MusicalMillipede

Was just rewatching Leo’a journaling vid

@Leo Gura How can someone tell if the understanding of reality is accurate? Can it be completely accurate?

That is a very interesting way to put it. I kinda just saw it as a bad thing. Although, I know I want a relationship for selfish reasons. This is a nice contrast between outlooks on it.

I have never thought of trying that. Thank you

How do I stop wanting a relationship? I have serious issues with loving myself. I go as far as hating myself. I keep trying to rely on someone else to love me. Someone else to think I’m beautiful to satisfy my self-image. That is why I want a relationship. I believe loving myself would be the first step to solve this but I am trying so hard to open my mind to it. Idk what to do. I’ve been trying for a long time. I’ve meditated and realized I need to stop identifying myself with what I do. Anything bad or even good that I do should not be labeled as myself. Putting that into the way I think is different. Accepting myself is so difficult. Is there anything else I should be doing?

@Raptorsin7 I find majority of men attractive. I’m into “average looking“ guys. I’m a sucker for long hair though. It depends on the person. My tastes changed throughout my short life. Your taste can be changed I would guess based on my experience

@Nomad13 I didn’t feel tired at all. Odd. Very strange experience though

@SamueLSD I like that it lasts long. Time slowed down A LOT on the peak. I feel like I could possibly get more done if it lasts long though? If that makes sense? Thinking about it logically. I had a real easy time meditating because of the after effects. I felt nothing. But I did get angry the next day but I was still able to meditate. Is there anything that lasts as long? I’m researching ayahuasca currently. I’ve read that 5MeO is a bit more potentially dangerous. Idk if I’m willing to try that. Sounds pretty scary Thank you for your input! I appreciate you sharing your experience

Not for me yet. I’ve only used 1p LSD once and did not feel more loving at all. I’m hoping it will next time. I personally struggle with lack of enough empathy

@SamueLSD Should I continue doing LSD for meditation? Or are there some other psychedelics that might be way better for this? I get good insights from meditation every now and then. Sometimes I just feel weird. The only thing is actually changing something. I wanna change my current mentality. I’ve researched and done the 1p LSD because it was legal mostly. Any suggestions would be great

It was my first time doing psychedelics a few months ago. I did 1p LSD and it was a weird experience. I did 100 micrograms. It felt surreal and dreamy of course and at one point I felt like I kept falling through the earth and it felt good for whatever reason. That kept replaying over and over. Also felt like I kept dying over and over at one point. I do think I’ve made progress with meditating though! I still can meditate from time to time. Not as great as when I was on the acid but I feel like I’ve learned more about how to actually do it. Another weird thing is, I felt nothingness after the peak for a good while. No emotion at all. I was trying to keep myself in that state. I kept yearning to feel excitement or other feelings the whole time. I wasn’t satisfied with the feeling of nothing. Not sure what that means or what to think about that? But the next day, after sleeping, I was feeling a bit angry and couldn’t pin point why. I still cannot see why I was angry that day. It was a very strange but interesting experience.