Natasha Tori Maru

Fuck me, I didn't know this part. Going surgical dissecting this fiasco. SHRED LEO, SHRED. You have a barbaric way of investigating subjects. This is just the topic that keeps on keeping on. Ceaseless fractal deception He should have just made an official statement proclaiming he changed his thoughts. That his inner voyage revealed more internal truth that he was living a lie trying to live monogamously. He won't though. And wouldn't - that would require humility! Because as you illuminated, he stands to lose business and - worse - take a hit to his ego. And as a man being effective in accruing assets is a huge part of self-validity - the business hit IS an ego hit. Honestly the dick rudder here has led to this mess. His cock smelled some young puss and all sense went out the window.

Effortless force

Actualized Quote #257 I love this one. It's the ultimate maturity filter. You are highly conscious, you speak and do truth. Integrity. Authenticity. You watch as the immature or low consciousness beings retch and bulk at your words and conduct. Truth overload for them. And you watch them naturally recede away out of your existence (due to their own judgement of you). It is the effortless filter. Effortless action. No need to even tell them to fuck off - they fuck themselves off! NB: This runs against your natural survival instincts 'wanting approval'. As humanity evolved, being part of a community meant survival - being cast out could LITERALLY kill you. Cooperation and tribes are ingrained in our evolution (they catalyzed it), this is why to be cast out feels so terrifying, like you are dying. It runs so far back in evolution it is a core fear - the fear of rejection. You will have to confront this - realize that it is the 'self' you want to remove that overlays your experience of joy, wonder & awe in reality (thereby polluting experience). Just thought I'd add that for anyone struggling with rejection, the blog post made me think on it <3

That's the insidious part isnt it? Even the best of us have some serious flaws in thinking and opinion/action. Just because we are right about one thing, doesn't mean it is invalid because other actions/opinions are wrong. You see it all over the forums. We all agree on some things, then in the neighbouring thread simultaneously shredding each other's ideas. Nothing left but sad ribbons of dead ideals, hopes and dreams .... The rolling tumbleweeds of the forum I take what's good and chuck the rest. Although I must say, I am deeply fascinated when someone is blind to how wrong/deceived they are. Cognitive dissonance is what fascinates me. I dig into it trying to understand, semi horrified I am doing the same somewhere. I just try to make that 'somewhere' not harming others (aliens/psychic/remote viewing) etc. I have some insane thoughts and experiences but I keep the insane inside... Or, I try to! Otherwise mods come with Zen-sticks 🙃

I'm undecided - I feel like any pinned posts don't get looked at. Unless we mean like - featured all on one forum?

Not.... The best anecdote 🤣🤣🤣 Unless the paper can talk back..... Give ideas back. Maybe that's your experience of the writing process. Certainly not mine!

HAHAH! His testicles - the final embers of his EROS - expire, two shriveled walnuts quivering gently on the bitumen

Creation is the birthright of humanity. I personally feel AI can be abusive in this process. Causing a retardation of creative thought and ability. I go to school with 18-24 year olds. They are stunted in some ways - especially linguistically. Not one of my classmates works without AI use. It is definitely a tool and can be used well. But it is almost like an intoxicating substance that needs to be regulated at this point. I find myself tuning out if I read a passage formulated by AI, or if prose has been run through it. I love the pace and flow of real prose ejected from the unfiltered thoughts of a human. Not to mention - the destructive environmental damage it is doing that no one seems to heed. The amount of processing, power and water consumption the process requires is going to fuck us up if not mitigated.

@MuadDib Have you only just discovered this thread? This is absolutely DAMNING. Just got through it. Obviously, it has the Dr. Phil drama music and spin, but Gafni is grotesque. The way he doubled down. Totally removed from reality. I want to stand on his balls with my stiletto heels until they pop like tomatoes.

@Leo Gura Pleasure pleasure - thanks for the blog tag!

This made me laugh - bias biscuits for all. Because there couldn't possible be a reason for independent tribunals right? RIGHT?

The raw, direct EXPERIENCE of the pussy. The TRUTH of the pussy... No self pussy. In the name of spirituality of course, God consciousness delivered through dick. With all the kumbaya woo shit just for the ladies

Yes indeed - elaborate on 'frame'

That is caring though don't bring the stick I beg you

Yep I discovered this also - and a few other associations that blew my mind. Cognitive dissonance in people is EVERYWHERE. Lack of consciousness

I want to touch on integrity in this thread - as it ties in deeply to many of the questions you all bring up. Integrity and true spirituality go hand in hand. It's very important to be clear that the reason Leo is obsessed with truth, and why he repeats its importance (as a Zen master beats your ass with a stick!) is because the truth is at the heart of many deep psychological issues and pathologies: Integrity is not just a moral issue. Get that shit out of your head now. It is a foundational metaphysical principal found in reality all around us. Integrity, and how it relates to YOU. That word. It might bring up morality, doing what is right. Ethics. Delete that from your mind. What does it really mean, at its base before we add on the narrative of morals? The state of being whole. Undivided. Now because I work in construction I went to this before anything else - material properties: Material integrity refers to the ability of a material to maintain its intended properties and performance under specified conditions and over its expected lifespan. When a material has a crack it is structurally compromised. Weakened. No longer whole. Diminished. When a material is internally aligned and fused, it is strong. Like carbon in a diamond - and coal is also carbon. Its carbon molecules are not aligned, not cohesive, so its integrity is shit. It's brittle. A diamond is carbon, only its molecules are in a lattice. It is whole, cohesive, strong. Undiminished. This is an example of integrity. It is baked into reality. Into existence. Its not moral! This is existential shit. You can find examples in your reality all over the place. Now back to your own truth seeking, truth telling, spirituality and pathology. When you lie (or withhold), act out of dishonesty, you do it because you want something. You want the pussy. The candy. To avoid pain. To avoid consequences. Whatever. You lie to get it. You compromise your integrity. And when you do that, you create a split in your internal state and behaviour/actions in reality. You exist in that split. You create a fissure in your consciousness. You lose some integrity, you don't function as well. You diminish yourself. Your self esteem drops. THIS IS AN UNAVOIDABLE CONSEQUENCE. You just think you get away with with it because you don't SEE THE CONSEQUENCES. This is a property of reality, not some moral idealism turds! You are literally fracturing yourself. Your whole, diamond self. YOU are doing this. Diminishing yourself. You don't see what you are doing to your experience! And you want to have a pure experience to elevate consciousness. This leads to pathological behaviour. If you aren't sensitive and don't pay real full attention to your emotional and feeling states, if your consciousness is low, you won't feel the consequences. But underneath you will cause this integrity drop. Because you didn't act out truth. Your inner state and your outside actions didn't align. You obliterated your authenticity. Removed yourself from your body. Consciousness - split. Like the diamond with a crack. And you will feel like shit! You are killing your experience. You are compromised and won't function properly from the internal fracture. Operating out in the world is now diminished. So you escape into pleasure because you diminished your experience and ability to love and appreciate all around you. You don't function optimally -there's that fucken crack. You aren't getting what you should from experience due to the fracture inside you. You have generated self hate and loathing. You did that! You try to control in other ways. Dive into hedonism. Addictions. Eating disorders. Endless social media. Hookers. Sex. Porn. You are now trying to escape the fact that you have ruined your experience of reality by falling into hedonism. This business of lies does this, because it is existential. This is why real spirituality is about Truth. Why Leo is like a bulldozer toward it (to my perception anyway Leo, don't let me speak anything that isn't my correct perception!). This is why spirituality can assist with healing on all levels. It's the truth that heals. Integrity. You are whole. A diamond. It is YOU that is doing this diminishing. I realise we cannot all tell the truth, all the time. But you have to operate with integrity, as much as you can. All this includes lies you tell yourself. And understand it is a fundamental property of the universe and God. Truth. Integrity. Not some moral bullshit. You can heal deep psychological and pathological stuff with this work. I've been trying to personally bring the realms of emotion and feeling to this to try to understand the mechanisms, because this has worked for myself. As my personal, lived, direct experience. tl;dr - what Leo said above about Ralston's book

Yes. And I have stopped much of my own suffering. My posts in this thread are from lived experience and deep understanding of my own behaviour. Contemplation, reflection, self analysis, hypnagogic states where subconscious elements 'appear to come out of no where' but they don't. They have a source. Dreams are similar. Many nights and evenings spent listening to music, paralyzed in thought, static, sitting on the carpet in my lounge while my mind unravels understanding and integrating. I do find this sort of work stops me in my tracks. Time stops. I can be frozen, thinking, for a long time. The suffering is the story I lay over the pain. It, in effect, through friction - enhances the pain. 'This is so painful, this is never going to end. Why is it happening to me?' Think of this as a property of reality. Force between 2 objects - concrete floor and a pile of bricks. Imagine the pain as the force of the bricks baring down on the concrete. Suffering is attempting to push the bricks aside - notice the force downward on the concrete (pain) is the same - only now you have introduced more pain/suffering because there is a terrible friction between the 2 surfaces. Both concrete and bricks are wearing down. Heat is also arising from the shearing force of YOU pushing the bricks (the narrative). Notice that you pushing the pile of bricks is something you are doing - its the narrative generating suffering 'labouring UNDER the pain'. The labour of pushing the bricks. Once you realise you are DOING this, you can grasp it. And stop doing it. This comes down to discernment. Deep interception. Because it is very difficult to be clear what is suffering and what is pain. In my personal experience - suffering can enhance pain. But when I meditate and fully focus on the pain, I notice with keen transparency that 50% of the pain is generated from my fear of it. From wanting to escape it. From judging it - from the narrative. When I focus down on the pain, it is just a sensation. I can acknowledge it is unpleasant. But it is only a sensation just like any other. It feels... neutralised. And because you are a woman, you will be familiar with the waves of crippling pain that come to CRUSH you, and just when you think you are going to throw up, cry out - it abates. The waves begin to feel less like tsunamis of pain. More like the sea gently lapping at the shoreline. Focus on your ability to feel. Go into it. Learn there - discernment is key. Just my experience. I want to finish this by posting the image of the Monk on fire meditating, but this image is very sensitive. It speaks to my points above. As you go further into the work, your ability to control your body raises. Again this is a truth you have to discover for yourself <3

It can be done, I can foresee how it could be. Agree with your statement. Indeed there are a few steps before it can be achieved I deliberately took the opportunity to move from retail management to construction 5 years ago based on AI and future development... Although No one is safe 😈💀

I understand. Might I push to you - what IS experience, not what it ISN'T? As, assuredly, it is as you say, a step removed from the above 'thoughts' (⁠｡⁠♡⁠‿⁠♡⁠｡⁠)

More on the side characters: Marc Gafni

@Someone here I am glad to facilitate understanding Much of what I wrote is elaborating on what Leo communicates, but it is reworded. Sometimes it just needs to be said differently for different people. A lot of suffering. The details aren't needed, but I have been through some very bad things. It might be helpful to know I am almost 40 now, and the spiritual process has been going on within me since my teens. Darkness had me as her lover for a good 15-20 years. The work is, well, work. No shortcuts. Many mistakes. Lots of learning. While you are shedding huge amounts of self-trash, the process is really scary. It is very destabilising. Most people reach for spirituality to ease suffering and transcend (or maybe they want meaning) - they try to learn something new - but the path is not actually about building something new. Not about building a new concept on how to be or see. One other element - you have to seriously care for your body. Take that very seriously. Sleep, food, water. Balance. Movement. Even just walking contemplation - my favourite and most delicious type! It is about the pristine marble YOU already are - you are chipping away at it, revealing the sculpture already inside. It's not nihilistic at all, it is about truly experiencing reality and exploring it all. Minus all the shit. You are uncovering. Subtracting everything that's not it. You are going to encounter many paradoxes along the way - natural. The caveat here is - this is just my personal experience

@Princess Arabia Yes this is actually a skill only masters have, in general. All my skill has come from endless copies, repetition. I learn the form. Then from my mind I can create. However, most artist still use reference material as a base. Its a skill born of repetition - most things are really. It's just that most people don't stick with problems long enough. All the greats really stuck with problems and didn't let them go. Always good to remember - drawing from reference is still artistic creation. It's your direct, personal interpretation of what you are perceiving. Regardless of the source. I will add on I had a genetic gift for art and motor skill from my grandfather. But repetition is key. Without execution talent means zero. Here's another one - not finished. Peregrine falcon - the fastest creature on earth. I am going to collage this over images of all different bird feathers in unusual configurations:

Her styling is so odd - I perceive her as looking so old, but also young.

*trauma intensifies*

@Princess Arabia This is really good - hands are one of the most difficult things to render! I start with cylinders and try to link them up. Feet are equally as troublesome for me