Natasha Tori Maru

@Xonas Pitfall The funny thing is - baboons are actually violent and terrifying. They are well known to rip the skin off people's faces...

Haha man the whole spiritual community is choking on his cock at this point - they tried and now it's all too much Every time I go back to YouTube the algorithm vomits up more

I find it very difficult. It has been getting easier when engaging in more prolonged meditation practice. Half the issue is the rapid nature of thought. My awareness of the thoughts is slower than the thoughts themselves. It's a constant attempt to bring the speed of the two together. Again it comes down to what I want to get out of the practice - because I have 3 types I go between: dreamstates/hypnagogic work, sessions where I want to stop all thought, and sessions where I just want to witness and keep up. To be honest I only make headway when I go HARDCORE. Like no stimulus. No music. Sit and stare at the letter A for an hour until everything is moving like a mirage. Until I don't even know what the thing is I am staring at. My concept of the letter A dissolves. Awareness and being is then raised to a level I can witness the ping ping ping of constant thoughts like notes. When that happens the thoughts are perceived as slower - so I can sort the wheat from the chaff, so to speak... This is why trying to sing a song or recall a song in my mind is good fun - I can't really think at the same time I play the song in my mind. Too many thousands of notes. Like the thousands of thoughts... I think of it like a dog's sense of smell... they live in another world. Humans blind to it. Something there we simply have no sense for - OR - have we just not refined the sense enough? OR - have we not removed enough of the cataract of survival to perceive and sense?

@Emerald I can say I am more solitary than most. And I have had periods in my life of no contact with others - a month at the maximum. I was only able to endure it because there was a goal and meaning - making solitude very tolerable. I need depth of connection. So quality shits on quantity for me. And it only needs to be one person. In lieu of that - most of my casual social needs are met through going out alone. Art shows. Jazz clubs. Conventions. Taking the laptop or sketchpad to a cafe. People watching in large energy spaces with little contact. Just witnessing. These acts satisfy much of my social needs when I am more isolated. I don't need to interact per se, just witness.

Yeah hell, yeah I mean, I agree here totally. I am good enough at reading others - they broadcast intentions through actions rather than words. I really appreciate when someone uses leverage for that effortless outcome. When a man takes charge and I am comfortable I sink into playful femininity. Otherwise I am taken out of that element which reduces sexual tension and play - I want the masculine/feminine contrast in that situation. I don't want to be a boss bitch any more than I have to (I don't even enjoy it at work, but I have to put on the red stilettos for that role. Again its just a roleplay to me and I switch off immediately when done). In fact, skilfully navigating someone to sex - the final act is a nod to masculinity itself by consummation. A confirmation by action that skilful manipulation was utilized. Provided both parties are mature and aren't approval seeking that is. I use the term manipulation here without any negative associations.

I get around it. I am similar in mindset. You're method, I imagine, would also serve other purposes. My diet is simple, structured, regimented. I don't need to think about it. I just do it. It frees up an unimaginable amount of time and energy. No thinking. Just being and doing. Better on the wallet. Honestly most people just have NFI how much time and energy they spend on thinking about food. What to have? The next meal. Using it as a reward. Cooking, shopping... etc. All related to decision fatigue. Endless options. You might not be like this. People don't understand how I do so much with my time. But it comes down surgically removing anything that wastes energy.

I want to see how you are doing at 35-40. Only because youth can carry you hard, and at the above ages the body changes quite suddenly. I've done lots of diet changes to address Hashimoto's. At the moment I only eat meat, eggs, vegetables, black coffee and green tea. Some cottage cheese added in also. I feel amazing - but boy oh boy people cannot stand someone so disciplined around food. Even when you don't push anything on others.

I feel like I am witnessing the dialogue of my own mind when I attempt to shred up understanding and juice reality for more truth...

I was thinking on this and the process outlined. You would probably naturally screen out more mature woman by using force to orcastrate sex. But again I think the overall aim here is to obtain sex, and this will get in the way of that aim. The women who are inclined to sleeping with men who push would be naturally more likely to take risks - and be less mature. Also perhaps less self assured and able to advocate for themselves ( lower self esteem ) - due to many woman prioritizing harmony at the cost of sovereignty. Alcohol also lowers all natural inhibitions. Higher chances of crazy. I think if you slowed down as you say - you may be more likely to find a woman who would sleep with you, and be a long term prospect. But if the aim is sex I can see why you would use leverage and some measured force to jump the logistical issues. That push would be seen as a red flag to mature woman so naturally filter them out - which is what you want if the aim is sex only. It makes sense living close to a club or bar would help you pull successfully. I saw this living 10 or so minutes from the biggest mecca for indie bars and clubs during my 20s (in Melbourne).

@Leo Gura for sure - duly noted

Rofl post some animals n shit. Kittens and puppies. Sugar glider cuddle puddle But knowing Leo it will be like a lion vs a black mamba vs eagle survival face off

Yes, we see you lurking - invitation to play Come to have your worldview expanded (or contracted, should you so choose.... ) + stay for the BANTER

@Leo Gura Overall I really actually value these perspectives - I essentially went 40 years completely blind to the troubles men face, and the difficulties balancing their sexual desires with life in general. Because I see this from a female lens, I sometimes get tripped up digesting what is said when I am (as a woman) being pushed into a frame when it doesn't always apply. I think in a broader sense I want other women to realise the plights men face, so I want them to be able to listen without any knee-jerk reactions. Palatable truth I appreciate!

My intention isn't to try to undermine any of your points here - as I think they are valid. I ask for further nuance because there are many users reading this - and not just them - many, many lurkers who also read these forums. Your statements carry weight so naturally others listen. The burden of power. When you lump all of a gender or definition into a category you limit it. I think it is valid for me to point out more nuance is needed. You must admit your statement was black and white and without refinement could be viewed as myopic. It's not an excuse to push away this as 'If I have to state instances/nuances where this doesn't apply every time I would be here forever' when just ONE word 'most' changes the entire message of the statement. Precision. All I wished to do was prevent people from misinterpreting your statement. Nothing more.

No comment on the testing. I am saying there needs to be a distinction that this might be the case for most women in that environment. But not all

@Leo Gura Do you mean most women?

@OBEler I understand you - I'm not talking about anything you stated. I'm rapping on how the view of emotions can be twisted in strange ways. I don't think I'm a good example, I don't fit these distinctions very well. I am an atypical female

It's quite an insidious tactic - instead of head on addressing the argument, you attempt to paint emotion onto the opponent. Implying they are 'rationally compromised' because they are emotional. And therefore, wrong. It's a little ego game. A card users here try to play against one another I witness a lot. You know the person has no way to counter argue - so the next tactic is to discredit the source. @Xonas Pitfall Well said, I never considered these factors - it links very well back to the recent fake spirituality video Leo released.

You are completely correct here - the degree to which a woman places priority on safety is linked to past situations. Other reasons also, but history is big usually. Every woman is really different in that arena - with fears in different areas and depths. If you can create that safe space for her, she will be free to really engage in positive feminine expression without fear. Usually very attractive for men, and it feels great as a woman to be able to play within the containment of the safety a masculine individual can provide

But you do realize there are some women who value and are looking for truth.

Candid - everyone has been quite good (so far). I've lurked for many years and have seen snapshots of some caustic behavior. I think the forum improved before I was promoted. Time will tell 😈

@RendHeaven How old are you?

Haha I have those strange thought 'pickups' quite frequently. Similar to what you describe. I am quite familiar with how my thoughts arrive - how they span out sequentially. How glancing at objects triggers a new thought stream. How I got from this thought, to that thought, then onto the next etc rapid fire. So fast - like recalling a song. All the notes...thousands of notes and instrument tunes in a song. You can easily think of a song right, sing it in the mind? Thoughts, to me, are perceived in such a rapid manner. It's when I cannot figure out where the sequence that produced the thought originated from - that's a clue I picked it up. Almost as if I am perceiving a thought form. Its all very woo sounding because it cannot be empirically tested. The only way to confirm is to test the thought against reality. If they are congruent it confirms it. But then it's not a measure really as I am providing a subjective, internally perceived metric to compare reality against. I highly suspect I am getting cold reads of body language, tone and facial expression as these foreign thought forms are local and from individuals in my direct experience. I have a talent for reading others - especially if I have their baseline. I am a little witch voyeur watching people.. I notice things many people do not. So as much as I like to think it is woo - I bet I am somehow perceiving/feeling something real, triggering a thought and unable to bridge the gap of understanding This is why meditation is so important to me! To identify

There's been a shift from less communication to increased facilitation for sure

Does their need to be a feminine/masculine polarity attributed to the path? I just don't see the frame serving me personally.