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@Leo Gura Ok, that's a riddle I'm going to have to digest and unravel.

One thing I started doing for a spiritual practice for a short time was going to CNN to read the headlines then going to Fox News and trying to reconcile/figure out the main gist of what happened. I have a good friend and she's conservative to my liberal and we've changed and deepened each other so much. She just sent me a Jordan Peterson video, I have a tough time getting through it though.

I found that it was easier to learn to love others sometimes before I could learn to love myself. That puts you in a bad position, because you're off balanced and vulnerable to them, you need them. Sometimes things are so counter-intuitive like Leo says. And when you finally do the counter-intuitive thing and you get a break through, you'll find yourself channeling Leo and saying "Of course, of course, of course!" just like he does. Maybe we want to emulate others because we know that we are really just empty. And instead of accepting that and realizing that emptiness is also counter-intuitively fulfillment, we think that we can just become someone else. The problem is that we pick and choose who we want to be like and don't want to be like. And when we do that, we can never really love our own self because we hold ourselves to the standards we are judging everyone else by, and because we are really just empty blank slates, we always fall short.

@tsuki Oh baby, there you are with half of the whole again. A half moon.

You have to be a mind in order to be confused.

@tsuki Do or do not, there is no try. You know, I never really liked Star Wars.

@now is forever Darkness is the light. You're on the right "track".

@now is forever No before. Only now. No people. Just me and you. Light can not be "just a spark". It cannot be limited. Everything is light.

@now is forever There is no track.

@now is forever Should? Follow your visions without making them goals.

@now is forever What is time? What is scheduling? What is a goal?

@Zigzag Idiot There are mistakes?

Oh MICHAEL JACKSON! How conflicted were we all that we loved your music, yet thought you were a pedophile. You were Jesus Christ all along. You lived and died to save our souls.

@Zigzag Idiot @now is forever Follow your obsessions. Are you afraid to lose yourself in form? Are you afraid? To lose? Yourself? In form?

This was so right and so perfect too. Reconcile right and wrong within yourself. Don't ask others to do it, they can't do it for you. They are you.

@kieranperez Was completely right and on point in his comment. It felt like a knife to my heart and I needed it.

Oh Tsuki. You needed me and that popcorn I gave you so that you could sit back, relax and enjoy the movie, didn't you?

All talk is shit.

That's what we're here for. Colleagues. People. Us. It's all the same.

If you were talking to yourself, you'd have been one and in tune with that colleague. You weren't talking to yourself, were you?

@tsuki How do you know just what I need/already knew? Oh. Gotcha.

Don't you know that more people are reading your comment than just the OP?

@Shaun Then is not now silly. Do you enjoy thinking so much? Or does it make you miserable?

@Shaun So when I had my first baby I didn't know about any of this stuff and they really scared me in the hospital about SIDS. I didn't enjoy him almost at all. I couldn't connect with my baby because I kept imagining him as if he were dead. But he wasn't. He was my beautiful perfect baby in that moment and I couldn't see him clearly. He has autism. I know that I didn't cause it but I also know that I did. With my second baby I had read Eckhart Tolle's The Power of Now and applied it before, during my pregnancy and after. She gave me such joy. Just holding her and smelling her head was wonderful. When I saw her face my brain lit like a Christmas tree with joy. That is the difference between being in the now and imagining horrors in your mind. Your experience. Right now. Right fucking now. Is the ONLY thing you are asked to accept.

@Shaun "Imagine" that it's "very real"? How on earth do I do that?