Natasha Tori Maru

What makes you believe this to be true?

@samijiben You might be curious to know - screens before sleep reduce the quality as well as duration (for myself). I track how I sleep because I take it very seriously. Shit sleep makes every moment a pain. Good sleep means I enjoy picking up dogshit even If I don't wind down and remove screens for at least 1hr my REM and deep sleep is lowered. ymmv - tracked with a Garmin so take it with a grain of salt

@aurum Wow - this is a remarkably similar process to my posting style. Thank you for sharing. I have 2 differences: 1. Occasionally I just let fly and don't hesitate with a subject if I feel there is creative leeway, this is when stupid Aussie slang finds its way in. 2. I often walk away for hours at a time, return, and reread my responses for logical accuracy and correctness. During the away time, if the subject is very nuanced and requires diligence and care, I will often go for a run, walk the dog, etc and process. This helps me fit patterns and be able to use metaphor to better illustrate the idea. Also to ensure I have addressed the arguments properly. I often visualise and imagine verbally each argument & counter argument as a spar in my mind - especially when I go for runs. I find this method very useful when others have presented an argument that has changed my mind and I am incorporating it into a new frame to regurgitate back to them. If you get my meaning. There is a lot of care in your thought process - very admirable. My hat off to you

Pleasure! It is an aspect everyone should be driving into. In relationship to others repression is further revealed, also. There is a lot to gain from solo inner work. But there is a reason the polarity of masculine/feminine exists. I take pleasure in experiencing this inner friction as everything to me is a learning experience. Even suffering... especially suffering

My subconscious has been revealed in this strategic play...

you little shit Brb with the pitchforks 😈😈😈 🤣

All of my largest growth steps, revelations and unravelling of inner deception (which is synonymous with belief) have been through repression work. Just my 2C

Promotional book tour - I am sure many actualizers and lurkers of the forums would attend, health allowing. I am excited for you with the book, the process of creation in that way is beautiful. Single-point focused, driving, creative force to swallow you up.

I think you really rap on shit many women - myself included - go through. The programming to be 'useful' to justify your existence in society really takes you out of the feminine state of 'being'. All I wanted was to just be in this state in my formative years. I resisted much of my own femininity in an attempt to fit a masculine ideal. You are shown from adults, disagreeable behavior is more likely to get shit done - typically a more masculine trait. There are many examples to be found. Many women also fall into this internalized misogyny trap when they are exposed to the catty nature of teen girls. 'I'm not like them' - femininity into the bin. I think also women, before they mature out of this, go through a 'girl boss' phase where they really overcompensate with masculine energy. Using force and over-empowerment. I always read it as someone forcing themselves into a role (masculine) that doesn't fit, and as a result, way overcompensating as they aren't familiar with just holding strong themselves. It's the difference between a simple toneless 'No' and a 'No' with an aggressive diatribe. I think men also sense/see this and it really gives them a bad impression of feminism.

About 90 minutes or so - I do books and then 30 minutes of meditation into sleep. This post is reminding me not to go near dark chocolate right before the meditation - the caffeine definitely has an effect. But MAN - the dreams are fun as fuck! Wack

It's also a lot of fun to watch it together with your partner. Especially if you are exploring each others sexuality and how you mesh.

It is too real. It is attacking.

Careful if this is a conspiracy theory (I haven't checked the links) Boss will come in with the hammer

Legit can happen. Although - and this is my experience - its very difficult to avoid developing feelings for someone the longer you sleep with them. One party normally becomes attached, if not both. It is sort of in our nature to be this way. This is not dependant on gender in my observations. You normally end up spinning a bit in your head - searching for a finite answer to 'what are we?' question. This is an attempt to reach for external security as you become more and more vulnerable through intimacy. Just my experience.

It was always my understanding the 'forgetting' of infinity, god consciousness, was to facilitate this reality. This reality could never exist if we didn't believe it to be so. There is no other way for it to be. God as infinity as the creator. Us, as Gods manifestations, believing this illusion to enable it to persist. The choice to believe is essential. So we can mine experience. So God can harvest experience. To escape the horror of the All Knowing. No surprises. Future certain.

Has access to the tesseract, all chess moves exist simultaneously. The perfect move exists, just like all the ones that hit like a wet noodle. Drop the needle at the perfect point on the spinning record of existence The witty banter on the forums is 90% of the entertainment!

It is always a possibility. Part of the issue with porn is the need for more and more extreme material when one gets addicted. I do not know the stats though

This is my understanding. And having carried existential dread my whole life? Endless pursuit of meaning? To the point I was distracted from the living? There is peace in knowing this is the choice. There is surprise here. Wonder. I am resolved in the best way

This might invite some rage as it implies men have no impulse control - although I do see your point! I am undecided with this topic. We have to also consider that some non-consensual themed porn can increase sexual aggression (and aggression in general).

Hard yes - but admitting that? HATES IT

Yes, which is where that neurosis comes into play. Blindly pursuing with the human positive feedback tendency of valuing what is hard. Unobtainable. Without questioning truly what they value, and in the end, its probably not Truth.

The Great Ouroboros. And its consequences. My favourite of the ancient symbols:

Yes, and it becomes rather pathological. When you really pursue something the human tendency is to invest in it. Value it. Pursuit creates investment. Something 'earned' through pursuit & sacrifice is valued a lot more than something you always had intrinsically. We often construct value through action. 'What's hard to get is worth more' You have to really question yourself honestly. Are you valuing awakening to God & Truth excessively because of the human tendency around this?

There is a truth to emotions that hasn't been looked at in depth. Need a deep dive on the topic. I do believe, previously, Leo has stated he doesn't cover this in his teachings. It is not his focus. This doesn't mean it isn't valid & exists. He is concerned with further elaborating on the masculine path. For now....muahahahaaha!

Creativity as a meditation... So I was raised very strangely. Artists studio, not a lot of TV. My grandfather was a prolific artist, winning many awards. Awards that took him around the world to study. England, Soviet Russia. Moved among wealthy partisans after the great wars. Arts master for 30 years at the top private school in Melbourne. Worked full time teaching art, came home and painted. I was mainly raised by him. He was the most intensely creative person I have ever met. It is cut and dry how much creativity and gifts in the arts I inherited from him. Before he began training me I could render things, create and construct things to the extent I was accused of lying by schools in 'Show and Tell'. I really don't mean to brag at all, just illustrating that there is something to be said for genetics. I was trained up as well, traditionally. First principles. Then gradating through various mediums. I just had the fine motor control he had, and the ability to see things in a way as to just 'know' how to slightly alter it to bring balance, beauty. He always told me 'Everything is love, everything is one. All religions are trying to tell you this. They are all the same. People take the wrong things away from religion. They mostly just divide us when they shouldn't' He was fascinated with all types of religions and belief systems. Very open man. Another repeated lesson 'When you create, you focus. You aren't yourself anymore. Think on it. You are just the point of focus at the tip of the brush. The canvas is like the blank substrate of the world around you. When your brush meets the canvas you render reality, as you see it'. Being told these things from a young age already had me quite egoicaly disconnected from what made me, me. I never realised this though. This wasn't negative feeling. It was a pure emphasis on what I do, manipulating this substance that makes makes up reality. I just created stuff and that was all that mattered. And he emphasised that I am the one who creates it all. He was also a raging alcoholic and womaniser >.< Everyone has their flaws. He always had me return my thoughts to breath. Always breath. So I was introduced to this focused form of meditative creation from a young age, and for years after. Is it genetics? Is it exposure? Is it both? It is only recently I have had to reassess my beliefs regarding all this. In particular how creativity as a single point of focus feels like it erases reality for me, when I am in process. No time. No me. Thanks for reading anyone who made it through that !