Natasha Tori Maru

@Sugarcoat Much of my experience mirrors yours 😊 During all these strange happenings I can see my body altering it's rhythms through data. During dreams breathing rate, body temperature and heartrate are elevated. The dream consciousness is powerful enough to alter the state of the body. What else can our consciousness do to control body states? Huge realms of unknowns to explore. Assuredly pain can be controlled - I have experienced this. The brain paralyses the body so we don't act out dreams. If you freeze your body and do not move an inch, resisting the urge to move (which is the brains check method for sleep) while slowing breathing you can trigger lucid dreams. I can control the reality there and do quite often. It's very seductive so I have to actively stop myself from spending half the weekend in dreams. Sleep paralysis events also - your consciousness engages with some form of reality but the body is still paralyzed. Overall the common theme is to go in actively managing and mitigating fear. I take the fear state in with me (my experience) and it's never good. The dream I had last night with you and carl 'We are at Monash Medical centre. The passive firewall I built doesn't terminate at the roof slab and there is an opening. Carl and Sugarcoat are on the other side of the wall. The fire door between us is locked. To complete the junction of the wall and the slab we need to levitate the balloons above the firewall. Small red balloons are rising up and above and falling to me. Carl is teaching Sugarcoat to first make them rise and fall, then move vertically to reach me. 'then, let go, it will fall to Tash on the other side'. The dream shifts and we are levitating all colours of balloons back and forth. Carl sends one filled with M&Ms that explodes on the floor. Infection control come in and lose their shit' That's all for that one - if you were curious 🙃

@Eskilon or... What I -do not- know about it 😈 🧩 This topic is like a hammer to the brain. But first - is the question pertaining to the entire state of consciousness that is sleep, or, the phase of deep sleep in particular? I've done the most -experiental- work in the hypnagogic states, lucid dreaming (more akin to dream state). I will regurgitate some words based on the answer to the above ☺️ I can tell you it is a state. To experience a state, or state change, you do not need to think. I experience sleep as the most contrasting state. Self is 100% out the door. Ctrl+alt+delete process stopped. However I still experience narratives relating to a self, but it's not my waking sense of self there. In hypnagogic states or dream states - there is certainly experience happening. You can experience feelings in these states, recall colours, words, sounds, textures. In fact I had several dreams last night with Carl-Richard, aurum, rendheaven & sugarcoat. I have a dream log, and I dream every single night, 6/7 distinct dreams. I know these users had a form in the dream, but I noted them on the log as appearing as a flat image avatar with a name above. Additionally I track my sleep with a Garmin and note what it collects on the log. So I keep a long term systematic log of fucked up states to be able to look for patterns. Also I intentionally induce hypnagogic states and lucid dreaming once or twice a week as am exploration exercise. Deep sleep with no apparent experience is another state entirely. Anyway I digress and didn't answer. To sum up - the question pertains to the entire category of sleep? 😴 😜

@SageMind for myself, personal journey: spiritualities purpose was not to end suffering. I experienced it as a byproduct 🙃 well, should we say, a 'lessoning' of suffering @Davino if you really sit and contemplate this list - everything you listed is a fear. Rooted in fear. Questing for certainty. To my experience, fear is always the block. The only block.

💀🤣 Keisaku inc

Mandala while listening to music - half a Saturday afternoon, permanent felt tip pen on acetate

@Sucuk Ekmek I really like your stuff my man - in particular your use of colour. I sense practice and experience combined with a keen eye for observation. It takes skill to render an image without lots of BLACK for shade. Which, to me, is a novice mistake

I agree with this take. Theres that saying that floats around 'You're not ugly, just poor' Money or time-poor. Same shit here. However, these guys just may not be your (or my) taste.

I am just embellishing - bit too flamboyant with language. I understand what you are about (mostly... as much as anyone can through text)

Fucken bingo. I just walked the dog and listened to this - thanks @aurum I picked up on that as well. Audbrey went in and upgraded the model. Sort of like when a woman turfs a man who doesn't earn as much for a man that is wealthy. It's a brutally savage blow to a woman who is aging to deal with being dumped for a younger woman. Aubrey just wasn't able to dump Vylana outright due to his commitment to her. Youth is coveted by society. You see a lot of older women approach their 50s and turn into complete c*nts to younger women. And resenting men who are attracted to them. They cannot let go of the value they placed in their appearance, and suddenly experiencing what it is like to be invisible is traumatic. Their 'self' they built up for decades is being destroyed before their very eyes. They had no idea of the privilege they were existing with. It's so sad to see. But if many women had any awareness at all they would realize this - and really invest in mastery in other realms. Most realize too late. And half the beauty industry is aimed at targeting these women and exploiting their fear generated due to loss of identity in appearance. Fuck though the end was weird. It felt so fucken rude man, Vylana suddenly inserting this guided orgasm experience out of nowhere. I'm being told about cumming and loving myself while watching my dog sniff another dogs arse. Reality don't get any more puzzling.

Fuck me, I didn't know this part. Going surgical dissecting this fiasco. SHRED LEO, SHRED. You have a barbaric way of investigating subjects. This is just the topic that keeps on keeping on. Ceaseless fractal deception He should have just made an official statement proclaiming he changed his thoughts. That his inner voyage revealed more internal truth that he was living a lie trying to live monogamously. He won't though. And wouldn't - that would require humility! Because as you illuminated, he stands to lose business and - worse - take a hit to his ego. And as a man being effective in accruing assets is a huge part of self-validity - the business hit IS an ego hit. Honestly the dick rudder here has led to this mess. His cock smelled some young puss and all sense went out the window.

Effortless force

Actualized Quote #257 I love this one. It's the ultimate maturity filter. You are highly conscious, you speak and do truth. Integrity. Authenticity. You watch as the immature or low consciousness beings retch and bulk at your words and conduct. Truth overload for them. And you watch them naturally recede away out of your existence (due to their own judgement of you). It is the effortless filter. Effortless action. No need to even tell them to fuck off - they fuck themselves off! NB: This runs against your natural survival instincts 'wanting approval'. As humanity evolved, being part of a community meant survival - being cast out could LITERALLY kill you. Cooperation and tribes are ingrained in our evolution (they catalyzed it), this is why to be cast out feels so terrifying, like you are dying. It runs so far back in evolution it is a core fear - the fear of rejection. You will have to confront this - realize that it is the 'self' you want to remove that overlays your experience of joy, wonder & awe in reality (thereby polluting experience). Just thought I'd add that for anyone struggling with rejection, the blog post made me think on it <3

That's the insidious part isnt it? Even the best of us have some serious flaws in thinking and opinion/action. Just because we are right about one thing, doesn't mean it is invalid because other actions/opinions are wrong. You see it all over the forums. We all agree on some things, then in the neighbouring thread simultaneously shredding each other's ideas. Nothing left but sad ribbons of dead ideals, hopes and dreams .... The rolling tumbleweeds of the forum I take what's good and chuck the rest. Although I must say, I am deeply fascinated when someone is blind to how wrong/deceived they are. Cognitive dissonance is what fascinates me. I dig into it trying to understand, semi horrified I am doing the same somewhere. I just try to make that 'somewhere' not harming others (aliens/psychic/remote viewing) etc. I have some insane thoughts and experiences but I keep the insane inside... Or, I try to! Otherwise mods come with Zen-sticks 🙃

I'm undecided - I feel like any pinned posts don't get looked at. Unless we mean like - featured all on one forum?

Not.... The best anecdote 🤣🤣🤣 Unless the paper can talk back..... Give ideas back. Maybe that's your experience of the writing process. Certainly not mine!

HAHAH! His testicles - the final embers of his EROS - expire, two shriveled walnuts quivering gently on the bitumen

Creation is the birthright of humanity. I personally feel AI can be abusive in this process. Causing a retardation of creative thought and ability. I go to school with 18-24 year olds. They are stunted in some ways - especially linguistically. Not one of my classmates works without AI use. It is definitely a tool and can be used well. But it is almost like an intoxicating substance that needs to be regulated at this point. I find myself tuning out if I read a passage formulated by AI, or if prose has been run through it. I love the pace and flow of real prose ejected from the unfiltered thoughts of a human. Not to mention - the destructive environmental damage it is doing that no one seems to heed. The amount of processing, power and water consumption the process requires is going to fuck us up if not mitigated.

@MuadDib Have you only just discovered this thread? This is absolutely DAMNING. Just got through it. Obviously, it has the Dr. Phil drama music and spin, but Gafni is grotesque. The way he doubled down. Totally removed from reality. I want to stand on his balls with my stiletto heels until they pop like tomatoes.

@Leo Gura Pleasure pleasure - thanks for the blog tag!

This made me laugh - bias biscuits for all. Because there couldn't possible be a reason for independent tribunals right? RIGHT?

The raw, direct EXPERIENCE of the pussy. The TRUTH of the pussy... No self pussy. In the name of spirituality of course, God consciousness delivered through dick. With all the kumbaya woo shit just for the ladies

Yes indeed - elaborate on 'frame'

That is caring though don't bring the stick I beg you

Yep I discovered this also - and a few other associations that blew my mind. Cognitive dissonance in people is EVERYWHERE. Lack of consciousness

I want to touch on integrity in this thread - as it ties in deeply to many of the questions you all bring up. Integrity and true spirituality go hand in hand. It's very important to be clear that the reason Leo is obsessed with truth, and why he repeats its importance (as a Zen master beats your ass with a stick!) is because the truth is at the heart of many deep psychological issues and pathologies: Integrity is not just a moral issue. Get that shit out of your head now. It is a foundational metaphysical principal found in reality all around us. Integrity, and how it relates to YOU. That word. It might bring up morality, doing what is right. Ethics. Delete that from your mind. What does it really mean, at its base before we add on the narrative of morals? The state of being whole. Undivided. Now because I work in construction I went to this before anything else - material properties: Material integrity refers to the ability of a material to maintain its intended properties and performance under specified conditions and over its expected lifespan. When a material has a crack it is structurally compromised. Weakened. No longer whole. Diminished. When a material is internally aligned and fused, it is strong. Like carbon in a diamond - and coal is also carbon. Its carbon molecules are not aligned, not cohesive, so its integrity is shit. It's brittle. A diamond is carbon, only its molecules are in a lattice. It is whole, cohesive, strong. Undiminished. This is an example of integrity. It is baked into reality. Into existence. Its not moral! This is existential shit. You can find examples in your reality all over the place. Now back to your own truth seeking, truth telling, spirituality and pathology. When you lie (or withhold), act out of dishonesty, you do it because you want something. You want the pussy. The candy. To avoid pain. To avoid consequences. Whatever. You lie to get it. You compromise your integrity. And when you do that, you create a split in your internal state and behaviour/actions in reality. You exist in that split. You create a fissure in your consciousness. You lose some integrity, you don't function as well. You diminish yourself. Your self esteem drops. THIS IS AN UNAVOIDABLE CONSEQUENCE. You just think you get away with with it because you don't SEE THE CONSEQUENCES. This is a property of reality, not some moral idealism turds! You are literally fracturing yourself. Your whole, diamond self. YOU are doing this. Diminishing yourself. You don't see what you are doing to your experience! And you want to have a pure experience to elevate consciousness. This leads to pathological behaviour. If you aren't sensitive and don't pay real full attention to your emotional and feeling states, if your consciousness is low, you won't feel the consequences. But underneath you will cause this integrity drop. Because you didn't act out truth. Your inner state and your outside actions didn't align. You obliterated your authenticity. Removed yourself from your body. Consciousness - split. Like the diamond with a crack. And you will feel like shit! You are killing your experience. You are compromised and won't function properly from the internal fracture. Operating out in the world is now diminished. So you escape into pleasure because you diminished your experience and ability to love and appreciate all around you. You don't function optimally -there's that fucken crack. You aren't getting what you should from experience due to the fracture inside you. You have generated self hate and loathing. You did that! You try to control in other ways. Dive into hedonism. Addictions. Eating disorders. Endless social media. Hookers. Sex. Porn. You are now trying to escape the fact that you have ruined your experience of reality by falling into hedonism. This business of lies does this, because it is existential. This is why real spirituality is about Truth. Why Leo is like a bulldozer toward it (to my perception anyway Leo, don't let me speak anything that isn't my correct perception!). This is why spirituality can assist with healing on all levels. It's the truth that heals. Integrity. You are whole. A diamond. It is YOU that is doing this diminishing. I realise we cannot all tell the truth, all the time. But you have to operate with integrity, as much as you can. All this includes lies you tell yourself. And understand it is a fundamental property of the universe and God. Truth. Integrity. Not some moral bullshit. You can heal deep psychological and pathological stuff with this work. I've been trying to personally bring the realms of emotion and feeling to this to try to understand the mechanisms, because this has worked for myself. As my personal, lived, direct experience. tl;dr - what Leo said above about Ralston's book