Natasha Tori Maru

Immense projection woah

@FourCrossedWands Masochistic without the humiliation would be the correct dish I prefer 😈

@LoneWonderer I watched this also and had the same thoughts. I felt this was way out there for Jesse - normally he is more rigorous. I think there may even be a trend toward this with him as of late. I suppose it is in our (some personality types at least) nature to keep digging into a subject thinking there may be more truth there. Especially for those who are intuitive and like to find patterns and read what is between the lines. But typically this doesn't always yield more results: in fact you can become completely lost in hearsay and theory/concepts. Then, before we know it, we are entertaining some whack as fuck conspiracy garbage The slow cooking of the mind

I can only speak from my own experience. I never felt, and do not feel, the way you describe. After the fear and terror - I realised exactly why I chose this. All pointers turned right back to reality - all of this - and the beauty, experience, awe, majesty and love of it. The beauty of the connection between subject and object; the experience generated there is the creation of love and the energy that binds us all. Duality was created as an appearance for the experience of the love that exists in the connection between everything. But this is my own, personal, realisation. Solipsism isn't a thing in a relative space within time. From the absolute yes - but not within time and space. Individuation is apparent for a reason. I will add I have had some experience with mantis beings while in a clear, sober & coherent state - so feel free to lump me in the crazy bin. I keep returning to what I experienced with them and cannot deny it. They revealed what I required to not be solipsistic. I'm fine with being called insane for the above. Used to it now.

There's something to this - we all just assume our thoughts are ours don't we?

@ivankiss You think there is much self left for James to feel attacked? THERE YOU GO, FOUND SOME MORE SELF RIGHT HERE

@Cireeric Straight to the playlist Everyone knows this - but there is NOTHING like the voice of an electric guitar opening up to relentlessly rend emotion into your soul. And your chest is shattered like glass as you feel it ripping open your chest in heartsong:

So, a limit?

Why the fuck did they turn Wendy into such a lazily written Mary Sue? Girl boss problem. None likes a women, or man, with a stupid amount of plot armour. Zero dynamics to the character. In fact the characters were what let this down. If I don't give a chit that they are being shredded by alien mate there is an issue... Episode 8 hit me like a limp noodle

@nerdspeak Yes this is important - one of the big benefits to following an established path is that there are structures in place to catch you when you fall. They have tradition that acts as a guardrail when really going deep. I think it's one thing they get right. Discernment is key.

I think it is more ones view, judgement, value attribution to a 'thing' when there isn't a priority placed on truth, but personal bias. Mostly I would say... I have to think some more. Beep bop haven't had coffee yet 🤪

@theoneandnone To be candid, some of my experiences of - realization? Not even sure I can call it an awakening. Such a loaded term... were pretty destabilizing. I am familiar with the looping recursive thoughts. The mind thrashes around wildly while it tries to grasp at immaterial thoughts/concepts/ideas. In the past heavy grounding is the only thing that assisted me. Engage in reality - movement is a big one. Walking, take a shower. Anything that forces your mind to pay attention to feeling perceptions can help if you are trying to integrate something. The only way out is through. One foot in too scared to jump is going to draw out the process. Your posts come across to me very loaded with a mixture of frustration, fear, anxiety, anger and worry - these feelings won't hurt you. The mind makes it feel like the whole world is ending and entwined with these feelings. But letting them come through you and fully experiencing them can release their hold. It might be helpful to know - if you are experiencing a feeling over and over and don't know why - it is coming from an unconscious thought. And that thought, at its root - lies a belief. And only by reverse engineering and exploring the feeling can you verify if this belief is true or not. It seems to me you have isolated the thought - solipsism - and are tied in trying to isolate if it is belief/truth. This can only be done by looking to experience in reality. The mind is very good at planting things in the unconscious parts - look to your experience. When you are a child you are fixated on everything in reality in wonder - the bricks, the trees, the sky - and then as you grow up you don't even notice that anymore because you need to go buy milk. Your mind blanks it all out to focus only on what is needed to survive. Otherwise, you would bumble off into the woods in distraction at the butterflies. It all gets relegated to the unconscious parts - which is why raising consciousness level is paramount as you see the truth of things. Shit man I dunno if any of this helped - I hope it did. Maybe even just the fact that I tried to help, helped <3

I've been a bit busy working 6/7 day weeks so haven't had time to paint - here are some sketch exercises to experiment with form and motion. Might use one as the base for a proper work later:

@Sucuk Ekmek Absolutely! Mastering the use of black came later in my work. I found it very difficult to work with as I needed a light touch. Which, incidentally, is rather like moderating this forum It is a shame images cannot capture the textures in our works Same! I remember learning this from my grandfather. You learn all the tricks the brain plays with the visual field - and how to work with them to render light, shade etc. I love how being an artist or creator forces us to deconstruct the appearance of everything

I would recommend always staying grounded by looking to your experience. Your thoughts and concepts cannot pollute the raw truth to be found there, as long as you prioritize clarity.

@Dodo I love this one from Rupert, always worth repeat listening as you follow the path

Oh damn, one I haven't heard - anthem to the afternoon 10k run - thank you very much

@ivankiss mate wtf are you linking me my Spotify rotation??? Syncopation and discord are my jam I think I probably have similar taste to you - Bohren and de Club of Gore gets thrashed 😁 Let the sun rise and it's rays burn your rage away

@Beans yeah she has some animalistic essence Who knew a bird riding a giant knife could invoke a FEELING: https://youtu.be/wwjlVlLAyds?si=gwdUYQPzIKhBwKbk

@ivankiss Ikr? Lady heartbreak That album got me through some evil chit Ice cold seduction

This pattern is repeated over and over. Obviously I am not going to go into any wild conspiracy conclusions, but every time there is a huge announcement it coincides with some other chit. Same with that comet people are claiming is an alien spacecraft. Controlled 'disclosure'

Solipsism is cope for consequences 😈 muahahah! Ngl though @Someone here's advice is best: recognise that your thoughts about solipsism are just a bad habit. Something you do automatically without consciously deciding to. That is all. You aren't plagued by solipsism 'oh the thought! It befalls me, oh no!'. It's simply a mind fixation - it's a compulsion exactly like OCD. A thought compulsion. You have control over it. In addition - you recognise it is unfalsifiable yes? The survival mind wants certainty. It craves it. So it can feel secure. Safe. Ensure survival. Solipsism is activating the amygdala into overdrive which is why you are obsessed with the idea. But please don't hurt yourself ❤️ As much as we all fight about this topic, we are actually all here because we share genuine interest in truth. Gotta love all the peeps here for that 🙂

So the answer is 'you already are' No wonder AI vomits up dump truck answers - it's the sum of the binjuice of humanities left overs 💀🤣

@Salvijus