mandyjw

Yup. It is such a brilliant movie.

Women have better immune responses than men. "The more robust female immune response is also why women are generally better at fighting off infections such as sepsis, pneumonia and, now, COVID-19. Studies show that men who get COVID-19 are almost three times as likely to require intensive care as women who are infected, and they're also more likely to die. On the other hand, women are twice as likely as men to have autoimmune diseases such as lupus, rheumatoid arthritis and psoriasis — another consequence of their strong immune response. In those disorders, the body's immune system mistakenly attacks the body and causes inflammation."https://www.aarp.org/health/conditions-treatments/info-2021/women-covid-vaccine-side-effects.html But they are also more likely to go into over drive. I was thinking how I see on this forum a lot of people who are considering religion and spirituality for the first time. I did not realize why observing Christians my entire life and deeply studying it was so helpful. I see people falling into traps that I had displayed for me as a kid. When I got into this stuff I thought all that background was mostly a waste. I see through things that don't serve me extremely well, the problem is I'm so adept at this that it's to the point of attacking myself and paralyzing myself. I guess we go back here again. So I lived a whole bunch of contrast, it was very helpful, great. Bye now. Ahem. BYE NOW! Oh wait. I'm still living contrast. Cause living is contrast to death, so... Fuck. If I don't have to be anything for anybody! I don't have to be anything for anybody! I don't have to be anything for anybody! I don't have to be anything for anybody! I don't have to be anything for anybody! I don't have to be anything for anybody! I don't have to be anything for anybody!

Any question asked "why" is cause and effect, the realm of mind, duality and time. It's incredibly useful obviously, it's only within the "vision" of liberation of psychological suffering that we discard this. For example, understanding myopia and the lens of the eye because you want to understand, are interested or want to heal someone is one thing. Suffering because you think you are flawed for having blurred vision without glasses, or being prejudice against someone else with a disability is another. Spirituality addresses the second "wrong use" of mind, and in doing so the mind works much sharper when it is used appropriately.

Unrequited love has reassembled me I think it's crazy And if you said I do, I'll reassemble you, baby And you're so cool, 'cause you don't think you're cool You cannot be sad Because you made my all time favorite music We could play a beautiful game We could play a beautiful game You could chase me down the way I wanna play a beautiful game Even though we're gonna lose But I adore you (Adore you, I adore you) Unrequited love has reassembled me.

Oh.... I don't have to be anything for anyone. Funny how the implications of realizing you're not a thing aren't implied at all. They're just free. I watched all these impulses to have to be something come up and saw through them and it was just amazing. I don't have to be anything for anyone and I don't have to be anyone for myself. That's what it was all along anyway. I wonder if my entire gender identity (when it comes to suffering) was just this. I was taught by my mother at a young age that wo-man meant for-man. Woman was created FOR man in the creation story. On top of this she is the one first seduced by not staying on her side of the line drawn by Father God. I can't even see through the etymology that this is quite right. Maybe. https://www.etymonline.com/word/woman The more usual Indo-European word is represented in English by queen/quean. Words for "woman" also double for "wife" in some languages. Some proposed PIE roots for wife include *weip- "to twist, turn, wrap," perhaps with sense of "veiled person" (see vibrate); and more recently *ghwibh-, a proposed root meaning "shame," also "pudenda," but the only examples of it would be the Germanic words and Tocharian (a lost IE language of central Asia) kwipe, kip "female pudenda." https://www.etymonline.com/word/wife?ref=etymonline_crossreference I was taught that a woman is someone who serves. Her existence is for someone else, not for herself. Also she should live in shame and be ashamed of being a woman. And she should learn to toe the line. If she follows what pleases her all hell breaks loose. What's more is that man and God get so very confused. Should I resolve this all by trying to find a man who thinks he's God? "We got a whole lot of money but we still pay rent 'Cause you can't buy a house in heaven There's only three men that I'ma serve my whole life It's my daddy and Nebraska and Jesus Christ" Or who I think is God? Or maybe this is all just for You. How did I perpetuate this so long? You are perpetuation. Can I blame somebody for this? You are the creator of cause and effect. The blamed blames. The shamed shames.

I think I'll make myself miserable so that everyone likes me. When I talk to people I'll point out the negative things that I don't like about myself, downplay everything good, always find something to complain about and connect with them over that. They'll LOVE me. Actually tried it, nope, turns out it just makes you miserable.

Having the desire to open up is enough, let life flow, it will give you what you need. You're already open, that's your very nature, it's just aligning actions and feelings with that. Listening more to intuition, less to what you think you're expected to do. Journaling helps a lot I find. Often gets you to that same feeling of being in love without having a someone to be your excuse for it.

I've found Ramana the same way for the most part, but it could have been a not so great translation or collection. Some sections are really good though. By the way if any one has a recommendation that would be great. I Am That is very well translated though, there's a little bit of a learning curve to understand the religious language, but Tolle and most other teachers create their own language to some degree. It's WELL worth it and there is a glossary the back. He was an incredible spontaneous teacher and the book is transcripts of conversations and really shows this and the spirit really shines through.

This place gets just gets more and more inviting to women and sincere seekers by the day. Contrary to popular belief, the little head isn't the dumb one. They both are.

Wasn't talking about butts anymore at that point. Gotta hand it you, you boys are so incredibly well focused on one thing.

My favorites rights now are... I Am That -Nisargadatta Maharaj Mister God, This Is Anna -Fynn (Totally unexpected but incredibly enlightening and nondual) The Nature of Consciousness- Rupert Spira The Transparency of Things: Contemplating the Nature of Experience - Rupert Spira The Power of Now was also the biggest turn around one for me.

Everything you're naturally drawn to is you leading you back to yourself. If you want to really creep yourself out, (amaze yourself) you can get into symbolism and delve deep into the psyche and deeper desires behind all the weird attractions you have. All desires stem from the same source, which is already fulfilled, so you can chase out a specific attraction or desire to no end, or go full circle. Knowing that it's neither meaningful or meaningless, neither fulfilled nor unfulfilled frees you from it and frees you to it. Sexual attraction is just one example. You're always attracted to something, attraction is also your focus. That's probably why it feels bad to focus on something you have an aversion to or don't want to be focusing on. It's an effort, like trying to make the two same poles of a magnet stick.

A few centuries ago your mother would be like "NO! You must ABSOLUTELY NOT marry her! She does not have child-bearing hips!" And you'd be like, "Screw, you Mom! Ima gonna do what I want!" And that's how skinny women came into fashion. JK, not really, although, I dunno, maybe. All the survival stories and excuses forgotten, you're naturally attracted to what serves you. This isn't bad unless you too narrowly define what "you" are. If you do, you're in the thought realm and that creates a fear and desire movement around it and actually keeps what you want away. It also makes you susceptible to confusing your own authentic desires for what you think you're supposed to want because you see other people wanting it or because you're told you should want it. Rosa Parks wanted to stay in her seat so she did. Now, all that came from that since had nothing to do with a bus seat, yet EVERYTHING to do with it. Authentic desires (truly on a deep level felt and owned desires) have yours' and everyone's wellbeing in mind even if on the surface they seem to fly in the face of what you think is your best interest in your own survival.

Them babies are much less likely to get stuck when they come out. There I ruined it for all of you. You're welcome!

If you get all scientific about it even the reason we are attracted to shiny cars and jewels is because of some survival purpose that shiny=water and so what is good for survival is often mistakenly equated with beauty. You might not really be open to seeing beauty around you, but theoretically if there's some desire for something already there that appreciation and that message is going to make it's way through all that anyway. What you're attracted to grabs your attention, you focus on it over other things. The potential for beauty and appreciation is in all things once you realize that you are not separate from the world or at the mercy of survival. You are the power to focus and you are all the periphery too.

@LastThursday Out of it, or just plain lost it, I don't know!

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People gravitate to the teachers who echo their own sentiments about themselves I guess.

OMG, I have a mind??? I've been searching for that elusive bastard all my life.

Started taking liquid iron, magnesium and a multivitamin every now and then, stopped eating nearly as much meat and found a powdered plant protein I can tolerate, started deep breathing throughout the day, started drinking unpasteurized local raised kefir, Spring is in full force, and I have so much energy, I don't know what exactly to attribute it to. Oh... I just remembered, you don't have to attribute stuff.

I don't buy the, "I was born in a body"

I've always been pretty much the same weight my whole life, but every once in a while in the past I've decide I want to lose weight and get optimally skinny or whatever. So to have the motivation to not eat what I want and be hungry, I have to motivate myself so I start pinching fat and looking for problem areas and motivating myself that these need attention. Then I constantly think about food, is this the right food or the wrong food? And then I get fatter. If however, I put out a loose intention to lose a few pounds and eat a bit better and then focus on all the unrelated amazing projects and activities I have going in life, I get slim and trim. This is how law of attraction works, awareness of the problem or the desire gives birth to the solution, (having a rough start like you describe means that in your case, this is very powerful and it's a very Good thing potentially) but if you continually focus on what's going wrong or what you don't want, you get more of it. You have to focus on the honest feeling of already being whole and fulfilled to allow in the feeling of it, which is directly what you're looking for. You want to be more conscious because it feels good. Thoughts about oneself as more conscious miss the mark, because what you really want is the experience of the feeling. Forgive the thoughts that you think are old programming and just focus on choosing one that feels better. Resisting or beating ourselves up for thinking a thought we didn't want to think is another thought we don't want to think. Just pick one that feels better. Mindfulness sort of turns you into the biggest ADD "oh, look there's a squirrel!" kind of person, but when you're on some crappy repetitive subject there's nothing better you can do than break focus of it.

Awareness of the problem is only useful as far as to give birth to the solution. It's out of inspiration, not depression or defeatism, that positive action and healing are allow to occur. So you are becoming aware of your connection/oneness with all and your desire to uplift and enhance their happiness and well being. That's AMAZING. The next step is the realization that the best way to achieve this is to allow your own well being. You cannot get sick enough to make someone else well. You cannot get depressed enough to make someone else happy.

Those heavy metals are everywhere and naturally occurring, so it's not weird that it's legal to put them in products. People have even used aluminum in food for years, (baking powder, antacids). Often as you start using more natural products you will begin to feel a heightened sensitivity to toxic products. Artificial fragrances decrease sensitivity to smell, they are like sensory clutter. It's the equivalent of living in a hoarder's house with newspapers and books stacked to the ceiling. Scented laundry detergent is a major source of chemical fragrance. You don't realize how much your senses open up until you get rid of them. There are much milder natural fragrances that are nice, or essential oils if you do well with them. I've always gotten some sort of pain, ill effects or headaches from most artificial products so I've been on the natural bandwagon for a really long time. It starts to just become intuitive when something isn't beneficial and you don't need to constantly read articles online about what's bad or evil or toxic anymore.