Natasha Tori Maru

My hair is well past my hips now 🤪 I do cut it, but I haven't reached a length where it stops growing or snaps off. It's hard to control so most days it's bangs and bound in plaits

Target acquired - destination lock Love cycling too!

Melbourne (where I am located, Australia) has a huge tram network. Massive boon for the city. I love them! The biggest issue is the lightrails are situated on the inside of the road adjacent to white lines. Cars drive by between the pavement and where passengers disembark from the tram. New motorists pose a huge risk. If you do not pay attention to the tram and where it stops, you can make a meat crayon out of a pedestrian...

That contributes to the suckage 💀

You do better than my hamfisted attempts at pulling spiritual & existential examples from the physical material examples of construction 🤪 Look the concrete! It cracks, loses integrity! Existential n shit! When you lie you crack and lose self/moral integrity! Just like the fucken concrete, mate. So when you lie you better rebar the shit out of yourself or your lies will fuck up you integrity and experience 🫠🫠💀

I think Leo can attest to this also - if I am not mistaken - they have met for cordial discourse. Forget where I happen-chanced upon this information.

I wouldn't worry as much about fear/nervousness/anxiety. But the perception a man is 'burdened' is a real turn off. And is translated subconsciously and rather instantly

Cheers cheers - appreciate that! I suppose we will never know. Although, it is more pertinent to me that you have the pattern of accusing others of being sock-puppet accounts more than most... probabilities probabilities

US healthcare system SUCKS. Ain't no one gonna change my mind.

He has been swinging that term around in every reply lately.... I don't think I paid attention to that. I pick up on tone, cadence, word use. Topic's that spark the users interest. How they interact with other users. What triggers them & what they seem nonplussed by. Where they divulge information without prompting. What topics are naturally exaggerated or amplified. Overall @Ramasta9 seems WAY more grounded and in touch with being a human and the experience it entails on a more personal level. Nahm seems off in the clouds and really has no touch with reality or the experience of other humans - and that shared experience is how we typically connect. Nahm never seems or appears as if he is trying to connect on a personal eye-to-eye level with others.

I don't get that at all. Weird.

it always bin dat way

@Monke Reading through this back and forth I think a big issue for you is not meeting women of your maturity level (as well as low consciousness women). Anyway I'll step out - I don't have too much useful info or steps to take. As long as you put yourself into situations that increase probabilities for desired outcome, you won't be robbing yourself of the possibility of a banger of a high consciousness lady

While I understand the non-dual talk as the pointer it is, I find it is mostly confusing to users and propels less experienced individuals into emotional and spiritual bypassing. Especially over text. We have our own crew here who do a mixture of bypassing and truth. And they often will not drop the neo advaita trash talking to meet another users where they are at. It sort of comes across as quite arrogant, because if these individuals really did have a genuine intent to teach they would tailor their language to assist other users in understanding. Instead they try to sledgehammer non-dual language at the other users....

Yes this is my concern. If I have a heart attack, tragic accident or other unplanned malady, I do not also want to have to worry that it will be a life-destroying debt to face at the end of recovery... To add an anecdote - 8 years ago I got terribly sick from a kidney infection. It went sceptic and I was rushed to hospital. 7 nights in emergency to get better. Did not pay a cent. Am very grateful to live in Australia.

I think it is inherent to pattern-recognition personality types to see these sorts of things. For myself - as long as I am not drawing hard conclusions or meaning making, and do not close myself off to other possibilities - I enjoy the process of slowly finding puzzle pieces of people over time and matching them up... and not just people. Anything really. Patterns and perspectives are my natural mode I missed the typical Carl style of ripping someone's ideas into the shredded ruins of hopes and dreams How long can you keep the inner dragon tamed? He he he

Yeah, fuck yeah! Genuinely glad for you as well It is hell to try to guide men out of that sort of thinking/cognitive bias. You must have pretty good meta-cognition to have made it out. Nothing worse than self-filtering out the best women there are that match you well, and having no idea you are doing it.

I'm glad I could have a sensitivity to it. I take it at night due to severe allergies (bad town planning had those massive Plane trees with the spores all through my suburb). I avoid it if I can. I will sleep straight through for 20hrs if I do not set an alarm. And if I do have to work? God help me!

I mean, you can approach it this way. Sure. But you will attract women who are boring and screen out those who are more interesting. The smart ones will see how you are barely paying attention and drop you instantly. Self fulfilling prophecy.

What else have you got to do????

@Ramasta9 You possibly have some account restrictions in place? Because I notice you are flagged as a 'new user'. Perhaps when this cooldown period is off you will have full privileges. Having said that, I do not know all the ins-and-outs of the account system. Maybe @Sincerity might have some information? He he he! YES. While it is hard to connect through text sometimes it just HITS. Some users, you just read their words, and they are so easy to follow. Phrasing and delivery. As well as subject. It is written in such a way it is a pleasure to read their posts. Even when it is on topics I do not necessarily align with or share interest. I think this is a big part of why AI is so jarring to me when it is used more than normal. I don't want to freak you out but I did notice your absence on the forum, and my immediate thought was 'I bet he is in that crazy period where there is cramming and pushing to submit a paper. I bed Carl-Richard isn't sleeping.' I actually thought that... and I am coming across your posts, scattered in random threads, affirming this! Life would be simpler if this stuff didn't just randomly keep happening... but way, way less fun!

Me too! Also that evil antihistamine phenergan. If I take that I won't be fully back to reality until 4pm the next day....

America is fucked for anything healthcare... I would not enjoy living there for that reason

I do not know what happened with myself to achieve this. I used to get in my own way all the time. One day I begun to stop judging experiences as good or bad. Wanted or unwanted. I begun to look at each task as a set of sounds, textures, lights and smells. I deconstructed my senses until I lost some of my ability to define a task or thing. So for example - I used to hate folding the laundry. After this transition, the laundry folding became a game of colours and textures in my hands. Fun digging out socks and pairing them up. Then the sensations of drawers opening, hangers clanging... the pretty visuals of neatly folded fabrics Now I simply move through life from the next task/experience to the next. My only aim is 'the next step I take must enhance the probability of something maybe occurring in a later time' This reduced my mental chatter down to almost zero. So I just operate on the principal I am taking the action to enhance probabilities all over my life experience. 'Will this increase the probability of X?' I do this in my career building medical facilities. I just move from one experience to the next with priority on enhancing probability and not deeming anything good or bad. It is all just sensory data that could lead to a surprise - or desired outcome. Because nothing is in my control. At all. Not sure if this helps - but it removed all resistance within me.

What traits about you now are preventing all those things occuring? I ask because it seems like you are assuming you are getting in your own way - if you think changing yourself is the answer 🙃