find a solution or develop mastery

This is a good assessment. In my 20s I saw lots of this dynamic - within my social circle one guy was very attractive and sought after by the women. He fucked it all up by banging with them all behind their backs. Basically, shit in the paddle pool. My girlfriends at the time all wanted this guy, and all seriously thought they had something special and individual with him - they were all hiding the fact they were fucking him from each other. Mental. I think there is a huge hurdle for incels that is almost insurmountable. Social isolation and the insular way modern society is structured enables reclusiveness to an extreme degree that can retard social growth. And without the social rapport with women the only draw cards are flashy qualities like looks, charm, humor etc. Clubs, bars. My perspective is limited because I always operated in social circles and saw sex and dating from that lens. I only stopped being in romantic relationships by choice. I decided to work on myself for a while. I actively dropped my social circles as they no longer served me. But the fact *I* made the choice is the difference between currently feeing content - and feeling like I have no control and operate from scarcity. Being on this forum opened my eyes to the plight of men who aren't as socialized out of consequence.

I don't have a limiting mindset with this tenure - I look at as a way to assist with the growth of others on the forum. Overall contribute here to raise the collective consciousness. Sometimes you have to be the arbitrator of consequences to achieve a goal - in this case moderating a forum to create an open peaceful environment to explore reality. Maybe actualized.org will reach a critical mass... singularity to swallow itself into infinity😈 Plus, I'm the oldest of 5 siblings and work in construction. I'm used to giving it to people ... with padded gloves of course! But I don't hesitate to call you on your shit. I know I can be prickly, especially when I don't have any rapport with the person. But I feel I am fair. Managing a business taught me that. Also, it's a nice way to pay it forward to Leo, who's many varied perspectives have assisted me along the way. Even though I don't always agree

Yeaahhhhhhh hell yeah all thank you There are other female mods I thought? I appreciate! I try to present alternate perspectives. But mostly I'm all about action... action action get it DONNNNNEEEEEE

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Literally and metaphorically CRUSHED IT ! From the not knowing comes effortless power

Yes I cop immense shit for not drinking. People attempt to shame you 'Oh loosen up' 'Have some fun'. It's basically because your teetotalism shames THEM, so they project back onto you. They feel you are morally judging them when no. I just don't want it. Simple. It's about me. Not YOU. Plus, aussie drinking culture and construction go hand in hand... its fever pitch over here...

Well said and to add on - a lot of the cerebrilizing the whole issue and trying to form a system/frame to understand ends up causing limiting beliefs. Excessive 'thinking' try to resolve the issue FEELS like action - when in actuality these men aren't out socializing. There's a lot of psychology behind talking about things feeling like actually taking action and triggering dopamine. Don't feed that system with talk. Act. You overcome fear through action. Not thought. Exposure therapy aims to desensitise one to fears. That mechanism works to reduce fear so you can build state. I highly suspect many of the red pill men just aren't socialising enough. And that is evidenced by lack of anecdotes with detail from memory. All based on vague observations and pilled content designed to disempower and sell you something. Preying on vulnerability.

I understand this. I raw dog reality now - no substances (unless you mean coffee which is almost a psychedelic to my system it is so potent). Bourbon turns me into a fucken demon. I have permanent injury/scars to my ears from getting into fights with women at clubs. Think me poking people eyes and getting thrown out. I lost most of the integrity of an earlobe because my fighting partner got to my dangly earing... Wine makes me sloppy and sleezy. Gin makes my giddy, hyper and focussed. Tequila I black out quickly. Needless to say you can see why I quit....

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A Caveat About Corruption I had a think about this and how it branches out to reality. Integrity in existential realms as a reflection of consciousness. Lets have a construction analogy shall we? You know when you walk down the concrete footpath? Have you ever looked at how it is formed? There are lines running at fairly regular intervals (see below). These are called control joints in construction terms. We use them everywhere as a way to work with the integrity (that word again) of materials. The saying is 'if its concrete - it cracks'. These control joints are there as a way to mitigate the damage done when using concrete as a material. We are essentially working with the material we have to make it more effective over its lifetime. We KNOW this material will crack - the joint is there so when it cracks, it will crack long the joint. The flaw will be contained in a controlled manner. If you look closely at your sidewalk, you will probably notice these cracks within the joint. They prevent the slab of the concrete from cracking in ways that destroy its structural integrity (which could cause damage below to irrigation, services being hit, becoming a trip hazard etc). Think of your own integrity now - honesty. Where you have to make compromises in life to achieve certain ends. You work with what you have at the time, and do your best to be honest, authentic and true in your dealings. Sometimes you might have to intelligently place a 'control joint' in your integrity (your concrete) - a way to acknowledge you must compromise truth to achieve some end. By intelligently placing these control joints, you can minimise the structural damage to your integrity as a person as you move through reality. You are aware of where you have placed these joints. You will find as you progress up through life - all matters that don't mean anything will fall away. You empty. As you do so you refine the material you are made of. You hammer the structure to be stronger. The loosely scattered bonds of carbon in the coal become orderly. Like that of a diamond. A lattice of carbon atoms - strong - effective - functional. Pure. But in the meantime, if you got concrete, work with it. Lay the control joints while you refine the way to the diamond within. But be aware of where you are placing them, and be intentional and thoughtful. Like an engineer would be when designing the sidewalk. Engineer your life. There you go that's my existential crisis while walking to work, thanks for that LEO

I think Lue Elizondo is a corrupt arse government psyop agent - but this interview below was enjoyable/interesting. Really curious when they bring up Jim Ryder - Vice President at Lockheed Martin https://www.linkedin.com/in/jim-ryder-a243a910/ In a talk he did available on Youtube, he speaks about love, consciousness... no separation, illusion of 'otherness'. God as formless essence. Love as a higher order power. Interesting you have the vice president of Lockheed Martin speaking on these topics. I believe he is involved with their Skunk Works division. For anyone who doesn't know - the Skunk Works division is Lockheed Martins advanced aircraft aerospace engineering branch. @CARDOZZO - you might like this

I can't stop laughing 😜 I'm sure he will try! Otherwise he can tap into consciousness and channel to somone to complete it - a la Bashar or the Ra material

I think the sentiment behind the communication was that the forum is good for information, concepts and ideas. But ultimately spirituality and the truth is one's own internal practice. Away from the forum is where the work is. Great place to learn, but without genuine self insight and practice nothing is being verified. Further to this, often the debates devolve into ego battles, rather than genuine attempts to resolve understanding. Sort of working in the opposite direction 🙃 I could be wrong in my interpretation of @CARDOZZO here.

@Schizophonia Do you genuinely mean submissive - or receptive? There is a difference between the two, assuredly I see many users here - and individuals in the world at large - claim submissive as a feminine quality. I experience this embodiment as receptiveness. Openness. As opposed to submissive. This has been my experience in mature relationships, free of powerplay dynamics, due to a foundation of honesty. Just my 2c 🙃

New crop circle - Frieding, Nr Andechs, Germany. 20th July, 2025

Do you want me to elaborate on feminine expression in general or my actual experience of my femininity as an embodiment? I am happy to answer either !

Good points. People are like electrons - path of least resistance.

RIP Sabbath and Zeppelin were huge for me as a tadpole. Best gentle serene Sabbath song:

I feel attacked.... yep aussie >.< My advice is: trust your gut and don't be afraid to push back. Supers, project managers and even clients will push you to ignore safety to meet a deadline. It happens every day. The building industry is corrupt on many levels - flouting safety is common. And sad.

@Mada_ Wow, yeah. Ok. HELL YEAH Do it. I work in construction - so we subcontract out to the services trades. You can pursue consciousness work and creativity while also doing a trade. In fact - if you grasp the right insights into the material reality of what you are doing correctly, you will find overlap with electrical manual work, creativity and truth. In the field you will always have plans issued from consultants, but there are many ways to creatively find solutions given constraints. Many ways to skin a cat, is the saying I would highly recommend aiming for commercial work. Domestic work is fraught with shitfights and clients withholding pay. They have you by the balls. Commercial can be slow to pay - but they always cough up. Even better if you can get your foot in the door with state/federal work. Most of what you learn will be A/C I suspect. DC definitely for data - but you probably have a good grasp of DC already if you are musical. You sort of have to with any electric work + music. Custom pedals for guitars, amps etc. I've repaired a few! I used to work in an electronics store, so I love all electrical stuff within my work. I've even designed some performance solutions for hospitals based on what I have picked up (obviously consultants and BS pass this, but it was my design and proposal). Good luck with the Ralston course. I am green with envy!

I take huge issue with the beauty industry and what it sells women as a whole. I find it disgusting. It embeds the belief one IS their body. It encourages attachment to the self. This really does a number on women's psychology - society teaches them to reduce themselves. They aren't whole. Preys on vulnerability to sell them something they do not need. And unfortunately, the ingrained desire to 'fit in' due to survival mechanisms is actually being leveraged and used against them. The perpetual use of fillers and botox make it a new normal. Anyone that doesn't conform is viewed as having something wrong with them. Weaponizing vulnerability to make money. All of it is about non-acceptance of what IS. Reject the self in pursuit of another, better self. Having said the above - it is the mentality behind it I dislike. Because as a woman myself, I partake in beauty regimens. I enjoy them for the creativity they afford me. So I must be very aware of where I am engaging in a process that is negatively impacting me. Most of these pursuits I engage in for me, as I do not appear normal to others. Conforming is not the intent (for myself). I was raised by an artist and this mentality is baked into me. He encouraged 'self decoration' as a creative way to express myself. But I still need to regularly question my motives. Lucky I place much more importance on other aspects of being and have very little attachment to my physical self (comparatively speaking). I focus on mastery of reality through skills and sovereignty. Thanks for the shares

If this possibility exists - all this tech would be with the defence contractors and be compartmentalised into oblivion. Lockheed, General Electric, Northrop, RTX etc The government wouldn't have the capacity to keep such a thing secret. We do this in construction - subcontract out to multiple fabricators, and find unique ways to apply carpentry via the site supervisors for a cost effective and hardy solution. The alternative being, have one subcontractor perform the service/fabrication in its entirety (lower quality control, higher cost). This way I can reduce costs and win more contracts with the client due to the secretive methods we use. Sometimes this method is used when we are constructing something unique for the government that requires sensitivity. tapping out now cos conspiracy theory stick coming >.<