Natasha Tori Maru

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  1. It is an interesting concept and I do think on it a lot, because it is lived experience for me. I bring my dog to the office with me and she hangs here while I work. I enjoy the break from work while I play with her - and I realise this is because she removes me from the thoughts and dealings of the work day. Occasionally, I cannot play with her as I cannot disconnect from the stress of tasks. But I can force it if I tell myself that stress and world does not exist - if I do not pay attention to it. Effectively brainwashing myself to be present in the moment. Only me and the poodle exist - and the ball tossed between us.
  2. I think I considered it as limiting my frame - narrowing down the scope of what I am dealing with using imagination as the 'barrier' that acts as deception. Thus facilitating 'play' via imagination. BUT! This would depend on if you determine self-deception as always having an unconscious element. And there are cases where deception is conscious - but only acted outwardly through action rather than an inward perception. I suppose that ends up being the difference between deception and imagination
  3. @Leo Gura You need to teach how to activate self-deception after students have learned to deconstruct it. Instant make-believe activation into play mode through deception mechanism - gotta learn the system before you can break it
  4. @Leo Gura 🎯
  5. I have peace - which is beginning to feel like happiness. I think there has been some sort of reframe of what happiness is for me, as I have come to accept and allow all. Or, attempt to. It is not what I initially felt it to be. Within myself and my own practice - there was some hidden conflation of happiness and pleasure. I do say above 'I have peace' with the caveat of: I have peace, when I allow it. And don't deliberately trigger myself into turmoil. But the process of triggering emotion and coming into conflict is superb - it is revealing what I do not accept, allow and claim within myself. So in effect, it highlights where I am creating a duality which pushes me away from unity. Oneness. Love. When I feel rejection, revulsion, anger, frustration - there is a piece of this within me, yet to be claimed and integrated. So the peace I feel after coming into friction with reality is unifying with happiness through the process. Peace and happiness are being overlapped and unified in the face of integrating what I reject. Pushed into one. It is one of the reasons I value the forum as an assistance to spiritual practice. In real life this effect is catalysed through facilitated interaction, on the forums through conceptual battles
  6. @Franz_ contemplation and self enquiry Look into the nature of who you think you are. Are we thoughts? Are we bodies? What makes you 'you'. If we are not thoughts - what is it that is aware of the thoughts? What is it that is perceiving a feeling or sensation? Might be a nice place to start 🌱
  7. @shree In my experience - when you have optimisation in life. Some measure of satisfaction... Often hidden issues 'come up' when all seems well. Almost as if the mind was protecting you from having to face whatever it may be, because you weren't equipped to handle it. This has been a repeat pattern for me, and is quite irritating as it tends to happen when all seems well and outer/inner termoil has eased. There could be imposter syndrome or unworthiness present but not felt. Or not allowed. This is excluding some physical issue.
  8. I see, I see. I suppose then it would become: What proportion of the population that is open to trying them, would be dissuaded by using being criminal? Compared to the stress on systems that society must maintain to process them in incarceration. There will always be those who are open and curious and seek drugs as an experience. Making it a crime will not stop them. Maybe a half measure would be decriminalization of use for some classes of drugs.
  9. I do not think you have had any experience with serious addiction. People with serious addictions do not operate like normal individuals - their entire being is erased and supplanted with 'seek drugs to avoid pain of withdrawal'. Punishment, hard words and lectures around personal responsibility do not work, as to them, it is tantamount to saying 'just stop eating food'. Serious addicts have brains that have been totally altered and need a different system to assist them. As opposed to say - you or I, who are functional adults. Once the addiction has set in, their personality as you knew it is replaced by something else. My experience living with serious addicts. Associating with them and living in a suburb with Chinese triads. The largest heroin and ice centre for dealing in Melbourne. I implore you to consider that you might not fully understand the topic of addiction and its pathologies. These peoples brains have been permanently altered. Using is not a crime here (Australia) - but dealing and distributing is. I think decriminalizing use in the US is sensible - will relieve a lot of the stress on your systems. Prisons, taxes, and the criminal system in general. Resources could be diverted. I think dealing and distribution should remain a criminal act. Editing to add - I used to be more aligned with your opinions here - until I had personal experience.
  10. @Leo Gura You probably need an executive assistant Some people enjoy it - others cave hard and turn into arseholes. The most important part of that role would be how well they work with you. They also represent your brand to others. A measure of kind politeness + candid conduct Just my experience
  11. @Rigel @Schizophonia @Nemra We love a good snot rocket ay?
  12. @theoneandnone No need to apologise - no harm no foul! More some housekeeping. Solipsism is a big topic here so feel free to keep bumping the shit out of one of your threads. Tons of users want to hash the topic out
  13. @Yeah Yeah Yeah of course I have seen that episode But as you can see that was deleted - and I do not know of any other video from Leo formalising the insights as a teaching. I may be wrong - just what I have come across so far.
  14. I just counted 4 threads on this topic on this subforum created by you - can we try to consolidate this? I understand you are grappling with a belief. I don't see a need for so many seperate threads
  15. Listened to this yesterday and didn't think to share it here - cheers 🙏 I enjoyed it
  16. In the winter, no matter what - my nose runs. Picture perfect health. It's gonna run. I am that heathen women blowing snot out onto the pavement. Zero fucks. Because wiping my nose on a tissue just doesn't cut it for the stormwater drain that is my nose
  17. Some users ask and request for advice. Others just vent or present ideas. Casual chit-chat.
  18. @Someone here not you also, your analysis could be wrong. As much as you read posts, gather data and reply - you are still filling in some gaps. I have 4 brothers - I seen that shit. It is all consuming. You haven't had to clean your brothers room only to find the little shit has been skeeting on the drapes so much they have legit turned to plaster. I am a mod. Yep. ???
  19. Funny enough circles have been the bane of my existence this week - giving donuts indeed. First, the landscape architect added all these piss of circles to the design - blew the cost into the next dimension. Then, the set of plans I was tendering off had carpet and vinyl circle inlays - spent 2 hours working out areas for that mutant design. Then I freaked out walking my dog because my stupid brain perceived a circular puddle as being a HOLE in the ground - I thought she was gonna fall into some mysterious sinkhole abyss. WTF universe
  20. @FourCrossedWands Masochistic without the humiliation would be the correct dish I prefer 😈
  21. @LoneWonderer I watched this also and had the same thoughts. I felt this was way out there for Jesse - normally he is more rigorous. I think there may even be a trend toward this with him as of late. I suppose it is in our (some personality types at least) nature to keep digging into a subject thinking there may be more truth there. Especially for those who are intuitive and like to find patterns and read what is between the lines. But typically this doesn't always yield more results: in fact you can become completely lost in hearsay and theory/concepts. Then, before we know it, we are entertaining some whack as fuck conspiracy garbage The slow cooking of the mind
  22. I can only speak from my own experience. I never felt, and do not feel, the way you describe. After the fear and terror - I realised exactly why I chose this. All pointers turned right back to reality - all of this - and the beauty, experience, awe, majesty and love of it. The beauty of the connection between subject and object; the experience generated there is the creation of love and the energy that binds us all. Duality was created as an appearance for the experience of the love that exists in the connection between everything. But this is my own, personal, realisation. Solipsism isn't a thing in a relative space within time. From the absolute yes - but not within time and space. Individuation is apparent for a reason. I will add I have had some experience with mantis beings while in a clear, sober & coherent state - so feel free to lump me in the crazy bin. I keep returning to what I experienced with them and cannot deny it. They revealed what I required to not be solipsistic. I'm fine with being called insane for the above. Used to it now.